Suckage
I do have a few rough mixes from other songs... and by rough I mean... suckage. Thing is, even if I had all my equipment back, I probably wouldn't bother going back and remixing that stuff.
Here's another one, again written and <cough> "inspired" by that period of time when I was jammin' needles into my ex's neck. Good times.
Absolute suckage
It's a great example of what happens when you give birth to a song like this. When you're goofing around and come up with something, sometimes you really latch onto a particular thing about it, initially, and it's like a spark happens... and you begin to think that it's like, the greatest fecking thing ever written EVAR. You obsess.
At least when yer messed up, that is.
And yeah, in this case, it was like "this thing is freaking EPIC, man!"
So the tendancy was to put everything into it. Even though the song itself, at its core, was extremely flat and dead. There's no way I could objectively know that at the time.
I no longer listen to these things in any way other than as if I were revisiting an old journal that I've written in. Embarrasing. Merely a record of where I was at, at that time... is all.