once in a while i thought about why we were here in earth. whats our purpose? why can we see, hear or taste? why can we think? why are there colors?
lol i gotta get out more.

because something werid happened to me last week. i was reading dan brown's demons and angels and when i read the words "why are we here?" then suddenly my mind just went blank. i couldnt breathe or think and started crying. it seemed everything around me was fake. i couldnt talk and felt nervous for some reson. i was oddly desperatly looking for something detailed and colorful. once i laid my eyes on my grand theft auto san andreas poster everything returned to normal. werid eh?
just wonder if anyone else had one of those werid moments.

Possbily nearly everyday since I started to have interests in this kind of stuff after I left high school.

I think to myself, Well why Am I here, Why am I concious, I was not here on earth for 4.5 billion years and I didnt seem to care. It will be like that when I die.

Im me all my life, My own Consciousness. I cannot feel or know that any1 els is concious around me, I know I am, but how do I know you are? Well there are some Obvious answeres, but thats not the point. Im me all my life, and Me and my Consciousness wont be around forever. I can imagin how that will be, because Did you care before you were born?

When I die, I wont be able to question any of it. So its not like IM going to be bored lol. no1 truely understands why were are here.

Consciousness, isnt it weird? =/
Everything is weird

most of the population just take it for granted that we just exist and thats it. I feel I need answeres for everything, I guess I can look at weird answeres and theories, but thats exactly what this whole thing is. WEIRD

There used to be times I would think of things like that...and it would just progress into some deep philosophical abstract sort of thinking that would give me a huge headache and slight depression...so I choose not to let my mind wander on any one subject for more than a few minutes...


um, what was I talking about?

but seriously, don't stress yourself on things that can't be understood...just accept life as it is and make the most of it.

wow, i didnt expect such deep thoughts, that was exacty what i was thinking until that brain overload thing happened.


lol i think i got your point, i got too much time in my hands to think of things that cant be explained but these stuff just sticks with you, you know? and that scared the sh** out of me

When I die you will all or I cease to be, does the fact that I exist yesterday changes tommorow when I am gone? Is consciousness more than mere existence?

yea one time I thought that same thing and ran into my parents room and asked them what is my name. That's how I knew i existed>

I think theres a reason we all exist, but you made the reason yourself. You decided to become real. I cannot tell you why you chose be become real. Alot around us IS fake. Like money, what is it? A green slip with 1s and 0s. People get all excited about it...Anyway you gotta meditate and really get in touch with your inner self to figure out why you are here.

i think about this sh** allot too...but then i think...we are real...everything is real...it is real because we make it real...considering this (this world/galaxie/universe) is all we know then it has to be real because even if it is just figments of our imagination it is as real as it is ever going to get... but something i like to think about when i get hurt snowboardin or whatever i think...this pain is all in my head...literally...we feel pain because our brain tells us to...next time u hurt yourself dont focus on the pain...make your brain feel something else...mind over mind

This reminds me of leprocy. They loose feeling in their nerves, they feel no pain. The reason they loose fingers, toes is mainly because they do not know they are hurting themselves. I bet future medicine will be able to locate which part of the brain experiences pain, and maybe dim that part of the brain down temporary? But if you do this, you would like have a light case of leprocy, which would mean people could accidentally hurt themselves (like leave a hand on a stove, they would not know about it untill they visually saw this).

i think there is a reason why we exist. Simply because there is a reason for everything.

Noone knows why we are here. I dont know, you dont know, the pope doesn't know(even if he thinks he does).

I think life is made to be enjoyed and too many people just decide that they should go to work, go home, eat, sleep, and then get up the next day and do it agian. So many people seem like they are just freaking drones or something, like theres nothing they can change and no reason to try. Then they reach the end of their life and look back and find they wasted fourty, fifty, even sixty years of their life in a crappy job and never did anything with their life. I dont want to be one of those people, I want to live out my life and when I get to the end I want to say "damn... I did alot of sh*t", maybe noone noticed that I made a painting or wrote a song, but I want to know that I atleast tried to make the best of my life. If you dont even try to make the best of your life how can you expect anything of it?

I'm pissed that society revolves around working in a box all day with other people in boxes around you eight hours a day five days a week with a bitchy boss, no room for advancement, and having no mental stimulation at the end of the day. Meanwhile the head of the company makes millions off your time, your effort, your life!

Why do you think people have mid life crisis's? It's so simple! It's because they worked a stressful job for twenty years, and it hits them hard that they didn't do anything with their life because they wasted their time to get paid at the end of the week.

And what happens when you dont conform to this ideal? You live on the streets, you become the scum of the earth, and once you reach that point there's no going back to a working environment. You have nowhere to live, no money for food, and noone will employ you, you might as well cut your losses and end your life rather live in that miserable sh*thole. That's the sad reality of society...

P.S. sorry to bring up such a depressing subject but I thought it needed to be said.

I thinks it's very simple. We are here to experience (enjoy or not) what we could not experience otherwise. This is on a much grander scale - not your derived experiences (ie your lifestory) but space, time, pain, joy, 'living' - fundamentals. Without being part of it (reality/existence) you could possibly only speculate about matter, space, time, feelings, pain, taste, sound, sight etc. etc. which we all know are real and exist. A question I posed to a friend recently: Could you possibly explain what pain feels like to someone who has never felt pain and without demonstrating even a little pinch? IMO, no - pain must be felt to 'know' how it feels.

What if, from the 'other' side this existence is a mere speculation - like a dream/supernatural. 'Dreams' would seem like ordered (time strict) scenes whereas 'reality' would be unordered (time independent) but would make sense due to our capability to understand. 'Life' would die based on other dimensions? rather than time and experience life HERE. When 'life' comes back after dying HERE it can merely describe the experiences it had. 'Others' want to experience this reality (perhaps like a vacation) - take the plunge. Randomly placed in ANY life (at begining) to experience the fundamentals of life NOT how a porsche feels better to drive than a beat up old bomb

That's just one way I think of reality...

That's because we are all in a sort of dream-like state. We don't automatically think of those things, we just go along with what's happening. Like now, I'm not thinking of my life, I'm just thinking of what's now. Sometimes I have deep-thinking, but I'm used to it. The first time I did it was strange and scary. It's just a sign that your mind is developing into a more understanding state and you're maturing. It's something that every average person does really......

You can't escape the pain the expect to have a balanced existence, the leprosy existence is an example of this. Even though it's not voluntary, volutary or not the end result is the same. What your looking for is not the diminishing of pain from your consious mind, but the acceptance of pain as a part of you (It was your fault). You change your mental thought of pain as something bad for something accepted. In this you will find out how to live perfectly with all pain life has to offer that is neccessary.

I get thoughts like that sometimes. I'm sure many people do! It is freaky, and you wonder if you even DESERVE to live, but what you've got to think instead is, hey, I'm here! I've been given the gift of life, so I'm going to live it to the full!

Don't let thoughts like these upset you. Just get over them!

Yeah, sometimes I get plauged with stupid what if's. Like what if our whole lives are just a mistake and we aren't even supposed to exist but we do cause were stubborn. Then I just go to a place in my mind that is a perfect image of everyone being content and happy with life the way it is. How that happens I don't know but just imagining that it might be possible get me going again with renewed rejuvination. You should really look into trying to get your ideal world made up so you have something you know your living for, it really helps.