lately things have been seemeing to have no seperation... everything has taken the same value of acceptance in my mind. I will look at a picture and the colours all seem to be the same to me... they don't seem to be very distinct.... or like, I'm listening to music and all the notes seem without meaning. I mean, I can tell the difference between the notes and colours but it doesn't seem like there is a difference... its very strange.

Even everyday events are starting to seem like that... why is this happening?

its almost like things like music or colours are one and that they don't have any distinct seperation anymore... its all becoming the same thing... not with everyday experience, but with certain things like music or artwork...

not sure exactly what you're getting at... but reminds me of:
"What has been is what will be, and what has been done is what will be done; there is nothing new under the sun"

... all is vanity

That would scare me a bit.

Start counting the colors and sounds you see and hear in everyday life. Try to pay attention to detail. You seem to have lost interest in the smaller things, and are looking at the whole.

Sounds a bit mad!

So, do you mean this in a physical way, literally, you are unable to tell the difference between different notes and colours, you can not hear a song you just hear one long noise orrrr do you mean it in an abstract way, that you do not feel you are able to see the meaning in any of the notes, they are all just...notes...and songs...and pictures but that is it, this is all they are.

If that is the case then you are right, notes and pictures and colours have no meaning. We have to give them meaning through associative experience.

Is it bothering you?


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That can be depression. The reason I think this is because quite a few years ago I had a similar thing - in my case the colours weren't very bright, they seemed downright dull actually. Music didn't seem to uplift me either.

The other strange thing I had - you may have this too - if someone were speaking to me, I would find it extremely difficult to hear what they were saying if there was any other background noise - being in a pub was downright annoying, I learned to lipread really well LOL. Funnily enough, it is okay now, so it was not a hearing problem.

If it is depression, don't struggle on alone, I did and it took me bloody years and years to sort myself out, when I may have been better off going to the doctors and him sending me to a therapist or something.

I totally agree with lotus flower here. It does sound like the way depression impacts your senses. It will, or can also do this to things you love doing the most... nothing seems to be fun anymore. Everything is a blah.
If you think this could be it (depression), do get some help. :]

I don't want to alarm you but this sort of sounds like depression.

Sophomore year I was very down in the dumps, and with sound in particular, it felt like sounds were new or I was hearing for the first time. Does it sometimes feel like when you hear something, it's kind of the way you hear when you're drifting off to sleep but can still comprehend what you're hearing? Also, I don't know if this happens to you, but if you get very dizzy or get these disconnected feelings (like reality isn't real), that can be severe mismanagement of stress, depression, or suppression of anger. Maybe life feels too mechanical or non-spontaneous enough for you, like there’s no excitement to be had because things are just so routine. Maybe you’re not being challenged enough where you are right now. But get to the root of the problem before it becomes a monster.

The general consensus is that this may be depression. Unfortunately UM is not qualified or is a place to diagnose such. If you are this concerned, the best advice is to go and seek a medical professional who will be able to advise you.