[FONT=Arial][SIZE=1]Okay, I've been wanting to post this for awhile now.
So, I used to have a dog Pebbles... she was a german sheperd mutt, and she was gorgeous and she had the prettiest eyes i had ever seen. they were brown and looked as though i was walking through a caramel desert. as a young girl, i premourned pebbles' death... even though she was only three or six. i can't exactly remember how old she was when i was on my parent's bed with pebbles and telling her how she was my snow white and i told her that even after she dies he has to give me a sign and communicate with me. I told her if she gets reincarnated, she has to give me a sign and let me know, so that i can find her and we can be reunited. she was three the first time i told her this. i used to just break down in tears and mourn her death. she was my first dog, and i remember having my parents promise me they would never put her to sleep.
As the years went by, Pebbles would loose her fur, and the vet. said it was just dry skin and such... but now that i look at it, it was probably a sign of the cancer that no one ever saw or found.
Well, when i was in my sophomore year of high school and i was fifteen, Pebbles was ten [in human years that is]. So one night or so, Pebbles starts coughing up blood. and we were really worried then either two or so days we took her to the vet, and i was completely worried, she was so young and she really was the best dog ever.
It was december 04, 2002 and i was on a field trip with my photography class going to the metropolitian museum of art. it was my third time ever going into the city and i was pretty excited. it was turning out to be a fun day. I had called up my mother when i was on the bus, and asked my mom how Pebbles was doing, she didn't really want to tell me or give me much details but she told me that Pebbles had a heart murmur, i wanted to cry, i really did but i was having such a good day that it was really hard.
When i got home that day, i was on the couch with my mom when she had broke me the bad news, that Pebbles had to be put asleep for the vet. had found she had lung cancer in both of her lungs and that it was going to spread fast, and her mom had ovarian cancer, so when we had her spayed it was the best thing we could do for her. Now, i was crying, but it just really didn't hit me. She said we would go to the vet. and say our goodbyes when my sister got home and my dad who was coming home early from work.
Even, my dad was crying. well when we got there, Pebbles' eyes were so sad looking, so rich looking and gorgeous as always but they were filled with sadness. When i hugged her, i whispered in her ear, the same thing i had been telling her for years except this time would be the last time i would ever even talk to her. i told her that i would miss her with everything i had, and that she has to communicate with me even after she's gone. i told her to give me a sign when she was gone and to give me a sign a few weeks after when she was reincarnated and here. or something along those lines.
A few months went by, and I had a dream of Pebbles, i don't remember much of it though. Then another months went by and i was taking a shower, when i had hair in my mouth, so i went to take it out and when i looked at it, it was strand of Pebbles' fur. i was like how could this be? because she had been dead for quite some time and her fur or hair wasn't anywhere anymore and it was never upstairs. I had told my mom when i was done and she had told me that just that night she had a dream of Pebbles coming in through the back door.
Now, i don't know if that is a coincidence or not but everyone once in awhile after that my mom would hear the tapping of her backfeet in our house and call pebbles' name on accident every once in a while because she would swear she saw her laying down sometimes. Now, it may have been a coincidence that i had the hair in my mouth or that my mom had the dream at the same time or what not, but honestly i had a dream after my cat had died as well, and i am a firm believer in fate and such, and i believe that that was a sign that pebbles was giving me, maybe she wasn't reincarnated but maybe she was a ghost/spirit, because she would always watch my little brother and sister who were babies at the time, and jocelyn was still a baby and daniel was a toddler, so i felt maybe she felt like she had to guard them still like she always did. But i don't know. just thought i would share this long story. [sorrie!]
Peace + love,
tara