If anyone can possibly give me their opinion I'd greatly appreciate it. Well, I"ve have been in the hospital for schizhophrenia in the past because, There were really strange things happening around me. Currently I am now better, but there are some things that seem to come back that can be explainable, to a person that might be a little more open minded. That's kinda the best way I can put it for the momment. With going to the hospital before, friends and family would probably just throw me back into the hospital if I were to even try explaining the coincidental and reoccuring happenings, that I can't ignore. For my own mental health, i've tried to make excuses or reasons to a lot of them, to try to tell myself it's just something out of the ordinary or brush it off as much as possible. In the past it was like so new to me, and very confusing, to the point in which I actually had to call the police on myself. At that time I didn't know who to turn to while these things were occuring.
I'll explain and decribe as much as I can recall from memory. Even though I have a lot of saved up writings also, that I keep journal entries of every now and then. Before I go on further though. I have to say that I am doing a lot better with managing the thinking I have when the strange things do occur again.
So it's not like some kind of overexaggerated, symptomatic, paranoid, full blown schizophrenia type of issue anymore. As how it was diagnosed by the doctors when I went to the emergency room. Now adays I'm maintaining a proffesional job, and no where near relapsing to the hospital, but the strange things still happen? I just kinda smack myself every now and then, "mentally", to be able to function in society again, easily, I assure you.

I'll try to make this as clear as possible, just in case some of you might have experienced this also, or possibly might go through this in the future. I'll try to make it short as possible.

(My younger background from child-teen): immigrant born, poverty, physically and verbally abused severely by parents (of course I love them though, and see them everyday still! that's kinda how they grew up, diff country) , ummm always eager to learn, advanced school program since elementary til most of high schoool, nerdy but never picked on, and actually pretty decent looking? naughty and stupid rebellious things sometimes to piss off parents, (we all did probably also) but not really mean or violent at all... got into 1 school fight in high school, standing up for a friends sister that was being harrased. FAST FORWARD ------- to my 20's ----->

Single father w/son,( thankful for family help) ,divorced, severely depressed, and tons more, etc. and plz don't pity me..... but ................................

This is what I need advice and opinions about!

I had strange occurences happening too often to the point where I believed that dead ppl or spirits were trying communicate with me. As in save a life, or I get bits and pieces about possible things that can or will occur or can be prevented. It was very very hard to believe things sane and very logical person, would always find reasoning or understanding for incidents and occurences, and try really hard not to believe these unusal things were actually happening.
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(reoccuring themes) example: traveling anywhere within a 5-10 minute drive and constantly being bombarded, with words or phrases that pertain to death.
switching radio stations(rap/killing or the word murder) (updated example:like rihanna's "I don't want to be a murderer) or (country/passing away songs and war/physical abuse songs) Whiskey lullaby, or Kickin terrorist ass something like that)....even if changing stations..... which still seems normal.... but... also add the dead end, and warning dangerous turn up ahead. Rest Stop was percieved as stop death..... this one McDonalds billboard advertisement I passed by that said "Believe" right when I doubted or ignored these things. Shots of tequila for only 1$ as I passed glanced at the bar place on your drive. Diet coke or the Dieting ads I passed by.........makes you start to scratch your head a bit.......... and when you possibly even add passenger in the car saying something simple like "pass me a cigarette" (pass starts to be percieved as passing/or dying) fir those with an open enough mind.... and also maybe seeing a dead car on the side of the road too while these thoughts were racing through your head.....
and then more and more you try to ignore the words that you can spell out from store names or reverse words around where they sound similar to common words that you've noticed, .......or even when the top of your soda pop isn't closed tight and starts to dR.I.P and only you are able to notice these things while your buddy .. he's just there sittin there smokin that cigarette singing "many men wish death upon me"(by 50cent)... and in your own personal mind.. you're thinking "this has to be a friggin joke that everyones trying to play on me, because there is no possible way that what's occuring is happening?"

