Let me start by saying this is my first post and I hope someone out there can offer some advice. I have been searching the internet for information but I can't tell what is BS and what is not.

There is so much involved with what is going on with me it might be difficult to express my thoughts properly but I will try my best. Knowing where to begin is the hard part...lol. Also, I have never told anyone about any of this except my wife who I can't tell if she thinks I am crazy or not.

Like most everyone else here, I have always felt that I was different than others. Since I can remember, I have always been able to "read" people and see their true nature. My intuition has usually been pretty good and I just seem to know what is going on. When I was about 12 I had a inflatable animal hanging from a string on my ceiling. I would put myself to sleep by making it spin back and forth. Again... never told anyone. Through high school I lost touch with my spirituality (or whatever you want to call it), and really didn't think about it until my early 20's.

Well, these past few years things really started to get more intense I had questions that needed to be answered. Searching the internet was less help than I had hoped but I did find that I have something called SLI. (lights go out when I am around). And I did find one thing that has really helped me go a direction. Its a podcast that kinda made things make sense. I don't want to say because I don't want anyone thinking I am advertising. You will find it if it is meant to be.

(I am trying really hard to stay on track, sorry if I ramble)

Now I have to say I feel like I am progressing at a fantastic rate and really getting in tune with the energy that surrounds us. Just this week I have been able to see Auras for the first time. I'm not sure how to explain it but also, I have recently been able to reach my center. While I can't consciously read minds or move objects, I find that if I adjust my inner self to flow with whatever it is that moves me, things seems to go a lot smoother.

Basically, a light has been turned on and I don't know what to do. Its like I have been blindfolded and finally I can see but have no idea where to go. Don't get me wrong. I'm not scared or confused. I am very excited about this. I just need guidance.

Please, only respond if you can relate to what I am saying and can honestly help. I don't want to be sold anything or recruited by some crazy cult. I am hoping to find others who share these feelings.

You dont need spiritual guidance it will only make you doubt what you have and make you weak minded. If youi truly believe all this is happening to yourself here's what to do. Go to a university and speak to the main science dep. head. Tell him your situation and ask his opinion. You need to put yourself out there to be studied so we can better understand this type of phenomenon. But here's the thing I'm guessing you wont accept this challenge because you really dont posses anything you just described and are looking for a place to vent your other problems and also melding them into something that is false. be a man, step up to the plate and dont go crying to all the religous nut cases out there. If you do indeed posess what you say you do, then you will offer yourself up freely to be studied by the community.

I didn't read one word of 'venting' or 'problems'...nor did I read any 'crying to religious nut cases'. The post is in the metaphysical forum for a reason. Because this is a metaphysical occurrence of which the author is not trying to hype, rather, genuinely seeking guidance from those who know.

I don't know. I tend to think much of what you said has natural coincidental explanations...but I don't know.

The problem with seeking guidance however, is that you do set yourself up for 'nutcases' and all kinds of 'wrong' ideology...but you seem to be a big boy who can take care of himself. I would just suggest experimenting yourself in controlled situations. I.e., if you think you have SLI, then set up a room full of lamps...all having brand new light bulbs, and then walk in and out a number of times and at different times. That sort of thing. Set up another room with hanging things such as you described...make sure the room has no ventilation...a/c ducts, etc...then, try to get the hanging objects to move. I think you owe it to yourself to not just be 'conned' into believing something...even if it is your own mind doing the conning.

After I posted this I noticed the sub forum. My future posts will be made there. A couple things though.

1. I would be more than willing to sit with someone who wants to study me if he thinks he can find answers. I'm not making any public claims for attention. Like I said, I don't even talk about this with my friends or family.

2. Currently I cannot move anything by using my mind. However I am convinced that I was able to as a child and could potentially again someday.

I am not claiming to be a Jedi... All I am saying is that "something" is going on with me and I want answers. As far as SLI is concerned, its not like I can snap my fingers and turn off lights. It's just something that happens. Initially I brushed it off as coincidence as well until I found out that it doesn't happen to everyone. Thats when I started searching for information.

I'm not here to be "debunked", I just need help with direction. I will do my best to filter out the garbage. Thank you guys for taking time to respond.

Hi Spencer......

Think of your development from the context of being very personal, so much so, that the only way to really understand what you are experiencing is to take what others have to offer only as advice.

