Hi dear!! And please if anyone has a problem with my beleif then don't bash it or bash me personally. state your beleif and what you disagree with..

First off Lover- I'am surpirised after the last post about this that this is being allowed up..

But my beleifs are that if you suffer mental problems and can't cope with your life that you can be forgiven..But now if you go and kill a bunch of people then kill yourself then that is different--cuz you could help it. But if you suffer mentally and are on the breaking point where you feel that is your last resort then I beleive God can forgive you..

For I think that everyone has they're problems to deal with and I have tried suicide many many times and every time I beleive God kept me here for a reason. I couldnt brink with my problems anymore. I'am a emotional person. But I'am happy with my life itself. I have a beautiful daughter and loving man but before that I couldn't cope with it. I would sit in corners of my apt or when I lived with my parents and feel like the world was crashing down on my head. I'd cry cuz I felt I always needed people to look up to me and that I was always being too pleasent to people, like I was trying to satisfy everyone else but myself. I had abuse several yrs when I was a young girl and I never understood why this being allowed to happen to me. I suffered for everyones pain. If someone was hurting or died, I took all that in and couldn't deal with it at times. I admit, I was a very messed up child growing up. But I did have a good life, but didn't have what i really needed-& that was a father. I grew up with a father, yet without a father. I've been from being with real parents, to two foster homes, to being adopted. My stepfather now that is married to my adopted mother is closest father I ever had. I yearned for one and always assumed that I would never have one and I was a curse to everyone. But now yes I still remain emotional but not like I was. I didn't take counseling or pills for it. I found my comfort in God. I feel at peace when I talk and pray to him. Yet like I said, trust me I'am very so much happy now but I still feel and hurt when my feelings are hurt.
But anyways, sorry for telling my hurts, but I beleive and always thought growing up that if God allowed the pills or knife to take my life that I would had possibly been forgiven cuz I couldn't cope with it, cuz I didn't wanna be here. Now that don't make a excuse or reason to commit suicide but I beleive there are those that can't help it.. So to any of those out there that are hurting and can't take it anymore, I will be here for you and will cry with you and talk to you if you need me. Everyone deserves a friend and deserves another chance. Don't you think you do?? Thinking of you always!!

With respect Star the MODs just might move this to the OFF-TOPIC section. You sound like you have come though a lot in your young life.

It's not, that's why I CLOSED the original thread . Starting new threads to get around another one being closed is expressly against forum rules, please don't do it again.