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honey, i was in tears just reading that, please PM me if u ever need to talk, i know exactly what a broken heart feels like, u just have to give it time to heal, it will happen christopher, if u want to PM me and tell me more about this, please do, if u want to talk now i'm in chat room, love spooks x

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i got it thanks christopher, i'm just happy to help hon, i know what your going through.

Please don't do anything bad to yourself, i know exactly how you are feeling, i was on the verge of killing myself too, but i'm getting better. I would swallow a lot of pills and get knocked out from them. i got dumped by my ex after 4 years being together, lost our V to eachother. we're friends now, but there's not one time i don't think about the old times with her in my head when i'm with her, or just even at home alone. i'm looking for another girl right now, but i'm too shy to talk to girls, and i'm afraid of getting hurt again, and letting another girl in my heart. I got a big hole in my heart and it still hurts when the wind blows through, i'm just waiting for that other girl to fill that hole up. I'm 18, i'm good looking, if you wanna pm me or IM me, please do.

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Please don't kill yourself.

There is an old saying: This too shall pass....

....just remember that life is not a smooth road with a few bumps here and there...it is a very bumpy road with a few smooth places....think positive.

Some poems for you*:

Feeling Out

Four walls, Six walls
Thirty walls or more
We're all locked away in our own little world
Where do I go, when there is no place to go?
What can I do, when there is nothing left to do?
What should I feel, when there is nothing left to feel?
I feel I have just been locked away on the inside.
The inside, the outside
They're really both the same
It doesn't matter, either place
You've still got to play the game


Positive Thoughts

A thought is anything you think, do, or feel
If your thoughts are of a negative nature,
Then your actions and feelings
Will be of a negative nature also.
Negative natures include the emotions.
All anger, all jealousies, all hatred, all fears and all wars
And all violence stem from and are
Rooted in negative thoughts and
Negative thinking.
Beware the negative thought. It is poison.
Positive natures also include the emotions.
All love, all giving of heart, all truth, all kindness,
All respect, all joy, all laughter, all smiles, all peace
And all happiness and all hope stem from
And are rooted in positive thoughts and positive thinking.
Seek out the positive thought. It is gold.
One great truth of being human
Is that we can change our minds
And changing our minds is changing our thoughts.
Think Positive.







*Copyright= The Dan Fisher Book of Cosmic Poetry

I know how you feel, I was on the brink of suicide yesterday and I still am. Why didnt I do it? Dont know, Im still thinking about it. It seems like a logical solution, but I hope you feel better.

chris, please u know if u need to talk, i'm here, and same goes for novo and austin, just PM me ok?

I once had the whole suicide thing figured out. I was seventeen and logically considered the act. On the Pro side was this thought: We all die eventually anyway...what difference does it make now or later? What will I gain by living? A few good times...yippee? What will I miss by dying? A whole lot of pain!
On the Con side: What will I leave behind? A lot of people in pain; suffering for the rest of their lives because of my selfish act.

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One must always consider the thoughts and feelings of those who love you. How selfish is it to end your pain and suffering, but by doing so to cause immense pain and suffering to those who love you?

Suicide is not an option....it is a selfish act nothing more....

A much better option is to change your thoughts. Remove the negative thoughts by replacing them with positive thoughts. How? Simple. When ever you catch yourself saying...Life sucks..immediately say Life is Great. When you find yourself saying 'I can't do this anymore'....say out loud, " I can do this. I will do this"

The subconcsious accesses memory to support the concsious thought. It doesn't know if you believe what you are saying...it only seeks to support that thought. By replacing negative thoughts with positive ones, you force the subconcsious mind to access and provide other supportive thoughts.

Theres certainly no one here going to miss me, so in reality who cares?

Sorry to hear about all you are going through, it is horrible.

I would hope that you would ask for help from those around you at a time like this.

As someone who can speak from experience; problems like this can be resolved if you seek help. You have many people around you who care about you and your welfare and don't want to see you hurting.

I have always found it interesting that if a person has diabetes there is no question whether they should go to the doctor or not. As soon as a person has some degree of depression, they are supposed to be able to pull themselves out of it. It just doesn't work that way...You have an illness that is no fault of your own that can be helped, just like diabetes can...

It may not look like you can feel better, but you have to trust me; it can be better.

If you need help, ask for it. If you need someone to talk to PM me.

novo, never say that again, please PM ppl if u need to talk, or get help from trained ppl, girls or guys are never a reason to kill yourselves

Please Please Please PM me


anyone wanting to cheer me up, would be much appreciated

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Wow...I never actually knew people were so down in the dumps around here like this... I know I may be an ass sometimes but if any of ya need a cool cat (I know I'm not much to talk to but every little bit helps right?) just drop me a PM! (just like Spooks eh?) I'm completly willing to talk and just know that I love all of you cats out there on UM!

