When I was younger around the age of four I was playing in boxes of old things in my parents bedroom.
(My mother neglected me often and I was left to play alone for hours and hours as she slept or read books.
I was not aloud to play outside because of her fear of the outside world and of people.) Well I was playing
alone in the bedroom, I used to make little houses and forts in the corners of the room with pillows and blankets and chairs,
I remember a book that I found, and I began to read it.. it was a Christian children's book... as usual I was disgusted by it and thought
it was completely ignorant and stupid. I was bored of it and I decided to look for bb gun pellets on the floor.
(Our family hails from down south, and well... our house was so old... I don't know why they were there but they were in every room of the house.
This is an old house from the 1800's and the carpet was decomposing and was dry rotted... it was a golden brown in color.
I started to pull up the carpet (only around the edges, as I didn't want to ruin anything)... out of boredom and to look for these pellets... and it's a bit hazy.

If I was sleeping then I wonder why I didn't go back to my comfortable fort in the corner.. it was almost as if I had passed out.
Or even possibly had been awake though all of this, a very aware state came over me. I do not remember some specific details...
I was laying belly down on the carpet when the floor started glowing, a rectangular shape orange yellow in color resembling fire
appeared in front of my eyes. This I realize was a portal, but at the time I had thought I had found a cellar door.
A voice called to me from within it... "Come, my child" or something similar... it was calling to me.
I said "No" of course I remembered what my mother told me about strangers, I was reacting to him as if he were a strange human
and not a being from another plane of existence. Eventually he coerced me there.

I remember not seeing him directly at first, I entered the portal and I was in a cavern with wooden shelves on the walls,
and jars filled with herbal ingredients and all sorts of interesting things that I didn't know anything about.
I had no clue what I should remember or that I should remember anything from here, I was a child.

He basicly showed me a book, it had illustrations about man... something was on the page it was alot similar to
(if not the same) as the image of the Vitruvian Man by Leonardo da Vinci.
(oddly enough with all of the davinci code nonsense or whatever going on lately.)

He was trying to explain things to me, show me things 'to remember'.
I am not sure of any significance of any of this.

( Partly this is why I am posting here, to see if anyone has any opinions.
De construct this as you wish, this is just my experience.. and if you want to tear it apart
or whatever go ahead. I have nothing to gain or lose by posting this. I just am seeking help
to figure out if there is something some guide is trying to tell me to do with my life instead
of sitting here wasting away. )

The male entity had glowing eyes of red, like rubies with embers and sparks within them.
I remember mainly his eyes, but he also had dark leathery skin.

I felt a deep love for him, there were warm waves of emotion for him, as if he was my father.
I did not want to leave him, and I was crying as he had to assist me back home.
He told me that I could not stay with him, and that eventually I could be there again.

I have felt his presence off and on since then, as if he was watching me.
There are spiritual battles which have taken place, which he assisted in...
(my friend witnessed him, although I have not seen him again since the age of four.)

I might have been younger than four, or even slightly older.
I have had more 'paranormal' experiences in my life, some more mundane than others.

I dunno, just throwing this out there for someone who might know more.
I haven't really researched this stuff, I just know what I've seen.

Thanks in advance for your opinions =) I am also open to questions,
and I have no reason to lie or anything, but some details might have been changed in my
head because of the nature of the human brain and all that. I am trying to be as honest and
close to what happened as I can be. I've held this as a close secret for years,
and I've only told those that I trust. But due to the anonymity of the internet..
I finally want to get an opinion.

Some people have told me he was a demon, faerie, angel, spirit guide, even a 'cat person'.
I am not sure really what to believe. Some of you guys have done research all of your life,
so I figure I can find some qualified opinions lol.

(note, I added a picture of vitruvian man for reference, although it might have not been the same image in the book)

During each percepted age, my quarters reflected my tastes of each age, when i was not in a scenario{what you call life} I had a small mansion that had a library i was quite fond of, as it's bookshelves were full of my account's of each scenario life i had percieved, and the knowledge and ability's my character life had in each of the scenario's.

I had a favorite chair that was plush, with high back and arms in the library.

During my times there, i would grab some of the many friends and lovers i had made during each life, to have a party, and to make promise's that it would end eventually. Those friend's like Robert, know the truth about thing's. They want it to end, as do i.

