Only God could minister to a heart as He did to mine in 2003. My mind was on partying and getting girls (whooda thought that), I had horrible addictions that seemed to have no end and one night I was struck with this amazing dream. The dream was very VERY vivid that it feels as if I was there (even though It was still a dream), I was in my vehicle driving down this strip and I was watching people as they drove by me. It was very rainy and dark at the beginning of this dream. As I was watching people I could see in the sky that an opening was forming and blue sky was showing through the clouds as if a storm had ended and sunny days were coming. As the sky opened up to blue skies I could here something of an angelic sound or music being played and I saw this HUGE rainbow, it looked like a natural rainbow and underneath it there was this banner with purple ribbon streaming down it and though i couldnt read the banner It was if I knew what it said as being KING OF KINGS. This was always the hardest to explain but under this banner was a rainbow that, as i could have described, was the most vivid of colors that I have ever seen. The colors could not be described because they were so vivid as if someone painted them onto the sky. I felt as if I had been pulled out of my body while viewing this sight and was being pulled in and as I was being pulled in I felt as if a draft of wind was moving through me. I couldnt explain this at all. When I woke up I had recalled the things that I had learned from growing up and when I was in church and felt as If i was a completely new person. Every chain of addiction was broken that consumed my life. I remembering throwing out music cds that were corruptive, my attitude towards my parents was healed, no longer did I look at women the same, I no longer had the desire to do certain things that I did. It was a miracle in itself. That morning that I woke up I just knew that my life wouldnt be the same from that day on. I rededicated my life to Christ and every since then those horrible addictions have not came back. Now I admit that I have tempation with those desires at time and some I dont even have the slightest desire but I feel that Gods grace has kept me in line with His word. Now im sure that people will doubt my words and take them as me having false encounters but every since that has occured and I applied the things the word of God has spoken and declares as true, in my personal life, they have been confirmed 100 accurate. There is a peace Ive never had outside of Christ that is fully and completey unexplainable. Any time I go through hard times I hear a voice saying "its gonna be ok", "Im going to take care of your situation" and everytime that voice was made known to I had an extreme peace and it has never failed to come to pass. I believe I should have shared this initially when i joined the UM instead of forming arguments on proving Christ through physical evidence because my purpose here wasnt to argue but to share what I find very valuable in my Life and hoping that someone would keep an open mind to TEST these things to see that there is proof beyond explanation. Have a good day all

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Wow addictions just gone?
And you don't look at girls the same?
Dang-o, wish it was that easy for everyone. Actually no, I take that back, because if I was just completely without sin and perfect, why would I need God?--I could get into Heaven on my own good deeds and be ridin easy.
But that sounds like a crazy dream you had.

Well what I mean is is that the desire for women was not the same. I wanted a relationship that lasted a week (maybe 2 or 3 relationships a week ) but my desire was then being changed to want a lifetime relationship with someone I truly care about. As far as the desire to sin, it felt as if I had more of a desire to do RIGHT than wrong...now that doesnt meant that I no longer had the temptation. I have had times when the temptation is almost irresistable but God had always bestowed strength when I was weak and Grace when I failed. It wasnt by my works that I felt saved but the feeling that God truly loves me and that forgiveness was in His hands

Good thing you cleared that up, it seemed like, for a second, that you had just been given a righteous pink slip to live without human temptations or something. haha.

no no no. Im sorry that it sounded that way. The desire has been to NOT sin but when I make mistakes (everyone whether christian or non christian makes mistakes) God shows His grace and when I ask for forgiveness I have confidence that He forgives me because its His promise (its a promise to ANYONE that believes)

dangit i just made this post and it couldnt display the server or something like that so my post was lost, probably for the better, i just think that children who are taken to church get used to it, and when they do they dont question the beliefs, i have personally had no experiences with god, gave up on him a few years ago, and question beliefs but accept them as well. if your story is real then i congradulate you, but it is hard to break an addiction, not knowledge from experience i assure you, im 15. i just hope that you firmly believe in god because of the experience, not because you were brought up learning about him. you have an individual mind, use it. but i accept that you could be right. hope to see you again

I agree it is VERY hard to break an addiction. That is more reason for me to believe it was not I that broke it. I cant take credit for ANYTHING in this experience I had. It felt as if a 500lb weight had been pulled off my shoulders and those strong desires had left. I hope this doesnt offend you but may I ask why you gave up on God a few years ago?

I've had an experience, more like a "Shock to Find Out" kinda thing. I was wondering why my birthmark was in the place of Jesus's stab wound. I did research, (which I regret, should've kept the truth silent) Planetary alignments prove that I was born during a 5 planet alignment. Jesus's birth had a 2 planet alignment, the same two that was in mine. Now anyone could've had that, then the birthmark threw me off. Did some more research. Jesus was eaten by animals to a point of non recognition after the crucifiction, hence my dreams of being eaten by animals. So I thought, what a coincidence. Ironically I have a manufactured unblessed cross in my room, Can not throw it away, kept it hangin. So day goes on, the 2nd floor searchin for something, I turned around and on the wall in plain sight was a gold/silver cross. then I started to get freaked out. Supposably Jesus looked handsome and was very intelligent. Same thing with me. I fell back on my chair. I didn't try to prove it, I tried to disprove it, but I came to failure. I should have left the situation alone.Knowing who I am is scary. The weird thing is when I enter the church, I get nauseas, very. Maybe I'm detecting corruption within the church. I don't know and I am really confused. And I live in New York. No drugs, no alcohol, no sex. Clean head to toe........Someone explain this. This can't be all coincidence. It's impossible. I don't know what to do.

It's settled then you are the reincarnate of Jesus...

And you mind sourcing Jesus being eating by animals after the crucifixion?

Also, there is a prophesy believed to be about Jesus, that says he was ugly, "he had no beauty of majesty to attract us to him (Isaiah 53:2).” haha.

Hmm well if it works for you, great. Me I'd chalk it up to hitting rock bottom and finally gaining a bit of perspective and maturity. Just remember, act of God or rehab, you are still an addict as I am even 17 years clean. One slip and it's all too easy to end up right back where you were.

Ive slipped before (and so have all christians) but the desire was NOT to continue in it but to continue to do right...."gaining a bit of perspective and maturity"....This goes beyond perspective and maturity....someone doesnt just give up that many things in a day, not even rehab can deliver you in a day.....this just doesnt happen by chance im afraid.

amen...only Jesus can deliver you the way you were delivered...the healing is complete physically but you will always have the temptations that are common to man...keep strong in the word, from the word we gain strength...i am happy for you.

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THANK YOU for that encouragement. !

you ask why i gave up on god, ill tell you, ill try not to get agitated, i usually do when talking about religion. the reason i gave up on god a few years back was because i began to question his being, children get sick and die every day, people who are firm believers die or natural or manmade causes, i would have thought god would want to protect all of us, unless he is REALLY busy with other worlds as well, why would he let disasters happen? what if the human race is wiped out, then who would he have to worship him? who would he have to continue us? noone. i am still unsure of many things, this is one of the most complicated things ive ever encountered, god, real or not? it is a mystery, you dont actually know, do you? it is just a mystery. you arent actually definately sure of his existance are you. . . it just doesnt seem logical to believe in something when it has no physical evidence, i am sorry but i just cant believe in him, i understand faith but i have none. i must go now the school bell just rang.