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hey chris, if u need to talk u know where i am, and that goes for all of u. , heres a saying, from my favourite movie, gone with the wind.........tomorrow is another day....... i hope that helps

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you have depression. it doesn't mean that there's anything wrong with you, 40% of the world's population has some symptoms of depression. whatever you do don't commit suicide because it gets better eventually. the part of you're brain that is used in judgement and moderating some emotions is underactive, so things will seem worse than they really are.

i got depressed a year and 4 months ago, so i know what you're feeling like. i might be able to help you with it if you pm me, because i know some things that can help.

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Hiya Christopher and Novo,

I am deaply saddened by how you feel (although I am glad that Christoper is feeling better - and good luck with the forklift test).

I have been affected by suicide, about 15 years ago a very close friend of my family killed himself. He choked to death on his own vomit after attaching a hose pipe to his exaust. It was probably the most traumatic moment in my life even now it still upsets me.

I still see his parents regularly (they are best mates with my Mum & Dad), I know they have never gotton over it and it has totally ruined their lives.

My friend was living with his girlfriend at the time, but she said that they were getting on fine, and to this day no-one knows why he did it.

His parents were so unable to deal with it that they had to sell their house as they couldn't cope with the memories. His father has retired early as he had a nervous breakdown and his mother is now a nervous chain-smoker. He left behind a little brother who at the age of 8 couldn't comprehend what had happened and it affected his relationships as he didn't want to commit - worrying that he would go the same way as his brother.

so...

you might not realise how many people love and care for you but once you are gone how will they be able to tell you??? Everyone has someone who loves them, friends, family, pets, someone will miss you, just think of all the people here at UM that would miss you if you weren't here anymore.

Please don't hurt yourselves.

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hey,
i hope u feel much beta my life seems as bad as urs but wat i always remember is ther whole life ahead of us and things cud only get beta i am going through a bad patch and i feel like dying but you have to keep going u will get ova wat ever problem u hav soon enough hope u get this get better

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Chris, i told u that u would pass didnt i? see things are good, congratulations hon, i'm so happy for u

Well done Christopher.

CONGRATULATIONS!!!

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Congrats for passing the fork lift test!

I suffered badly with a broken heart,the pain lasted for about a year and half,I thought I would never get over it and the confusion of my feelings,who i am,what im worth,why,everything was painful.
I cried everyday for a over a year,and suicide crossed my mind for a while.
I couldnt sleep,eat,talk to anyone and the phsyical pain in my stomach and groin felt like I'de been kicked in the balls everyday for about 400 days and nights.
I thought the pain would stay with me and change my usual happy- go lucky outlook on life but the pain DOES go away,

I feel great now,when I think back about my ex and my broken heart I feel kinda sad but i feel it was an experiance that has made me stronger.
I think everyone experiances this depression some time in there life,some stronger than others but its part of what makes you who you are and another of lifes challanges,U passed the forklift test,now mend that broken heart!
U know its broken,otherwise you wouldnt feel so bad,thats a good thing as you know theres positivity trying to get out., And it will.......good luck dude.

i posted a thread on here about a girl i was with for a bout a year and how she broke my heart, she was my first love, my first, basically my first eveyrthing that is anything meaningful in a relationship, she kept toying with me and leading me on, and then one day i decided it was time to move on, and i never looked back, untill about a month ago....she called me out of the blue, and im currently involved with someone now, its been 2 years now since we broke up almost 3 and when she called me i still had those feelings for her, its something you will never lose, and it is like this for everyone, but you have to be strong and realize that yes it is great to be loved by the opposite sex, but is it worth all the pain and suffering you get at the end? if someone who can make you so happy make you feel so sad, were they really worth it? this is a question you have to look deep to answer, i myself still cant (or maybe i just dont want to) admit that my first love was not worth it, however if i could go back in time and do it all over again i would, even if i fully knew the outcome

Cangradulations Sir Christopher, glad you are doing better, always nice to talk to you when you are.

Blessings,
Sophia

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I am glad that things are going well for you and you are doing better.

Good job on passing the forlklift test. I know they can be tough.

When I was in college, one of my many jobs was driving a standup hyster forklift for a Wholesale club. The top shelf where the overstock was stored was only a few inches below the hanging sodium-arc lighting, and guys were forever forgetting about that when they were lifting stock off the top shelf to bring it down.

Boy those sodium arc lamps would just explode with the slightest bump and set whatever was bumped into it on fire Forklift drivers would end up covered in broken hot glass and trying to figure out how to handle a flaming pallet of motor oil or whatever they were pulling down...

Great job! have fun.

Hi,

What's wrong I think I'll beable to help. Is it ok if i write a song for you. First before I do so I need to know what's wrong. pm me anytime.

hope you feel better soon,

mac

Ummm....I think I missed the bulk of this thread.
But hey, Chris, good luck, bro. Hope the New Year holds the best of fortune for you. Take care.

yuppers wish I had caught more of this thread, I know that I feel better reading some of these replys. I know we all go through hard times especially the relationships, but it's good to hear the way we go through them can be the same. If anyone needs to talk I'm a great listener just write me!

McKenna,

Sir Chris has moved on and won't be returning to the forum, so you'll not receive the information you desire. He had requested that his posts be removed, so the purpose of this thread is basically moot anymore.

MM