QUOTE(coldethyl @ Jul 27 2006, 10:57 PM) [snapback]1285374[/snapback]

You know it's funny, I'm all about meditation but I don't need all the other baggage that comes with this path.

I think that we all agree that we are here to experience
You say that you like to meditate. May I ask why you meditate, what is your motivation behind it? If you only use it to relax yourself, and it works for you, then I might imagine that you don't want any information on other possibility's or know-how on it. I think that when you are happy with it that you lack the drive for further exploration or know-how. I mean this in a good point of view

Which is fully understandable!
I to have this with certain directions, they just don't interest me. And it will not come to me if I don't want to go there. It has to do with your intention.
Personally I do have a drive into this direction. I would like to know more. Experience more.
This drive is not just interest with me, it is pushing me from within and making clear to me that this is the direction that I need to go into. I want to know why I’m being driven, there must be a reason, and I want to discover and experience it.
I can also make lots of fun with my friends. I like going out, I like to mountain bike, I like sex, I like lots of stuff. But when I only do this, I get the feeling that something is missing. This feeling inside of me urging me to experience on some other level beyond the material experiences. I can fully understand that when you don’t have this that you might wonder why other people do these things. It does not make sense to you.
If this feeling is guiding me, then why am I still working with this Higher Balance material?
It must do some good for me, else it had sensed it already and it would have taken me from this path. Now, I know that I’m progressing into this direction. I know that I am making headway with this material. I have discovered ability’s that I did not recognized before. I am growing.
I know that there is a lot of crap on the market. I have bought some books that I also dislike. But hey, it is just information. I am curios, so I buy books. Again, the drive, the curiosity.
In the end they all helped me. I know what it is that I need to walk away from and what I need to embrace.
Higher Balance is good information for me. It feeds me and the more I know, the more I want to know

I understand that fanatic feeling shakti_junkie
I also know that a great deal of people are just not interested in this. Are they worse of better? No, absolutely not. We are just different my friend. It is just an experience.
The handbook is free, it helped me, and those things are most welcome