I have had many bolthole base's during each age. The creature you say you felt close to, was just that, a creature. Not human. You don't know what it is he want's. That you felt the love that strongly means he was projecting it for you to feel. To make your mind numb, so you would'nt notice how horrorable he actually is.

Or what it is he actually want's from you.

Not all the thing's that manifest for people outside this world's percepted experiance, care about you. I learned long ago to look beneath the surface of what it is i am experiancing, to see the truth, and that truth is myself, however that has been distorted for me at time's. I remember the one you speak of, he is a murderer of humans. After he takes what he want's.

Hope you never see or feel his presence again. You won't like what he does if you do.

luck.

Have you ever considered practicing medicine, modern or not?

Yes actually I have, but I am not in that great of a condition so I haven't gone through with any schooling for it, all of my family seem to be nurses.
I deal with daily chronic pain that limits everything I do. My husband seems to notice I have some healing energy though.

I can't really help to explain what happened to you.....but I do feel that you must be blessed

in some way to have these experiences......maybe the solitude that you felt as a child opened you up

to all of this.......you didn't have the distractions that children often have.

Welcome to the forum.

Would you care to speak with me in pm? I am interested to ask you about this creature, and to talk about more things also.

Thanks Bee

Welcome to the boards, by the way! I'm sorry I didn't mention that before. I've been here so long I have forgotten my manners.

I'm not sure if that being is bad or good. It was trying to tell you something. I'm sorry to hear about your pain. Does your pain correlate in any way to what he was trying to show you in the picture? A specific body part or glance? Have you always suffered from this pain or has it gotten worse in certain part of your body? Does this being asks you to contact him still?

You don't have to answer these questions here, just something to think about.

Many times it is those who have the power to overcome their own pain who are best to help others. Natural medicine might be in your path, where your experience can help others. Good luck with your quest, in any way *hugs you*

Sure, just realize i see and remember thing's. They may not alway's reflect your percieved life or memory's exactly, but that is because it has been changed, memory overlay's. I had a flash memory that you had trusted it, and he ended up doing what i wrote. You have dark or brown hair, and are caucausion right? Pretty light from what i saw.

He let you go because he was made to let you go. If that had'nt happened, you would not be here right now. He was forced to be courtious to you. Did'nt you notice that his eye's kept darting around nervously in your memory. He was looking for me. It and the other creatures fear me.

They are empty alien scum.

Ann : I've considered that aspect, It is just so fuzzy really what he was trying to tell me... I was so young. I'm not even sure that the picture he showed was relevant... It is just what I looked at... children get fixated on pictures sometimes.

I don't mind answering things, if spreading awareness around is important I guess my experience is valid somewhere. This for me is a lot to take in, I've had a lot of experiences during my lifetime.. and I don't know how to express them elsewhere really. It seems that everything has a purpose whether it is a simple one or not. When I see something I always think more or less if there is a reason for me to see it. It can get very confusing sometimes.

Thanks for tipping me off to natural medicine, I have definitely considered reading more about it and using it for myself and others.

It doesn't seem that he tries to contact me anymore.

Well you were right about being pale and having naturally dark hair, but well actually his gaze was intense and almost piercing... and filled with fire.
He never touched me when I was in the room besides a last hug. I only know the first letter to his name because as a child I could not pronounce his full name. I am not completely doubting you, but to me it is important to keep my mind open and still remember it as I perceived it. He seemed kind, and as a guardian.

Oh oh.... but it is likely you have seen another experience I have had but haven't spoken about... they are murderers and indeed I had a protector, and I did NOT feel anything but terror during that one, and I believe them to be aliens... they had almost human eyes. There was a flying handkerchief that protected me... very very odd experience and I doubt I would like to ever relive that one. To this day I can't see anything about aliens or I get sick. I was tied by leather to a stone table... and there were very tall beings that my mother handed me over to. But that was a 'dream' but it seemed very relevant to speak about it.
I know about now I seem coo coo, but well I guess ... If that is what you saw then what you are saying makes perfect sense.

That's because the sick b****** was forced to be that way to you. While i was controlling him to get you safely away from him, before he got you to verbally commit to him. As another of your family did.

Does'nt the fact his eye's were filled with fire bother you as to his intention's? however he may have masked his behaviour through threat while being forced to let you go.