Take 1000 people put them into a room and ask them in 300 words or less to describe what they mean by love? It is very likely that you will have 1000 unique descriptions, take the same people and ask them to describe a building and in general, the explanations will be much more alike. This is of course because how we experience emotions is much more complex than how we experience things, that are concrete and in relation to PSI emotions play a major role.

Yes the experience of altering how much light a bulb emits can be preformed in a concrete way. So despite this effect is the result of your PSI ability, one tends to think of what is happening (in fact), as relatable to how mechanically one can dim lights. Studies have shown that these capacities are more related to human emotions, rather than aspects of the brain which evaluate the mechanics of a particular phenomenon. In other words in evaluating your capacity to perform PSI understanding yourself in relation to motivations, intent and feelings are a priority.

Learning as much as you can about all Ideologies is a good start.... from my perspective looking into much of what is presented in the major religions, from the context of pieces to a puzzle is a good idea. My tendency is to view the major religions as Gods way of exposing each ancient culture to truth in a manner each could relate to.

Any thoughts?

I understand what you are saying. Your comparison to describing an emotion makes a lot of sense. While it's not the answer I was hoping for, it certainly added a new perspective to this. I was actually hoping for a user manual... lol.

The problem with no path being the same is, how do you know if you are right or wrong or just plain crazy?

In my opinion there are as many paths as there are thinking beings in the Universe. Ultimately, each path so personal, defining or explaining them goes well beyond words.

Just like trying to define love it is about the individual......

Any thoughts?

The unrealistic explanation is always the most appealing...

If you really looking for answers you would not be posting in a public forum about unexplained mysteries mate. You are loooking for gratification. The Subforum will be perfect I believe. Enjoy....

In my experience psi is not something you do, it's something you allow to happen. Just as you don't try to see, you simply allow yourself to look. Sometime it can be intense and shocking and sometimes so subtle and natural you might not even recognize that it's happening.

If you want to learn about the most documented psychic that ever lived check out "Edward Cayce". He had extraordinary capabilities.

If you are analytical check out the "quantum eraser experiment". The physicists that do these experiments consider the results to be an unexplained phenomena and won't comment beyond that. While the physical mechanism is unexplained I believe the results are strong evidence that conscious awareness can affect matter.

If you pursue the spiritual aspect all roads will lead to reincarnation. That might sound like poppycock to you right now but there are several credible authors that published material channeled from non-physical entities. They were non-physical at the time of channeling anyway.

Welcome to UM and enjoy your journey.

PS. Don't take Bio-mage's comments personally, he's like that to everyone.

Not everyone...another misconception of your part....

Wow Bio-mage perhaps the sub-forum was put into place to avoid the misconceptions about the reality of the situation? This that PSI is a part of human history and any misconception, about titles, is a waste of time?????

George Washington did not have a B.A. in Pre Law mate and acceding to the current standards, if anything and at best, he had the equivalent of a 6th grade education.

Indivualism is not unrealistic and what is unrealistic is your inability to face the facts.....


Any thoughts?

If you are looking for spiritual guidance look no further.

U no need education system to help you with your spirits.

Rastafari Live up!

That is the best advice I have ever heard regarding such a subject. I suggest you take it very seriously.

sent you a PM

Jah! I agree with Kaknelson. Do you practice any of form of religion or the philosophies of them? To let you know, Paganism or any of form of it would help you progress with your abilities and use them for good and with full control. Educate yourself, religion is beautiful. But anyways, if you're willing to help the world learn about your psychic abilities, it would help the ignorants become aware and stop denying this power we all have, but just need to embrace it. But thats up to you if you want to be a "test subject." Best bet is to practice your abilities on your own time to be more comfortable with them and gain that confidence to use them with ease, which you seem to already be doing? I reccomend learning about Pagansim and Wicca, amazing how much you will learn in just the dusting of that religion!

I wish you luck and bid you happy days with the beauty you bring to this world! Use it and don't let anyone tell you different that what you feel!

Keep the faith
Peace<3
Liz

jahJAH!!

Nicely written. i love the study of religion.... i studied eastern philosophy, socratic phil, and small amount of western philosophy (not my thing), metaphysics, virtue ethics.

But of all, i loved Eastern Philosophy! They are very spiritual and metaphysical.. my fav! And, actually they learn from our western ways, sit and study our ethics, as we do them.

Mediation is also a big part of most eastern philosophy, i love the study their religions.

