I had Testicular Cancer in '01 and it was an interesting experience what with the Chemo"therapy".
Unless one has been thru this it cannot be explained.
It really wasn't that scary because if I were to have died from it, then that is what would've happened.
It's kinda wierd being around that much Death(in a Cancer ward), yet I wasn't about to get religion in there because the Cancer was not an origination of a religion or of not having a religion. Cancer is a "gift" of our societal encumberances especially since the "industrial revolution".
My Wife has a possible re-occurence with a Cancer she had over 20 years ago (as opposed to 20 years from now). I doubt this is anything at all and will be hopeful that it isn't anything at all.
Since the Cancer, I have had limited time thinking, meaning I keep thinking I do not have enuf time to do most of the things I want to do. This is rather disconcerting yet I haven't figured how to not do this.
I generally think about just how long is Eternity and since EVERYTHING has a beginning and ending, when did the Cosmos start, where is it going and when does it stop.
What becomes after then??
What was before it was??
The Big Bang is a theory yet it opens up other questions related to beginnings and endings, like What caused the Big Bang, What was the catalyst??
I refuse to believe or entertain the thoughts of heaven and hell as these are NOT LOGICAL in the great spans of thought.
Why should a Life force be Eternally "rewarded or punished" for ONE Lifetime??
One cannot attain a level of comprehension about Life, Death and the Universal Ethos by one simple and short existence upon this planet.
I think that after we leave our vessels (bodies) we are to return to that which we were before becoming what we are currently and that we in Spirit (which is Energy) can "travel' to any "place" in the cosmos for learning. Much like when one is dreaming, this has been described as Death and each dream is but a little Death.
Ghosts have been claimed by some as Spirits that are somehow "trapped" between this world (dimension) and the next or other dimensions. This may or not have validity depending ENTIRELY upon ones own beliefs and I say that the beliefs of others are theirs and should any views correspond to mine then so be it, where when others do not, that is groovy as well.
One of my Aunts who was 83 told me (last year) about 3 months before she died that "she felt she wasn't going to be here much longer" and all I said was "Let's enjoy the time we have as we have before".
I may have seen her in a dream or two or I have not as the thought of her in my dreams is comforting as are ANY relatives among others who are not direct relatives.
--Seemingly we are ALL related as WE ARE ALL HUMAN--So who really is a stranger??
One of my friends died horribly in a car wreck back in '98 and his wife stated several times since his demise, she felt like he was holding her hand while she was awake in bed and that she would awaken and feel a presence beside her in bed and that the presence was comforting as her husband had been.
I told her that it seemed logical to me and that she was NOT crazy for admitting this.
I do not believe in the "going before ones time" thing, as when one goes it IS their time regardless.
I believe we are all here repetitively to learn the lessons we were not able to in previous incarnations, so whether or not one enjoys this Life, there will be other lives and not neccessarily upon this planet or even in these dimensions.
Everyone believes that of which they believe and I am not one to query them as to why they have certain beliefs and don't believe things that I believe.
I am NOT the arbiter of the universe therefore I am happy to discuss things with others regardless of how others view things, most of the time.
Thank you for your time!!