Hey all, checking back in, been busy out 'sinning'. LOL. If I am going to hell, shouldn't I earn it?

Anyway, thank you all for the kind words again, and now to some replies.
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I have a rule that I refuse to be around anyone that 1) makes me feel bad about myself
Which is why I haven't spoken to any of my grandparents in almost a decade. I got screwed over, and I'm going to Hell? I don't need that kind of guilt.
And I know the verses you mentioned, and it doesn't do any good to point them out since they are so twisted they throw them back at me with thier own warped interpretations.
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No your not going to hell at all.Tell the family only Jesus knows who goes to heaven or hell.
It does seem odd that both wives you have divorced for cheating.I could understand one wife,but two? You are not looking in the right places I guess to find a lady who doesn't cheat.They are out there,but it will take time to find one.
Do you work alot?Perhasp the whole cheating thing started with them because they felt you did not spend enough time with them nor brought them flowers nor said often enough I love you dear.For your next lady,do little things for her,like bring her a single rose,or offer to take care of the kids for a day (if you or she has any) while she gets some free time,or give her a gift certificate if you can afford it to some place to get her nails done or a facial,she'll like that.
Just a thought.
Well, the first wife was a mistake; I was young and dumb, but I still fell all over myself to treat her like a queen until the day she came home and told me she had group sex with the mechanics at the garage her sister's boyfriend owned.
And the second wife, she got spoiled. The only place I could see where I might have screwed up there is that I was spending nights playing cards to make my half of the bills and she was working mostly evenings. Yes, I had to hang out in bars to play cards, but that doesn't mean I was up to anything...then. That and she had Daddy issues of her own that didn't come out until she took off with a guy twice her age...who is still living with his Momma.
You're right, I think I have been looking in the wrong places. Both of my exes had a lot less education than me, and thus a different understanding of the way the world functions.
And I think I did almost everything you mentioned at some point, for either one of them, except for the kids thing. I won't mess around with a woman who already has kids, well not seriously, and yay! sterility for me! LOL
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Next time someone who says there a christian tells you your going to hell for whatever reason ask them why are they insulting Jesus ? after all he came and was sacrificed and paid our sin debt in full ! do they honestly believe as christians that his sacrafice wasn,t pure or good enough? or do they think that the Christ they believe in is a liar? then tell them if they believe that they are going to hell a lot faster than you are! so mabey it,s THEM who needs to read the bible and study it a lot closer and quit condemming! thats not thier job!!!
Oh, I know.

I've always said the first thing I am doing when I get to hell is checking out my paternal grandfather's torture because I know it will be a whole lot worse than mine.
And that whole Jesus loves me thing... I'm not sure I would say Jesus loves me, but I look at my relationship with God like this: He made me the way I am -- crazy most of the time, a drunken, lecherous, gambler when single, and a devoted partner when in a relationship, basically a heathen with a touch of morality and sort of a conscience -- so He spends his day in Heaven laughing his butt off at my antics and elbowing Buddha and Allah in the ribs while saying, "Lookit that crazy S.O.B! I made that!"
Yes, I'm serious. That is the two second version of my relationship with God: I'm his favorite screwed up little monkey.
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And yet, just think. If these two women cheated on you it meant they weren't what you were looking for in a wife. So had they not done that, you wouldn't be free, through divorce, to be available for that woman that's been looking for you all her life. And when that happens, you'll know heaven! Which will make it all worth the journey through those hell's, that showed you what not to accept, of how a woman treats you. Take the bad, make it work for you by learning and growing stronger for it and it makes the experience a benefit, instead of a burden, I think.
There's a girl out there waiting for me?!
Wow, she must be a real trip. LOL.
But all stupidity aside, yes I can do it if I HAVE to, I understand perfectly what you're saying. I spent a week as a sobbing, broken wreck after the last wife left. Then I had an epiphany: "Screw it. I'm too good for all this. I'm getting mine, what I want for my life, all those dreams I put on hold to make a good life her. If I can find a woman who wants to share those dreams and support me in achieving them, great. If I can't find that, well, there's always casual sex."
That's the part that bugs me the most about this whole "going to Hell" thing. It isn't really the condemnation, but the complete misunderstanding on the part of the Christians in my family of how, while not a Christian myself, I utilized the Christian philosophy of a husband's role and sacrifices involved in a marriage. For example, back to the first wife, the one that caused the rift in my family. I put aside college so I could go to work and support her, instead of her having to support the family while I went to school. I wanted to be a published novelist at the time, still do most days, but I was too drained from working demanding jobs to even sit at a keyboard. But I didn't care, I had a responsibilty to my wife and i was doing what I should.
How does she repay me? With 5 mechanics. And I'm going to Hell for that? I'm damned because for once in my weird little life, I was doing the right thing. I could care less if they condemned me for my all my other misbehaviors, but to say I am damned for being decent, and without justification, as far as I can see?
That stings, I have to admit.
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I think Christians are cautious about the idea of divorce because so many are taking advantage of quick divorces without doing the work necessary to see if they can save their marriage. No one wants to stick to their vows anymore or take them seriously. Marriage is work, no matter who you are or what you believe. We live in a society that wants instant gratification and constant romance. That's just not what marriage is about. I believe it's about unconditional love, commitment, fidelity, loyalty, support and common goals. It means you're willing to stick with someone no matter what crap they are going through. It's a decision--and not always a warm fuzzy feeling that gives you goosebumps. I found that after the romance fades a bit (hopefully it never dies completely), there is a much deeper, fulfilling love left between you. (And you don't have to shave your legs anymore or leave the room to fart.)
Don't think we'll have to call a truce this time, Howdy

, because I agree with you completely. I worked my butt off in both marriages. Yes, I played poker for a living in the second one for a while, but as anyone who has done it knows staking your grocery money in the game, and relying on your skills at cards to make that back and the light bill and the house note in one night, is about as nerve-wracking a job as there is. And I succeeded. We were never hurting.
And at home, I did my share of the chores, etc. Hell, I even brought her flowers home the night I came home and found her gone. Didn't leave a note by the way, let her sister tell me everything, eventually.
I think my mistake was marrying women who didn't realize the work involved, physically, emotionally and spiritually. Even though my second wife proposed to me -- actually she TOLD me on Feb. 4, 2003 we were getting married on Valentine's Day, 2003; since she had a large knife collection and I wanted to anyway, I shrugged and said "OK" -- I don't believe now that she knew what she was getting into.
Just makes me gnash my teeth that I did.
Love the quote about witnessing by the way. Great definition of marriage.