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My personal experiences dealing with an alcoholic.

When the Beast Comes to Play

By: Jody

Tears smeared across the page
I can't do more; but I try

I fail
I cannot control the beast
Living inside her

I cannot bare to watch the beast
Take over
And throw her to the ground

It takes a hold of her
And tosses her to the floor

Her brain is sleeping
She won't remember tomorrow
How the beast is slowly

Killing her
Day-by-day
Inch-by-inch

I shield myself
From the pain
But her amour is too bright
It blinds me

As I sink into my skin
My blood is cold
And my back is broke
Her beast is too bold

I try to explain
But she doesn't listen
She only wants to believe
What's bad and ugly

She creates a fantasy world
All her own
Where she is invincible
She is so strong

No one can take her down
She laughs
At the beast

As she silently suffers
Her past pains
And invites the beast
To come and play

It ravages her body and soul
Once again

Until in the end
There is nothing
But an empty shell
Broken on the ground

Forgetting the pains
Of yesterday

Heavy

Smile, She-ra

She-ra

Wow, I can relate .....not so much physically , mine was mentally.....8 year realtionship 5 abusive......

Just ended it recently..... It hurts just the same....

Proud to say "US STRONG WOMAN" can overcome and get even STRONGER... but drained a bit..

Nice work, She-ra. Hopefully this poem helped you heal a little. Tempted to forward it to my ex-wife since her sister told me that she hasn't seen my-ex sober since she left me.

Good job , poetry's always a good read.

Thank you all very much. Hugs, Jody

Good stuff Jody

Alcoholism is pretty tough--for both the person dealing with it and their loved ones that it affects.

My best friend use to drink 24/7, got involved with depending on other substances, and that's all he was doing to himself for a good 2-3 years.

One day he started out in the Philly area, woke up in Boston, and was in New York sometime inbetween and couldn't remember any of it. He quit everything that day and has been sober 3 years now.

He had stints in rehab previously, but it seems the only way someone with those issues can help themselves is if they first reach a point of admitting to themselves it's a problem. Then from that point they need to decide it's one that they want to fix, and one that they can fix.

I'm lucky cause it's good to have my friend back. I remained friends with him throughout the ordeal, but he wasn't the same person if you know what I mean.

Take care,

Thanks LF and remember:
Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.

xo, Jody