You don't remember his name because it is gone. Your free of it.

Thank you for your answer. You are aware of things, and that can get very confusing! From your story I didn't feel any love from that being, or hate. I might even say that he was very to the point and just… practical. Does that make sense? And I would have been a lot more worried if he was still trying to contact you.

I have a feeling that you might hold in your hands an answer to relieve some of your pain, and so help others. You have the power to do this, on your own.

I have to go to bed now, so again – I hope you'll find this quest fruitful.

Your aversion to them was implaced to keep you from seeking them out again. The memory of your mother giving you to them actually happened. In that scenario your family was a little confused.

They would'nt let me show myself to you, the one's who genarate it all{percieved self and live's and world's} They thought the kerchief was funny. I remember being angry about it. When i am angry, like any human{which i am, just not this type} i tend to bleed my feeling's through. When i do that, everyone feels it.

The thing's have a lesser ability to project emotions, it was their terror at my anger you were feeling.

Wow, keep going, let's see if their anymore.

Like many abductions my 'dream' follows the similar routine, although I don't want to believe in aliens flying in from other worlds... or nonsense like that. I know they are beings which seem to reside here, and I don't like the terms or whatever. This is a reccuring dream, and I always had it when I got ear infections as a child... over and over it would replay as I slept on the couch groggy from the infection... It was always the same, it always felt as if a memory was coming back to me.


I will go into this experience in detail now, as it possibly will help others in some way.


I was being taken to my 'baby sitters' my mom could not see their true form. I screamed in terror at being handed to them, it was a male and a female presumably... and they were tall, lanky, flesh coloured. They had big eyes of blue colour... and very faint hairs on their head and body (also what appeared to be liver spots too.). They wore tattered cloth around the waist but no clothes that I can remember otherwise...

I was laid upon a wooden or stone table, and fastened with leather restraints and I was anesthetized somehow. They had surgical tools, and cut me open several times, I remember looking at my chest and there was a cut oozing my blood. A flying handkerchief flew around... to entertain me and to serve its purpose of mopping up my blood. That's all I remember about that really.

It's been a reoccurring dream, but I am not sure about the reality of it... although it seemed very real to me.

I wanted to add there is much more going on with me, but I have to pause between posts because they make my head hurt pretty bad, and are sort of overwhelming... especially dealing with these issues. Bear in mind this is really the first time I have expressed all of this in an open forum situation. I tend to keep it all to myself... because frankly... it scares people and they want to call me crazy, and I feel ashamed it has happened to me sometimes... so I just prefer to try to live normally I guess and not mention it. Besides I never really met anyone who could tell me anything about it anyway... so entertaining people with my stories while I make myself look crazy wasn't really my cup of tea.

Though there are some specific's, it is clear you are being given a message through your remembered experiance's. That message is to let it all go. Remember i mentioned memory overlay's that cover other sequence's of thing's that happened differently then your experiancing right now. What i've called scenario repeats, that have been edited to reflect your currently percieved scenario.

You are one who can remember what has been covered up, though like us all who can see, It can be confusing until you figure out who you really are. And to do that, you need to get away from the layers of belief you have aquired here through your experiance's.

Sorry to be so blunt and mean about this, but you're crazy.

Why am i crazy? because i actually do know some thing's about her. That i can see image's? Why don't you ask what the one i'm responding to think's. If your not a part of what's happening, then you won't understand it. And i'm tired of explainining myself to those who have no clue.

Have a nice day

Hi guys...funny thing is I was just talking to my wife 2 nights ago about my experience when I was around 3 or 4 I think...and I told her I would search the internet about something similar....

I live in Malaysia, and being a chinese and in the mid 70s, english speaking family is a rarity. However when I was a child there used to be this man (spirit) who appear in the stairways (where I usually play by myself) he is caucasian, thin long face, very angelic look, blond hair, very innocent looking guy, I've no idea what language we spoke as I couldnt recall but we do communicate. The strange thing is I totally do not feel scare but infact felt very comfortable with him.

Anyway from the little memories I've left of him, I call him Mr.H, I cant remember if he had told me his full name. And there was this incident when our family was driving around town and when I saw the car no plate in front I could say it out in English and my mom was very surprise who had taught me english and say out numbers..

Anyone else has this experiance when they were small?