Amoung all Philosophers, i recommend Socrates! A very soulful man, the founder of most i would say. Read about him. I adore him.

Peace and Love. Jah bless !

The subforum is a place to post your imaginary powers at your hearts content. A sort of playground if you like...



The analogy is suitable for the subforum.



My problem is not individualism. It is people who daydream instead of doing something productive. You should not be the one talking about ignoring facts. You "trip" 24/7...



Read some history on how "wonderful" religion has been. As far as psychic powers, maybe you owe to listen to "ignorants" here and there, to make sure you are not the one that ignores vital facts of life. Maybe you like to be "alternative" in today's world and feel special by thinking yourself a part of something. Let me tell you that in fact that you belong to the majority that is tired of established religions and just tries something new. In effect you are on of the herd being prodded in yet another fence. Enjoy your stay.

Religion is what one gets out of it..to me, it brings individuality and self fulfillment. As far as being a part of the herd, yeahhh we all are a part of it some way or another. We are all one, we share same ideas and beliefs which walk us all down our own path. I take offense to your words....I'm not an ignorant person ..because I do not choose to ignore ideas....I'm only a newbie at this thing called life and I'm taking in anything and everything at all chances. Psychic senses are the truth. Only to those who have experience with this truly understands psychic abilities. I myself do have experience with it and have recently started to learn about this more in depth. I've posted my ideas on this in another thread which proves my point that they do exist and is only evolving to the greater.

Tell me your thoughts on psychic senses. Also, do you see yourself as a part of this herd too? You build yourself sum fences? I sure like to knock em down when I notice them!

Spread the love.
Peace
Liz

Thanks everyone for the replies. The links that were sent to me were helpful although I now have more questions then before. I guess I have no choice but to read and filter through as much as possible.

ask away!!!!! thats why you're here now in't it!?

Are you saying I do not know my place Bio-Mage???



Bio why are you still responding to my comments after you clearly stated you had
finished addressing me for good?? The truth is this Bio-Mage true random generators actually provide real random results. Pseudo random generators are not true random generators and so there results are less random.

As far as my personal opinion of where you belong?? If you were a valid practitioner of ESP you would be frowning at this point

Spencer feel free to ask any question you wish and yes filtering through is an ocupational hazard

Any thoughts?

I too have had similar experiences.. the lights..dimming ..or exploding ..they were linked with emotions of the time.. computers used to freeze around me...or crash... as did many computerized telling machines.. whenever I went shopping in a deep funk... had to have cash.. as the cards were useless then... could see auras for a few years but lost the ability after having twins.. to busy to focus.. note abilities disapear after awhile if you don't use them..In the spiritual world..use it or lose it seems to count...like you are rejecting their gift...
I suggest perhaps learning a healing modality like Reiki.. helps control things a little..


http://www.psiarcade.com/healing/


you can aslo try playing on this site.. measures your energ and psi ability etc.. it's run by ION's..and Dean Radin..

I'd have to cast my vote for Christianty. The Scriptires are an excellent guidline to the dangerous of manipulatuing that which we do not understand, as well as the gifts God has bestowed upon his children. Of course, now a days, every one hates Christians. But that doesn't mean they're wrong. Personally, my life has been enriched beyond words by my faith in Jesus Christ. And contrary to popular belief, I didn't have to sacrifice my intellegence to have the faith to believe in God. Rather, I believe God gave us minds, and wants us to use them to our fullest potential.

And that's my two cents.

You don't need spiritual direction, you need medical treatment

I do. Its an asylum in a galaxy far far away....



Because you dont get off my back (ie still respond to me regardless). But I am finished with you alright. There will be no discussions with your person about anything, be assured. You have nothing to say...



Emphasis on if....

Now get a lid on will you



Religion actually does not imply or promote individuality. It makes you part of a narrow circle and inhibits your sense of free will. It does so cleverly by using guilt, preying on your awareness of the world. Most of all it uses the fear of death to subdue you. And even when you pour yourself in it, never promises to deliver.

I see religion as a tool, that introduces an "omnipotent" element into its control mechanism, that is safe from any scrutiny because of its "divine" essence. You can overthrow goverments you see, leaders and superpowers, but how can you overthrow god?

To believe in such system is your perogative, but I find myself not restricted by codes of conduct that have no practical value to me. Nor do I need guarantees about my future. What will be... will be because of circumstances.

