Sorry guys, but Ive been really freakin depressed latley, a friend of mine just passed away, I don't want to sound like a wimp or nothin, but life just seems to suck right now.
This is something entirely new for me, for I have never really been depressed in my life. I feel like dirt, I have done nothing bad or anything, it's just that everything seems to go wrong when Im around.

Most of my friends have all left the state of Ohio, to begin their new lives, and Im stuck here with no one.

I am in fear of age, it messes with my mind so much. I don't want to grow old, but I am and I don't know what to do about it.
My girlffriend left me because I have ran into some financial trouble, and I sit here and wonder where the hell is love? Love is a bunch of crap, it's a lie. Yesterday I was with these 2 girls and we had a lot of fun (if you adults know what I mean), but afterwards I felt like dirt I felt like I had beend used, and for the first time in my life I was ashamed of myself. It was like something inside me was telling me YOU CAN DO BETTER.
But I feel like I can't do any better than that, I am a very intelligent person according my friends, family, and professors, but yet I do drugs to escape the pain of the world.
I smoke marijuana, and the pain goes away for awhile, I drink 3 or four beers and Im happy, then after I sober up I start thinking Im worthless again.

I have no faith in God, I have no faith in mankind, I have no faith in life. Have any of you ever felt like your just existing here in this world. Don't get me wrong Im not suicidal, but sometimes I do wish to move on.
I feel like this life is almost over, and the next one is waiting for me. People always say money isn't everything, thats a lie money is everthing at least in todays society, that statement might have been true 100 years ago, but in todays world money is everything.

My car was stolen I lost it, the thief crashed it, I had no insurance I couldn't afford it, I had to quit college and move out of my apartment, due to transportation problems.

Has anyone ever been to a ghetto, or saw a homeless man on the streets, it's horrible it upsets me, I can't stand to see people suffer, and yes some people cause it on themselves, but thats not always the truth.

I hate this government, I hate the way television makes us out to look like idiots I turn on the news and all I see is chaos and disaster, I turn it on MTV, and all I see is sex, sex , and more sex. What are we teaching our children, it's disgusting.
Our president, and the NSA spies on us, where is our privacy?
They lie to us, and tell lies upon mountains of more lies, why not tell the truth?
Our judicial system, is a freakin mess, and a disgrace.
Technology is being supressed that could eliminate wars, disease, and poverty, so why are we not using this to our advantage?

People in my opinion are selfish, hateful, racist and backstabbers. Religion kills hundreds of people everyday, and they all fight for the same cause, it just dosn't make sense.

I don't know what to do, Ive tried mediation, Ive looked for God, Ive done just about everything. I feel like nothing like I don't even exist.

I need to hear someone else somewhere tell me they feel the same way, I need to know Im not alone in my opinons. Ive always been an optimistic person, and Ive always had hope for a better world, but I think my my optimism has ran out, I see nothing changing for the greater good, but only for the worse.

Sometimes I wonder if we do indeed have a soul, if it speaks to us subconciously telling to get ready to move forward into the next life. Has anyone ever felt like their time is almost up, whether you like it or not. Life is just an experience, maybe it's this life that Im supposed to experience shame, pain, and saddness.

Anyone here feel the same way post your thoughts get them off your mind, maybe we can all come to an understanding within each other.

I always leave my end post with Peace TNO, because I believe in peace, I hope to hear others thoughts, and feel free to talk about whats on your mind.

Peace. TNO

My only advice is....stay away from Zoloft. I am currently weaning myself off the stuff and it is hell.

Ill never medicate myself with psychoactive drugs. Alcohol, and weed are my illusions. Psychologist are quacks, kinda like Chiropractors. Ive saw more psychologist destroy peoples lives than help them.

The human mind is far too complex, for another human mind to make any sort of judgements.

i'm on the stuff. it saved my life. don't go giving it a bad rep just because it didn't work for you. drugs work differently for everyone. it is difficult to wean yourself off of, though, but shouldn't be impossible by any means if you do it correctly.

Once again I agree with rose ashes. Some people are here today because of anti-depressants. I don't think it's for everyone though.

Start exercising. Try and stay active, get a lot of sunshine. Winter can be hell if you're depressed. So try and hang out with friends. I hope it may be uplifting.

The weather here can never be depressing its always sunny here in Hawaii. But Zoloft made me suicidal, well more than usual. I have tried a total of 53 times to kill myself and each time I fail. It sad its like Im immortal or something cause its driving me nuts. Its either I try and fail or someone stops me. I have tried alot more than usual after Halloween. But tis true life suck the worlds a piece of $%@!. This year a total of 7 of my cousins have died, bad break-ups, abusive parents, 5 of my close friends have killed them selves, two while talking to me over the phone, my teacher tried to rape me, I was almost raped at a party, my childhood was very disturbing almost every pet I owned my parents made me eat them(ducks,chickens,agoat) or something happend to them while I was there(rabbit got run over when I was 4, cat got shot by my dad), my grades are going downhill and if I dont do anything soon I will have to redo 10th grade. Life just sucks and I am happy when a good person comes along and is supportive of making me happy. My friends and their stupid things they do are the simple pleasures I have in life. So is my therapy its not for everyone but it stoped me from being afraid of going into the caff at school.
But I think its just this year thats crap and things will get better next year.

I have noticed that alot of people on this site are depressed.

I hope this cheers someone up. Even if that one person is me, it's a job well done.

Resist the temptation to listen to depressing music. Try something more uplifting like that yo-yo song from George Michaels. But I'm not sure about the Beach Boys. Some people claim they're a bit depressing.

If it's doing what it's supposed to for you, then great. It hasn't worked for me and getting off of it is making me feel worse than I ever was before I started taking it.

