I need help

[ADHasbro]

I've been having a rough time lately, and its getting harder for me to grip on to reality. My own mother would put her bible before I, and say that it is my fault because I don't believe in the same god as her.

Yesterday something happened to me, and it scares me a little bit.

This picture has been on my face book since early 2012,but I drew it when I was 16 or 17 06/07. Yesterday I was told that he was brought up on 13 counts of child pornography, and other really awful things.

I've dabbed in metaphysics before, but could this atually be anything?

[Mr.United_Nations]

sorry what?

[Fox M]

the drawing was brought up on charges or you ?

[Four Winds]

Yesterday something happened to me, and it scares me a little bit.

This picture has been on my face book since early 2012,but I drew it when I was 16 or 17 06/07. [ You are missing some info here to help us understand what you are trying to explain ] Yesterday I was told that he was brought up on 13 counts of child pornography, and

Can you clarify?

Edited November 28, 2013 by Razer

[Beany]

This is the part that's confusing people, I think, because we don't know who "he" is: Yesterday I was told that he was brought up on 13 counts of child pornography, and other really awful things.

[bLu3 de 3n3rgy]

Sounds like he is talking about Ian Watkins ( Lostprophets singer ) because the picture has the name Ian in it.

http://www.dailymail...-rape-baby.html

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2514319/Ian-Watkins-pictures-Lostprophets-singer-hospital-meet-young-patients.html

What is it that happened that you think is connected to you dabbling with metaphysics ?

Edited November 28, 2013 by bLu3 de 3n3rgy

[ADHasbro]

sorry guys, I've just been exhausted by thinking about this. I mean Ian Watkins; he was the lead singer to the band Lost Prophets.

And its not about me dabbing it metaphysics, its about me being unable to explain why I drew the picture in the first place when I was 16.

When my friend told me about it I knew immediately that there was a connection between my drawing, and him. because of my belief that nothing happens on accident.

Ive had experiences that has happened in the past, that literally came back and haunted me, and I got scammed out of 4000. I don't believe in god,

but I believe that I've strayed away from the man I was supposed to be, and it came back and bit me in the ass.

I have a lot more sketches, and a few of them I have realized I drew a picture of my current girlfriend, 7 years ago, who I met when I was 22 while I was in the army. and now almost 24.

I

[Davros of Skaro]

The real question is how is it possible in this day, and to be able to acces vile illegal images.? :<

[Fox M]

Sounds like he is talking about Ian Watkins ( Lostprophets singer ) because the picture has the name Ian in it.

http://www.dailymail...-rape-baby.html

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2514319/Ian-Watkins-pictures-Lostprophets-singer-hospital-meet-young-patients.html

What is it that happened that you think is connected to you dabbling with metaphysics ?

That was very sharp of you , well done !

[bLu3 de 3n3rgy]

sorry guys, I've just been exhausted by thinking about this. I mean Ian Watkins; he was the lead singer to the band Lost Prophets.

And its not about me dabbing it metaphysics, its about me being unable to explain why I drew the picture in the first place when I was 16.

When my friend told me about it I knew immediately that there was a connection between my drawing, and him. because of my belief that nothing happens on accident.

Ive had experiences that has happened in the past, that literally came back and haunted me, and I got scammed out of 4000. I don't believe in god,

but I believe that I've strayed away from the man I was supposed to be, and it came back and bit me in the ass.

I have a lot more sketches, and a few of them I have realized I drew a picture of my current girlfriend, 7 years ago, who I met when I was 22 while I was in the army. and now almost 24.

I

Who did you think you were drawing when you drew that as a 16 year old ? - was it just a random drawing to you ? did you name it Ian when your originally drew it ?

[ADHasbro]

Who did you think you were drawing when you drew that as a 16 year old ? - was it just a random drawing to you ? did you name it Ian when your originally drew it ?

I knew exactly who I was drawing at the time. but why?

At the time, I was just coming into my artistic skills. I wanted to draw a portrait (my first attempt one), and I was listening to Last Train Home by Lost Prophets. And I drew him. I drew him so sad though. I never understood why. I believe that their is more, and there are things that has happened to me that it is making it really hard to start doubting the universe around me.

[thyra]

What makes you doubt the universe around you? you dont need to tell me anything until you are feeling comfortable about speaking. There is no need to rush, you know. whatever happened happened with Ian.

[bLu3 de 3n3rgy]

You sound like you are struggling with defining the part of yourself that is empathetically "aware" and able to tap into the more subtle consciousness levels / energies. For some, being artistic is the medium for that connection. I mean in the psychic intuitive sense.

Is this what you are confused about ?

[Beany]

What makes you doubt the universe around you? you dont need to tell me anything until you are feeling comfortable about speaking. There is no need to rush, you know. whatever happened happened with Ian.

thyra, this is such a kind response it brightened my day a little. thank you.

[ADHasbro]

I'm tired of people saying that's how it is supposed to be, when I know for a fact it is not. The people around us suffer, while others are treated as kings and queens. I'm broke, barely living paycheck to paycheck with my girlfriend and four year old girl. I've learned where we are in time we live in a flawed system specifically created by man to keep some in power, and others... well, aren't we all just 20th century peasants?

I know from christian history that Jesus is some sort of saviour, but no one really knows why. All they can come up with is god sent them a messenger, and apparently people still aren't getting it.

