Hi all, I'm Chris and am new here, but looking for answers (hopefully lol)

Anyways, i have been having some weird things happening. And here it goes (takes deep breathe).

Now, there is this girl named Melissa that i have known since grade 9 (i'm in year 12 now, and have known each other for almost 4 yrs) and have been really good friends, and have sticked by each others side through all the worst, including me stopping her suicide attempt (very touching moment, 10 mins with her and i had her smiling with the final tears dripping down her face), and coping criticism from other individuals cause of the rumours of her background (for years) and crap like that. We have been through alot. But at the start of this year, i have grown to really love her. Well, i'm pretty sure it is.

I have pictures of her in my mind, very emotional images (all good ones), seeing her dressed in white, the sunset shining on the back of her hair as the hair dances in the wind on a beach, her face, tingles on my arms as though i can feel her cuddling me. And can hear her happy laughter etc. etc. , missing her heaps, even after a few hours, and thinking about her ALOT!

But what is my main focus of weirdom is a couple of things. I was walking one day through her neighbourhood on the way home from school (cause i catch the train home and have a choice of getting on at 2 stations, i decided to get on at the one closer to that location (for some odd reason, I just did) As i was walking down consumed in thought of her and missing her heaps, i turned around to see leaves falling off a tree (just gently floating down) towards the pathway, and i get an image of her dressed in black with blonde hair, with the leaves gently dancing and falling over her. Then as i continued to walk thinking wtf was that, Lol, i see her again, dressed in white, really bright white for a split moment). A mental image quickly seen in the corner of my eye. Really clearly looked like her

Then from that, as the months progressed, still in contact with her and all, I have my last exam for school in term 3, and finish up. The night before the exam, i sent her an email stating something like "hey, i'm gonna finish my last exam tomorrow, meet me at school, at the front at like 11.15am and we can go to Southbank parklands".

Cause i emailed it late, i was sure it was most likely she won't get it, but there was a thin chance, waited at the front for 30 mins, she didn't come. (she didn't get it, after I asked her later) I walked towards the trainstation ready to just go home and start my boring holidays, bit sad about not seeing her. But as soon as i got on the train, i had this, well its unexplainable, well hard anyways, and wasn't a feeling in the gut, but a sense upon which that i should get off at the next station where she lived near, just some odd sudden 'thing' popped up, unexplained sense, and i got off the train at that station. I hop off, and it just so happened that she was at that station, having her holidays greeting another friend off. She was only gonna be there for 5 mins, and hardly eva hangs out there, and pretty rare taht she would be there at midday. But she was, and she was surprised to see me, for some reason i wasn't, like i new she was there, but i was happy. (the chances of that eva happening IS REALLY RARE in this situation)

Now, i thought that this could have been utter coincidence at 1st (bit confused, cause it all seemed perfectly worked out and sort, and the meeting of her was perfect timing, and well, seemed 'unnatural and well, sorted/setup (impossible though for any person i know, seemed slightly spiritual. WE later connected really well with each other as great friends, not wanting to be bf and gf cause of her feelings that her lifestyle and background would pull me down, (she has had a rough childhood.), and although we connect so strongly from both sides, she can't cause she cares too much. She slowly walked away tearing over it cause we love each other so much. I have been her really strong friend since yr 9, and the only guy that she eva dated who has neva tried to take physical advantage over her. I have always been around to help her out. (These are the reasons we are REALLY connected)

Anyways,but today (a couple of weeks later), this morning, it reoccured. Same station, as I approached it, same feeling, same sense. I was thinking about her about like 10 mins before the sense kicked it, but i had the "wateva u call it" mental something that buzzed around me (don't know what to say it is), to get off. Now, I have neva seen her at that station at 7.50am in the morning, far too early, cause she leaves school like at 8.30am of something. And what do u know, she was there again, again led to her, without even knowing her routine exactly of when she gets on and off, or wateva. (perfect timing again, most improbable to occur as 'luck' of my thoughts, it seems, and well, hmm)

2 times, i have had this, and 2 times it has been correct, 2 times perfect timing. Alot of other things have happened like those others i have mentioned. She was the main reason also that i hadn't killed my self when i have been terribly depressed. But these 'things' are confusing. Could it be some mentality thing, or even guardian angels, i dunno, but it just happens. Any ideas of comments?

If it is something, how can i grow upon it? And am i feeling some thing good, or something that means something is yada yada, wateva. That plz gimme some sense of direction, cause i'm lost and yeah.

Thanx all,
Chris.
(All help would be greatly appreciated, sorry for the life story, but i wanted to say as much as possible to help give u all the details to help perscribe what i am going through)

Welcome to UM! I dunno what to say dude. It could be that 'feeling' just like when a mother feels something is wrong with her child, but I have no idea what is.

Chris, do you ever have that "deja voo" feeling in the morning of these things happening? The reason i am asking is you could of dreamt this before it happened. Or another idea is that you 2 are meant to be together so spiritually you 2 can be pulling you to where is going to be.
But it being any type of sixth cense I don't think so.
Also if something is supposed to be fate will lead it there. To give you an example, When me and my husband met we were at a tractor pull. it got rained out so I envited my brother and his family to dinner. I told Walt ( my hubby now) that he was welcomed to come down too. Well me and My Parents took off and my brother gave Walt directions and a number to call if he was to get lost. He showed up at the sametime as my brother. My brother gave him the wrong directions and the wrong number. But by chance he seen my brothers van, which wasn't hard to find seeing how it had the spare tire on the top of it, and followed him.
If he would of seen my brother we wouldn't be together now. So you see Fate works in many ways.

I think I know how you feel. I had a very good friend that I met at age 13 and we connected right away and were extremely close. We were friends for years and even after losing contact for many years, when we found each other again, it was like no time had passed at all. It was always that kind of friendship that was like I knew him in a past life or something, like we had some sort of other worldly connection that no one could explain, we knew what the other one was thinking, we could finish each others sentances and it always felt like he was a part of me, but I was never able to explain this unusual bond. So I don't know what to tell you, but I understand what you are saying. And this is off topic, but it sounds like you have a very true, deep, sincere love for this woman and I hope that you two can be together one day, you don't find love like that very often and you don't want to lose that. Just reading the way you talk about her is so wonderful and meaningful, it almost makes me cry, I wish you the best.

Thanx all for replying, was just a lil' mind boggled with it, and it amazed me. Yeah, i do hope this realtionship does continue, and grow. It has been growing ever since we met, so i see no reason for it to stop growing, (the relationship that is), and when someething does get in the way, like a few times in the past, we always seem to come back as storinger friends than before. I love her bigtime, i have never felt like this about anyone in my entire life but her.

Oh, and nah, i haven't had any deja voo before with it. I don't even decide to go there, i just get an absolute certainty that i MUST get off the train at that time and location, without even considering whether or not i should. (Like wondering of the slim chances of her being there, yet she is). I haven't had any dreams of her from memory. My life and relationship with her has been a living dream.

I dunno why i get these 'feelings', maybe it is from dreams i can't recall or remember, but are deep in my mind that i just don't even know of em or remember. I dunno. But the idea of me stopping or going to that place where she would be happens like 30 to 5 mins before the opportunity arrises. Is is possible to have deja voo without knowing.

Oh well, thanx for reply everyone, and its nice to here from some of ur similar stories. Its wierd how it works out like it does, strange how really meaningful relationships work.