When I say Reoccuring themes or words though.... sure all those things might have happened during that 5 minute drive.....
For me though...it's not only that 5 minute ride.. it's more like going to be for a looooooooooooonnng time still for me. It's not like I friggin go out and purposely look for these signs symbols.. and stuff. I want these strange things to go away if possible. Now adays they do though. Sometimes though when I'm stressed out though... It comes back...more often. When I'm not stressed or have no worries at all, it still happens too, just less. it just seems to be more of a you need to write these things down or be careful don't do this kinda thing when i'm not stressed.
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(physically strange) example : very Early morning before sunrise. In one of the most secure hospital units below level. This actually happened while I was strapped to a hospital bed and the nurse wanted to take a blood sample.... and I had warned her not to do it and I had a bad feeling something would happen. She looked at me like it was just crazy talk, was just going to be like a routine blood draw as usual she was thinking. So she stuck the needle in me, and I cringed really really bad. Keeping my left arm straight though for the blood draw. She didn't finish the blood draw though, only partially. I wasn't resisting it, or mad or even shaking enough to create a problem. The reason why was because...
What they call a EKG machine (about 12 ft. away.. which was unplugged and not been touched by anyone, and no one walked by it. (this was still early in the morning) Suddenly did that very loud beeping noise like when someone passes away. The needle went as fast out as it did going in because she freaked out and ran to try to stop the beeping alongside with another nurse she had asked for help.... they were frantically pressing buttons.. to try to stop the noise....because it wasn't hooked up to anyone or being tested on anyone at the time. So they decided to just pull out the electrical chord, because they couldnt get it to stop beeping. It was then they realized, it's already unplugged, and then looked at me with this one strange look. You know, the "is this for for real" kinda look. The closest I can explain to it us... ummm... scared,shocked,and confused? After that they were satisfied with the very little blood sample that they had though and not take anymore risk in trying it again. There were also some weird electronic things around me that were behaving quite unusual..... believe me though, even though I had schizophrenia. These things weren't imagined or made up. In fact I plan to try to go talk to the nurse if possible, hopefully about that morning. I'm sure she'd remember and some other staff would remember still. When it occured, that morning, that was all that they could talk about. They even sent me to get an MRI also. I think I freaked out those ppl also. Because from looking at me....I seemed perfectly normal, and decent/cute. With what I was trying to explain to them though. They prolly would remember still.... but not as much the staff at the below ground level unit.
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Now that I'm sane (YAY!) I don't get the same messages or words anymore. I get something else that is hard to explain also.... and now though it's as if I feel a very angry presence around me. Of course not at me though. that's why it doesn't bother me at all. some ppl do tell me strange things happen though, whenever i'm kinda around them.... not like all the time, but more like when it needs to be? is the best way to explain. I get things misplaced sometimes I admit. Yet there are times in which I know I put something something in a certain spot or something becomes missing. Possibly things could have been stolen or taken also. To account for the missing things. Yet there is something that is strange also. Like things popping up out of the blue like girls hairpin thingy's and things that I have no idea why it is there kind of stuff.
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I'm still confused though about a lot of things, like why some relatives always ask to borrow my car or are meaner to me. I've always just said yes most of the times. Confused at why does a lot of things don't make sense, and it seems like ppl try to get me mad on purpose? to the point in which im starting to think the angry spirit is making those around me grouchy? Also the weird thing is I feel as if it is someone I was really close to. Yet she's fine though even though I havent seen her for a long time. People that I see that knows her too says she's doing well.
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ther's more to my whacky world I guess you can say.. feel free to email me at eyez8480@yahoo.com though if you have any opinions or similar occurrences, or even questions that I can answer for ya. thanks for your time though. Seriously though after that first experience I'm more kinda into this stage where it's like not everything is becoming clearer, but more like reality seems more confusing? but if I were to think more of these spirits and ghosts and stuff, it kinda actually makes more sense in a lot of ways though, but not the main theories though, because reality conflicts with it? I am seriously mentally stable though. I'm not going to or trying to overexaggerate these thoughts and ideas, but i will explore the weird ghost thing if possible. can you plz gimme any ideas plz?

Sounds to me like you've been through alot of bad in your life. Have you ever talked to a psychiatrist? It can be very hard to cope without supportive people around you, maybe something like that would help.

I don't have many answers for you. The machine going off on it's own is weird, but things like that can happen sometimes. Those nurses should have known better than to look at you like it was your fault, especially when they knew what you were going through.


I don't really attribute this to angry spirits, just that some people are just bitter for the sake of being bitter. I've got a few of those in my family. I don't understand it either, having a sunny disposition myself. You could try to confront them on it but in my experience it doesn't do much good, they're just happier being unhappy if that makes any sense... I just do my best to tolerate them and hope that someday they will lighten up.

The things appearing around you is odd too. It made me think of all those things we lose in the drier. We often find weird things at our house and keep them in a box by the phone, sunglasses, barettes, socks, you name it. They often disappear without us knowing who took them.

Paranoid schizophrenia aside... I have to agree with Episteme

Hey Eyes, welcome!

You were diagnosed schizophrenic after (ONE) trip to the emergency room?

-You lost me on that part about "blue hair pin thingys."

If everything in life was understood then there is no need for answers- Everybody is confused about their own reality to some extent, schizo or not, we all tend to question some things we don't understand about our lives.

These people that treat you differently (with anger) have you tried talking to them about it? Maybe they are not aware of it, and if they are, find out the reason for the anger! As far as those borrowing your car; you may just a be a nice cool guy, and they feel comfortable in asking to borrow your car, or they are taking advantage of you- sip that in the bud by saying "no" every now and then. Once you say "no" it can put a damper on any advantage being taken.. If you sincerely don't like them using it, then say "no" from here on out! It's that simple ( I would think).

