for as far back as i can account for i've been having this reoccuring dream on and off, sometimes i won't have it for years, or months, but i will always have it again eventually...
hmm, its not really reoccuring cos the dream is kind of different every time, but with certain distinctive similaries...it takes place in the house i'm liveing at the time, though slightly altered, and besides me and 'the presence', as i'll call it for now, there's just really my family...
its the presence of 'the presence' in every single one of them that causes me to label them reoccuring...and its always the same...i can't 'see' him, (definitely get the sense its 'male'), there are no visual representations whatsoever...just this dreadful, dreadful feeling i can't even describe...after waking up, the simple memory of this feeling brings a cold sweat
and always, in every dream, i know when he's coming, i 'feel' that he is about to come, and im beyond terrified, i lose myself in utter fright, it is the worst feeling i can imagine...i hate it.
just as it/he arrives, i'm always in my bedroom(once my mother's), and his arrival will usually be announced by the closet doors suddenly swinging open and start banging ferociously...then, while i still can i try to run for the door, as for some reason i know if i can just get out of the room, im safe. he/it doesn't follow me out...if i can escape in time, thats it. i'm free, til he/it next decides to strike. in some dreams i have left the room in time, and spend the rest of the dream making sure that when i get the feeling he's coming i can make a quick escape, but in the vast magority, the bedroom door slams shut, and i'm trapped. it's completely locked shut by 'him/it' and i'm soon completely paralysed...and its this 'presence' that paralyses me, but i don't know why, all i know is that i'm insanely horrifed, petrified beyond reason and feel a desperation i've never felt in real life...in the dreams, its like he this plague in my life i'm constantly trying to avoid while i try to go about a normal life, he can strike whenever, i'm petrified of him and must always try to escape.
only thing is though, after becoming 'caught' by him, by dream simply ends on that horrible note. i have no idea what actually happens to me after that.
it disturbs me because i've been having it since i was a child and the way i feel in it is just too real, and whenever i remember it, i just hope i never have it again soon! i dread now actually going to sleep tonight and dreaming about it because i described it here tonight!
this thing truly terrifys me, and my desperate crys for help in the dreams are never heard by my family, ignored, or stifled...i don't know what he wants from me, because, i never find out...it is indeed a very stressful dream!
i wonder if anyone else has experieced reoccuring dreams of this sort...and if i should make anything of them??
all i know is i'm scared of having my next one