Emotional distress causes electrical disturbences? I have never noticed anything like this whatsoever. I have a past that caused a psychotic present for me, mainly extreme anger. About 90% of my time is spent being easily agitated, aggrivated or angry. Not once have I ever noticed a light flicker, explode, dim or go out. Is this type of "phenomina" only related to people who supposedly have "powers"? How about faulty wiring? Or what about coincidence? A loose light bulb can be affected by the vibrations in the air from someone screaming, yelling or stomping their feet. I am sure that you have ruled out all those possibilitys first before actually posting.

Yes.. of course I have... It's been going on for years....our electricity bill is triple the average...it's become a standing joke around our house...spooked some new friends when I discussed my theories on religion..and some of the paranormal stuff that's happened around me.. ( I think there might be something about it in the' hauntings' threads here) the lights kept on dimming.. we checked to see if anyone was near the switch.. they weren't..so as I continued discussing some weird happenings.. the lighting dimmed as even I even spooked myself remembering some weird happenings in the past...Also Mum and I don't always get on... She arrived one day fully intending to have her say.. and I could feel it... it built up... until...light bulbs over Mum's head amnd mine blew at exact;y the same time... sending out blue sparks..


Other times.. I would walk in a room and the TV or the radio..would go all static.. leave the room..back to normal...so I teased everyone by constantly walking in and out of the room... lol...

Used to walk in the study and the computer screen would freeze...step back a few paces..and it would go back to normal..back in.. freeze....


This happened normally when I had very little sleep for quite a long time... there are studies at the moment trying to link up enhanced psychic ability ..and sleep deprivation..

(about 2.to 3 hours .a day for over a decade)

This reminds me of a movie i once saw, powder. If you haven't seen it, i recomend renting or buying it. Excellent movie. One thing I can link to sleep deprivation is falling asleep at the wheel, hitting a guardrail and rolling your truck over and not konwing how you even survived the crash. That and enhanced halucinations. I haven't heard anything about enhanced psychic ability... maybe i will google it. Maybe.

LOL should I say .. don't try it at home folks...

Thats right kids. Never ever fall aslep at the wheel of a car while driving, or else you may find yourself in this type of situation...

I have been dealing with narrow minds my entire life. I would say that the majority of America is in the dark and I believe it is by choice. (ie; George W Bush) Whats that saying, "Ignorance is bliss"? We live in a peer pressure society where people shun what they do not understand. It's a shame that we cannot explore our true potential without being chastised. "You can see auras but I cannot so you must be insane."

Also, I think its funny when a religious person will judge someone who is psychic but then turn and talk to God. Seriously, who is the crazy person? Moses parting the sea? Jesus turning water into wine and lets not forget returning from the dead. These things are just as far fetched as a light burning out when I enter a room.

Honestly, I believe we are all basically doing the same thing. We just use different vehicles to get to the same place. I connect to a higher level by tuning my mind to the universal energy that surrounds everything... others sit in a pew and pray.

let me tell you there is nothing to worry abput this is all suppose to happen for a reason and it wil soon be visible. as for controlling your abilities you do have to do it with emotions. you have to find that emotion or whatever that you felt that day. other than that it all lies in your subconscious, and the fastest way to your sub-conscious is either by meditating or you dreams. controlling your thoughts and will, can make you control your abilities

You'll have to excuse Bio-Mage he recently found out that his Mutant Gene Nullifier was made in Iraq (prior to the war), these days they will not honor his warranty.


Yes each of us have our own way of expressing our love for God and while amongst us there are issues, as to which is correct. I would suggest that such conclusions go back to the idea of how personal the experience really is.

Again, even if you agree with someones perspective consider that in relation to having the "full" experience, it is ultimately an individual one.

Any thoughts?

Ditto...

Still I suggest perhaps you do try studying some healing modalities...will help you understand your energies better..and learn to work it... it's a start...

I understand what you are going thru... went for a weekend holiday once..and the person who ran the motel..was a minister..who had a real interest in the paranormal... except she thought it was just demons working thru you.. she offered to exorcise me..lol.. Said that if god worked thru me...those patients would have healed spontaniously... etc.. really messed me up for a while...


Told her to at least send those dark spirits to the light instead (during her exorcisms )of sending them back to hell... as they are attracted to light beings.. cause deep down they remember where they came from...and that it was their subconscious steps forward to the light... that she wasn't healing anything..or improving anything sending them back...

She after much thought agreed with me...