Even though you think you may not be having a relapse the fact that you say "now that I'm sane" is a clue to me that you should visit your pdoc immediately and tell them everything you just wrote.

I am mentally ill too, so I'm not just trying to blow you off or be a smart alec. You should go to the pdoc. Are you on any meds?

Your really misinterpreting those road signs and the advertisements you read.

I believe you believe they have messages. But your mind is processing and analyzing this information in a wrong way thats leading you to these conclusions.

While you may actually be experiencing some paranormal activity, all of the "signs" you are seeing and hearing regarding death sound to me more like a fixation with death. The fact that you are fixating on death may be a symptom of your illness. If you are taking meds it may be time to have them re-evaluated. I agree with coldethyl.....you need to discuss this with your mental health practicioner.

I'm not obsessed with death or anything.. I did have somewhat of a traumatic experience with losing a very close friendship with someone around that time, along with struggles with being a single parent, also grandmother passing away... i did see a psychiatrist also that diagnosed me with schizophrenia... all that is kind of behind me now. Yet I still get symptomatic thinking with the thinking of, the very close friend speaking with me. Even though I don't see her at all anymore. People seem to still bring her up every now and then to me, to see what my reactions might be? is what i'm thinking, but when it comes down to me actually seeing her. No, I havent ever since the strange experience. There are also things like lights flickering on and off, and lightbulb changes a lot!, and weird electronic things, occuring when I seem to think there is something around me. Even right before I came to type this up, from a smoke break, her name,(even though most likely it was a different person) being talked about, and strange things like that. Maybe I should just go and try to see, if she is actually okay? to kinda disprove these strange things...??

What you describe sounds exactly like symptoms of the disorder that you've been diagnosed with. The important thing is that you see your psychiatrist and let him or her evaluate what is going on with you. When do you see a psychiatrist next?

I kinda agree with these people. I mean, lots of those signs are in every city/town, and all can be interpreted a bad way. Very interesting happenings, though.

Hi eyez , I think every one haves behavior flaws in their personality from mild to severe. Whether it be OCD or ADD. My mother is a paranoid schizophrenic she has been doing fine though on her medication for the past twenty years. She has told me many things she experienced before she was diagnosed and got on her meds. She told me she would hear words and pharses in her head some times undistinguishable. Thinking people were talking about her and plotting aginst her. She also had some hallucinations , one where a hand reached in the doorway and went back and forth over the light switch as if to turn it off and on, another she said it was night and she was in the dark when she saw chewbacca standing beside her then he just disappeared, lol we had a good laugh over that one.
I dont think that you are obsessed with death but some thing in your subconscious is fixating on it, and thats just my opinion Im defiantly no doctor. You should read all the info you can get and make sure you tell your doctor every thing. If you were recently diagnosed you my have to try different meds. untill you find the right one and dosage that works for you. Stay positive

Are you currently being treated for your illness? It's not something that just heals itself.

I agree with what everyone else has said so far...

While you say you no longer anaylize the signs anymore like you used to before getting diagnosed (which is a clue it was illness related) it could be your 'anaylization' has returned/manifested in a different way aka the angry presence thing u feel from others around you, perhaps a kind of paranoia developing..... But I did find it interesting to read about your experinces, esp the EKG machine