One. We are all sacrifices. If man blows up planet.... that's it.

Two. Man isn't ready to create ****. People are crossing their fingers to find life elsewhere in the universe. How could we expect not to get obliterated when we are sun a war hungry species.

Its all about violence, violence=money. Your death means more money to someone else. Which at this point makes life quite literally meaningless. The value of the dollar is a god in itself, there are those who believe the world is made of it... and it is. Economics is only an idea when their are people not surviving because of it. And that's why gods were created, to have a system put in place because man apparently still isn't ready to create ****.

I have a lot of things that go through my mind, and I'm only 23. So the system we live in says I don't know ****, when I can see with my own two eyes that this is very wrong.

I have another sketch. It is a skull, but it has silver dyes. Sharp teeth, and no nose. In its mouth it has spiked brass knuckles with the spikes facing me. In the holes where the fingers go are are the numbers 7320. I looked it up on google, the only thing I could find, other than area code spam sites, was a wikipedia page name a galaxy about 40 million light years away or something like that. And I had an awful lump in my stomach when I read that it is in the same direction of the pegasus constellation.

For a long time I have had this dream that I was running down a street at night. I was being chased by shadows of even darker figures with blue and red eyes. They were gaining on me so I jumped, and all of a sudden I was jumping through the air able to touch the sky. High enough to see the sun on the other side of the earth. Then I started falling, and I got that, butterfly feeling in mg stomach as if I were actually falling. The first few times I had the dream I was woke suddenly just before I hit the ground; in a cold sweat. It was two years since I started having the dream. I learned a few things about dreams from studying, Each dream was different, but I always ended with me able to fly jumping pretty high. but two weeks ago I had the same dream; I got the the point to where I was able to control where I jumped, but when I started falling this time I was caught ny a white einged house that too me to the sinrise.

It probably soinds stupid, but every time I see a homeless person I think of what could be done. Yesterday I saw a homeless woman with a little boy holding a sign that said homeless. These thoights are killing me.

[thyra]

Sharing of thoughts is always good and brings lots of relief to a person. You can do it here, you can do it with your friends. not only for yourself but it is good for both parties.

You are not alone in almost all of your feelings, many people share similar thoughts with you towards the homeless, towards the difficulties of life, towards the religious teachings.

You are very young, which means you have so much more to see and you have so much energy inside you to experience better situations for yourself.

I am not in a position to give advice to you, but if i were you I wouldnt try to think and solve everything in one step.There is time for everything.

No thought has the power to kill you. There will always be somethings that we cant solve, in society or even in our own lives...for those we should let them go for a while and we can always handle them again when we feel strong enough.

Ian is a person with his own choices. There is no need for you to try to solve everything or no need for you to try get the burden of everything on to your own shoulders. Bad things may happen and we learn through mistakes as well.

Edited November 28, 2013 by thyra

[ADHasbro]

Its not the fact of what happened to ian. I could care less. The sick **** should rot in the ground, id kill him if I could. But I can't. Its the fact that I believe I saw the future, and it has something to do with him. Back when I was sixteen, and I see what's coming next if we don't change. And its a scary thing to think that you can actually see the future. . . But all my guts are pointing my in a straight line.

[thyra]

We dont kill people because of their crimes. There are courts for judging their crimes and appropriate punishment is stated by the law.

People can have different talents. A talent is good thing when it serves to the betterment/goodness of people around us.

Edited November 28, 2013 by thyra

[Dark_Grey]

Its the fact that I believe I saw the future, and it has something to do with him.

You drew him because you were listening to them at the time and likely that's what influenced your decision. It's like when a popular song gets stuck in your head and you find yourself whistling/humming it throughout the day; nothing to do with metaphysics.

Back when I was sixteen, and I see what's coming next if we don't change.

I could identify some obvious flaws in our system as well when I was that age.

And its a scary thing to think that you can actually see the future. . .

You're making an educated guess based on what you know about the world around you. No one really knows the future.

But all my guts are pointing my in a straight line.

It's called following your "instincts" or "intuition"

[ADHasbro]

It seems that no one understands.

You're right, I need to take care of the problem in one big sweep.

People don't understand that we are repeating a cycle all over again.

Based off our own human history, this is the cycle.

We make societies, societies make religion, religion makes government, government makes people.

The meaning of life is to break that cycle.

People wonder what the mystery of easter island is.

The more brands that there are, the less resources there are gonna be. If more brands require more resources, the more resources are used the the people actually need. There is only violence because brands get shoved in our faces, and rich people endorse everything. Advertisments everywhere I look.

My point is that this planet belongs to me just as much as it does to any of you. And my life depends on what everyone in the world does, because reguardless of what you believe, this planet is an island in the middle of space. And people killing each other over gods is bad enough, but now people are killing each other over material value, because we let it.

Most stores sell the same damn things, and not surprisingly at different prices. People are ignorant and are only paying for the name. Brands are tearing this world apart a long with religion, with the world governments backing every step of the chaos.

The more fear there is in your heart, the more control able you really are.

I don't represent my city, or my state. I don't even represent my country, and fly my flag anti because the borderline communist practices this country is dooming us too. I claim planet earth, from sea to shining sea, and the human race is embarrassing. Like it or not; whether the colour of you skin is white, black, or any shade in between. or what god you believe in, we are all family by the red blooded god that connects every single one of us to this planet.