I recently had an experience, while asleep, that I have never had before, or heard of before. I usually dream in full color, and enjoy pretty wonderful things, with the average amount of psychologically, textbook interpretable stuff. This time, I was in complete darkness. No matter how hard I tried to see, I couldn't. A very pleasant, female voice was giving me what seemed to be a hypnotic suggestion. She was telling me to relax, each part of me, one thing at a time- just like relaxation tapes I've heard- and then, she was telling me that I was surrounded by water, and it was filling up the small area I was in. Then, she said that I was under water, and would not be able to breathe, but that it was ok, I should remain relaxed. She said that I needed to let go, and drown in the warm, peaceful water, and that death was far better than life...
I tried to wake up, but could only stop from suffocating, and not wake up all the way. This happened 2 more time, for a total of 3 times. Each time the alluring voice would start over again, step by step, and I'd let go a little more each time, then just jolt out of it, but not wake up to full consciousness. The third, and last, time, I remember going as far as feeling mud seep into my mouth and nose, tasting the dirt, and suffocating, while her voice coaxed me along, saying that the mud was filling me up with the water, and I would "absolutely enjoy slipping into death" this time. I woke up, feeling like I just slammed back into my body, coughing and choking, with the taste of the dirt still in my mouth, briefly, and very shaky. I immediately did my usual means of psychic protection, including invoking the Name of God, and slowly felt better, though very drugged. I scribbled notes about it, and eventually fell back to sleep.
What was this? It was not a dream, I can assure you, unless I've actually gone crazy and don't completely know it yet. I do not drinkor do drugs. I am like many people in my family, very sensitive, psychically, and have seen and dealt with many spirits, and Angels, of various kinds, in the past. I am used to the "wierd". Because of this, while in counselling, I have been evaluated, mentally, and been found to have a healthy, sound mind, and a very high intelligence. Yet, alas, though not schizophrenic, thank God, I am still "wierd".
I also have a very evil family member who is in to the very dark side of the occult, and tried to do various things to me when I was a teenager-many years ago, (ritualistic abuse and such). He was involved with a very creepy group of people who had money, and power. This family member now acts like nothing ever happened, of course. Due to the time period, and the influential people involved, I chose to break contact with him, long ago, and just heal. But, due to another family member coming forward, and telling us about things that they remember also, my mother recently had a very big confrontational conversation with the originally mentioned, evil family member on the phone, and said things that she probably shouldn't have for the safety of everyone involved. She said that she knows everything, and who he was affiliated with. He was furious, and yelled at her, and denied knowledge of any such happenings, and said that anyone remembering such things is insane, and "just...hurtful". Please. (I thought of these people, the day after the creepy-sleep-thing happened, while trying to figure things out.)
This "suggestive-dream-sequence" that I had, was a complete intrusion, as far as I'm concerned. It makes me mad and very unsettled. Maybe that was their motive? How could someone actually get into my sleep like that, and then stay with me, throughout the suggestion, coaxing, and starting over twice? It seems like someone is trying to get to me by means of psychic attack? But, I am not yet an expert. Any suggestions? Anyone had, or heard of, anything similar? Do I take further preventative methods, somehow?
I've seen protective suggestions on the internet, that are "spell-like"- you know, mirrors to bounce back curses and negativity, garlic, cut or in garlands,etc... I've never resorted to these kinds of things, and frankly, they don't seem to fit. But, I don't want to have a negative attitude, or put down that which I am ignorant of.
If these evil people from my past, (though many have died and are in prison, now), have decided to interfere with me, with such a horrible method- and they sure as hell didn't win- but I've definitely got the "creeps" about dealing with that type, and strength of dark power. I am battling an ongoing illness, and may be vulnerable at times. I am also a single mom of older teens, and alone at night, which has been boring and lonely, but fine for now, because of my illness. But, yes of course, I do have the inevitable cats.
Maybe it was just an evil spirit of some kind...I DON'T KNOW!
Any feedback is welcome! SOS! Soon!
I have never reached out like this, on something so wierd, and it feels not just a little- tres bizarre, as does my attempt to lighten the situation with dry humor, I'm sure...
Thank you for reading this.
Sincerely, Lady-Warrior Ravynwynn
