Could this be a form of depression or something? I just don't care about much anymore. I have so many things that let me down day to day. Just seems like nothing good happens and I'm so stressed out all the time, I've just chosen not to care anymore. This relieves a little stress, but also causes more problems. I have turned into a jerk to some people and started bad habbits. I'm lazier than ever as well.

How can I overcome this without some stupid medication? Damn, I feel stupid just posting this. I am almost too lazy to cure my own problems.

If you had diabetes, would it be right for me to tell you to cure it without stupid medication?

No, you'd go and get insulin and change your diet and get it under control. It is that simple.

Somehow, when it has to do with brain chemistry, everyone is just supposed to be able to fix themselves magically. That is just a silly idea.

No one here is a doctor or psychologist and cannot give you any advice that would be of help. All I can offer is that if this is a long term issue of over a couple of weeks then you do have at least one of the symptoms of depression that bothers you enough to posting it on a website, so it is obviously serious to you.

It sounds like a doctor would be the person to talk to to see if something is amiss...just as if you were to come down with some of the symptoms of diabetes.

We cannot heal our brain chemistry any better than we can heal our body chemistry; sometimes it needs a little bit of help, and in that case we really need to talk to someone that can offer legitimate help.

Damn. Bad deal.

What Fluffybunny said! I know it's difficult to ask for help. One of my friends talked me into telling the doctor I was having a problem, and I was just positive he was going to tell me to snap out of it or something. He didn't, though. I've been on "stupid medication" for the better part of two years now, excepting a few months when I let myself run out. That time when I wasn't taking it proved to me more than anything what a positive influence it has on me.

Medication is not the answer for everyone, and only your doctor can determine if it's right for you. And if he does put you on something, it's not going to be an instant "druggie" sort of artificial high. Mine made me sick as a dog for the first two weeks, but I was desperate enough by then to stick it out. If you do need it, though, it's nothing to be ashamed of.

What I'm on is Zoloft, which is a "selective serotonin re-uptake inhibitor". Let me translate that into English. As I understand it, the human nervous system is like a vast computer network. All the different neurons -- think of them as the individual computers -- link together using synapses. In order for these links to be effective, you have to have adequate amounts of a substance called serotonin, both in your brain and along your nerve pathways. If you don't have enough serotonin the neurons don't communicate well and it can lead to a range of problems including depression. Zoloft keeps the serotonin that your body does produce from being absorbed back into the cells as quickly, so there's more available to help the synapses connect. It's entirely a medical problem and can only be treated as such. (Fluffy's insulin analogy is very apt.)

Please do talk to your doctor! As I said before, only a doctor can diagnose your problem and only a doctor can help.

Exactly what they said! It does sound like you're experiencing depression. Been there, done that. Same kind of attitude you're talking about. I think the "I don't give a damn" being broken could be a defense mechanism of sorts when you have too much other crap going on. Definately see a doctor. Especially if this has been going on for more than a couple of weeks, as Fluffy said. Depression medication is not a bad thing.

I'm on lexapro. It helps. I have a lot of stress and anxiety to deal with and finally decided to get something. It's so mild that at first I didn't think it was doing anything for me but noticed more and more that I was feeling normal and more relaxed. Really, it isn't a big deal. Most people don't talk about it. You'd be amazed how many people are on something or other. Check with your doctor.

go eat sugar, it gives you energy. And then go and emotionally attafch your self to someone or have them do it to you. OR ask rafiki he know the way.