QUOTE(Niamh @ Oct 3 2006, 04:12 AM) [snapback]1374895[/snapback]
First, I'd like to say I really like this forum, even if I don't necessarily post all that much and I'm a newbie.
But, about my experience/question(please move if this is not the right spot): I get migraines. However, they aren't regular migraines. I don't get auras, medicines do not work, and they seem to have little or no warning. I also get weird smells and tastes in my mouth when I get them and frequently have very vivid, "waking" dreams if you will when I have them. I have had these from a very young age--originally abdominal migraines, same weird issues, they just migrated upward. These odd dreams I have frequently occur before something nasty happens in my life or the outside world, though they don't seem to be "visions" or anything. They have also inspired all the best creative works(I write) I've come up with and frequently cause those around me to feel like crap also.
I probably sound like a super-nut or a huge idiot, since I'm not the most informed on this topc, but I'd really like to do some reading on it or discuss it with people. Or, even better, find someone who has the same issue. Thanks to those who read it and hopefully I can get some good information!
I don't think there's any such thing as a 'regular migraine'. Each sufferer has variations of symptoms. I've had migraines since my late teens. And no two were ever exactly the same. I've had 'mild' ones to such violent ones that I contemplated jumping out the window because the pain was so unbearable. I have some where I have to lie absolutely still, some I can't lie still & have to rock back & forth all the time. During some I get constant vomiting fits, at other times I don't.
Back to the topic: When I have a severe one, my mind seems to disjoint itself somehow, and I get the strangest visions, images & sceneries going on in my head. Distracted by the pain, you can't think clearly anyway, but these images seem completely otherwordly. I think though that there is nothing supernatural going on, at least not in my case, just the brain going into total overdrive, neurons firing off crazed signals. Other physical somatic functions are altered too; totally exaggerated sense of smell & sound, loss of balance, or spacial awareness, blood pressure goes through the roof, racing pulse, palpitations, muscle spasms, nausea, vomiting, diarrhea...
Question to other migraine sufferers: When I have a bad one, it positively feels like the actual process of thinking hurts. It sounds weird, I know, but I can't describe it any better. Anyone experienced something similar?
With regards to causes: After many years of searching, I realized that subconsciously I had the feeling 'ingrained' that I couldn't, or wasn't allowed to say no to other people's demands on me & that their needs always came first. When things got too much, the migraine said no for me, i.e. it gave a justification for being 'out of order', unavailable. Once I learned to take my power back, realized that I was a free agent & could say no, the migraines became much less frequent & severe. At the worst times, I got one every 2-3 weeks. Now I get 2-3 a year.
One more question: As a child, I suffered from 'Alice in Wonderland Syndrome'. It appears many people who have this, also get migraines. Any 'Alices' amongst you?