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TY Episteme, I appreciate any advice, I don't think i'm in need of the hospital at all again. The schizophrenia I'm sure I'll always have. I'll just try to use it for beneficial reasons, and keep in check for overexaggerated thoughts. One main pint I forgot to add was that some of these odd preminitions or thoughts actually become true. I still try to deny any gift or powers though. I'd say 75 percent of the strange messages I do get, or constantly repeats itself to me. Actually become factual. I'm not talking like watching the news, and seeing the sad news reports. It's kinda like for example just this past christmas. I felt the need to tell a certain friend of mine (specifically) that, (spirit) wanted me to tell him, "at the funeral that is the first time the spirits seen him hug his father and cry, and also, "for me to call him a F****, because that's how he talks with my friend, and about the spirit being related to him as like a older brother. Knowing my friend well enough. He's the oldest son, and suprised he didn't get mad at me for telling him the F***T message. Normally i'd just stay quiet about these weird messages, but this was one of the very rare times. That I felt as if I needed to. All I did was explain to him the messages, and I felt really stupid for even telling him. It's just that I had a a seriously need to. Of course there are going to be the rumors and me being laughed at behind my back, but on new years day. It turned out that his older Brother in law. Was died due to a homocide. These things happen enough to the point where ppl don't really doubt me as much now. I still maintain that i'm not psychic, and even try to ignore these things unless I feel the need to. So far the things I feel and messages I get, have been pretty accurate or I'm still trying to do research to try to solve.
Such as this message from a woman (spirit) that says she was murdered and something about fire afterwards. Even giving me an exact address, (even directions that were actually real) (I dont know area at all) and about what had happened to her, and messages to the family. That was another one of the I NEED to at least see where it might lead. Only to try to prove myself wrong so I can get rid of the strange thoughts I get every now and then. So I took a friend with me to help me find the location, after he said he knew the area a little bit. Mostly because he wanted to help me get rid of these thoughts by taking me there. So I got dressed up, (just in case I was wrong and so it wouldn't seem as if I was just joking about this) I was ready to go knock on the address that was given to me, and ask the residents, but when we got there, I was so sure about the address that I had recieved. The house wasn't there... BUT!!!! there was a house there recently (like within the same year), there was an empty lot, with what used to be the basement level. So i'm not sure if it might have burned down. If it was, It must had been really recently only. There were cement bricks around where the basement had been dug. So I know the house did exist. Two words that I had written down before the drive were "cement" and "corner". So I told my friend I seriously had to go look into the pit for some reason but not knowing what. As I walked closer to the edge of the pit, I saw a half buried sign. I couldn't make out the other words, but the word "RIGHT" was on that sign. Which wasn't really what I wanted to see either because I'm suppose to be getting rid of my symptoms, not furthering it. I tried to do some research on my own but suck at finding out information from living ppl I guess compared to dead ppl (joke)
I'm going to give you guys the information that I got from the spirit/(possible schizophrenia) If someone can tell help me by proving myself wrong, because I'm tryn to prove myself wrong too, seriously. If anything is absolutely wrong PLEASE! tell me a.s.a.p. so I can get some relief.

Important Words/Phrases/and Numbers

Murder, cut open, unborn child, "boyfriend/husband is the killer", "affair, other girl/woman pregnant" "unsolved" also" "buried" "fire" "burnt" "wall" "bag" "baby" "west" "5 feet" "alongside" "dig ground" "help" "last resort" "resolution"
"stone" "corner" "tell family about unborn child" and I have more words and phrases if you wanna email me at *********X.com

Now I've kinda pieced some words near each other. I can be wrong with grouping words around each other. So as you go along with the study try to keep each word or phrase as in be open minded. If there is that 1 in a zillion chance that it might be possible. All I want is a thank you from the family that this concerns.

Address is ******************X
Names/Initials recieved(fromspirit)
For Sure names are "Bob," and "Mary",K.W. or possibly K.M. , (most likely K.W. though...)

Please though inform me if you find any conclusive results verifying that I am absolutely wrong. I'd seriously will appreciate it.. thnx again ppl.

(note) I"m a very logical person, diagnosed with schizhophrenia in past, take low dosage of meds and not a type of person to make things up.


Edited by Irish Barek Halfhand, it is probably not a good idea to post your address and personal e-mail on a public forum

A human brain can find different meanings in a grain of sand. The brain always tries to connect certain things it sees, smells, hears. If I would make an honest effort and attempt to find a certain meaning behind every sign or word I read on my journey to work, I'd probably be surprised to find a lot. All I'm saying is that overanalyzing certain things you see doesn't necessarily mean it is so, or something is about to happen.

You look at it in a subjective manner, someone else might have a complete different opinion on what you see.

I agree with the others on the board, though. You should try to speak to a psychiatrist about this and perhaps get on medication if you aren't already. Just from reading what you have written, your thoughts are somewhat disconnected (jumping from subject to subject in incomplete sentences). Your thoughts are racing, you said so yourself, which is one of the signs of schizophrenia, meaning that the electrical circuits are at times on overload or fire in the wrong direction. Medication should help.

I know a few people with this ailment that are highly intelligent. There is nothing to be ashamed or fearful of. Try to get some better help.

very complicated thing here Eyes,
first of all schizhophrenia would never be diagnosed by (or even mentioned)by an ER doctor ,next thing the EEG machine, as most Hospital gadgets do, have a battery backup that probably beeps when it gets low like a smoke detector, It does seem like you have alot of things to sort out I do know that people that have been the victims of childhood abuse are effected in many profound ways and it tends to turn into a cycle (You mentioned you had a child )as you are probably not capable of psysical abuse ,you may need to consult someone just to help you with dealing with your OWN child.as far as the murder /death radio thing goes well that isnt the only thing that your hearing on the radio but if your listening to Rap it tends to be prevailing theme...As I am not even close to being qualified to give you any advise I agree with the assertion of coldethyle to get to a doctor ASAP you know sometimes just the slightest chemical imbalance can cause you to feel all screwed up and in some cases can be remedied by a little pill once a day.nothing to be ashamed of ,trust me as an adult with a late diagnosed case of ADHD I know! ......................B