Well TNO, I would feel kind of weird posting any problems that I have after reading your post. I'm very sorry that everything is going badly right now. I agree with you about many things. Most aspects of today's society are indeed, f'ed up. The only thing I can say to you is to keep faith in life and pray that it will get better. It usually does, eventually. If you get so depressed that you can't handle it anymore, then I suggest that you consider checking yourself into a clinic. My dad did when he was going through severe depression a few years ago, and he's much better today because of it.

In May of 1994, my wife died after four years of fighting cancer. She was 25-years-old and I was 27. Suddenly I was alone and lost within myself and had $600,000 in debts, mostly medical. I saw no reason to continue living. I seriously thought of suicide. The only thing that prevented me from ending it all was remembering one of the last things she told me. "Don't visit my grave. I won't be there. I will be in a corner of your mind and you can visit me there whenever you want. But I want those visits to be fewer and fewer and time passes because you have the responsibility to live. I want you to enjoy living." Even so, I continued to put two plates on the table and wait for her to come to eat. I would suddenly call for her to ask something. I constantly thought that she was in the bathroom taking a shower and would suddenly step out and everything would be okay again.
Her life insurance helped pay some of the debts and I sold our home and paid the rest. With that I packed a couple suitcases in the car and left for Mexico. I have lived here since and the message of all that is that one of the most positive solutions to depression is making a decision to do something drastic and then doing it. Put yourself in a new environment filled with challenges. Learn to live.

I guess I'm the optimist of the group here (contrary to what some of my posts may indicate). I always say there's something to be thankful for. Honestly, there's no quick and easy solution for you. I went through a phase like that about 7 or 8 years ago now. My girlfriend and two friends died before my eyes when they drowned in a rip. About a year later, another girl who I was extremely close to (though not dating), had some medical complications with her chemotherapy (she had throat cancer) and died. I was in a bad way, doing all kinds of things to my body and mind.

How did I turn it around? I found God. Don't worry, I'm not here to preach to you that you should turn to God and he'll magically heal all your pains. But if you can find something that can give you hope for the future, that there is light at the end of the tunnel, then whatever that thing is (not necessarily God per se) then soon you find yourself at the end of that tunnel. Looking back, I know i was in darkness. I was lost. But having that light to guide me to the end, I can see that those things in my past have helped make me the person I am today. A better person than if I hadn't experienced those things.

So yeah, I don't really have an answer for you. No one does, except for you. That's what the psychologists will try and tell you in more convoluted language. The answer lies within yourself. Somewhere. You've just got to find it.

Hope this helps

Regards, PA

That's very beautiful advice.

Gawd damn, I tried to ring my girlfriend 10 mins after I last saw her, and she didn't pick up. I have tried ringing over 10 more times, and she still hasn't.

When stuff like this happens, all I can do is think of the worst case scenario

It god damn sucks!
It's that kind of stuff that depresses me.... when I'm worried about others

While Zoloft and other antidepressants do a great job helping a lot of people, science is only now admitting to the problems it causes just like NYX has stated.

Do some research and talk to your doctor, you'd be surprised at how bad some of the side effects are and withdrawal.... the medical community has only just released the facts that yes you do go through a full blown/ proper withdrawal when weaning off Zoloft.

I was very depressed all through my childhood up until i was about seventeen. I took antidepressents, but they didn't help so i weaned myself off them over about eight months. After that i began to try all sorts of "alternative" therapies. Everything from hypnosis and acupuncture to meditiation.

My advise to anyone who's depressed is to Meditate everyday, go for a walk whenever you can as this realises happy hormones , and at the end of the day think of as many good things as you can about the day. It can be something as silly as "it was sunny"

One more thing, Try as hard as you can to live in the present. Not teh past or the future. Everytime you find yourself dwelling on somethings that already happened, or something that might happen, bring yourself back to "now" by looking around you and taking note of what you are doing.

Be happy!

you should have seen me when i tried to quit taking it. (being the idiot i am, i just flat out stopped taking it instead of weaning myself off of it.) anyhow, i had awful headaches for days and stomach pains. i lost my appetite, felt dizzy, and saw some very pretty colors. light hurt my eyes and i ended up having to wear sunglasses when just sitting in my house reading. it was interesting. so i went back on the zoloft because my anxiety issues and depression came back after i had quit taking it. and i'm still on it. i've been on it since i was six.... so i think it's going to be somewhat difficult to quit taking it now when my body needs it to survive haha. good old zoloft. very dear to my heart.

well, at the moment things aren't going to great for me. i know that they're not as bad as they could be, by any means and so i feel rather stupid for complaining about them. just with christmas rolling around and my dad having left us a few months ago... well, he was an abusive alcoholic and so we ended up getting him arrested and putting a restraining order on him. my grandparents blame me for the entire thing because i'm a teenager, so therefore must be the cause of any and all stress that their poor son is enduring.

so yeah... christmas without half the family will be strange. but i'll deal. i'm thankful for what i have and glad that he's out of the house now. just that this coupled with other problems is really getting on my last nerve haha.

Depression thread?!

Turn that frown upside down!

To get rid of depression:

1) Get into an argument with a believer in the psychic forum.
2) Start talking about Vin Diesel, Chapter 128, and the Vatican in your arguements.

^That always helps me. Every time.

That's a smile, not an upside down frown. Work on that too

I completely feel for you nameless. I had a pretty rough childhood (though it may not appear to be on the outside), Up until the last year. My climax consisted of daily suicidal thoughts and plans so I wouldn't leave any kind of mess behind.
But I pulled out of it without any medications or any other therapy. Don't know how exactly. Never giveup.

Now I'm left with a series of Anxiety problems (OCD, Social Anxiety to an extent), But I'm getting there.

Hope the best for everyone else that is having problems. You're not alone.





Whoah, I sound like a chick in a way.