I have been really sick. I came down with a severe infection inside of my colon called diverticulitis. It’s actually just about the most intense constant pain I have ever been in. The only other time I have felt this way was after being kicked in the stomach by a professional fighter, but it didn’t last for days. On Friday, when I decided what was happening to me wasn’t benign, I almost waited it out till Monday when my doctors office would be open. It was late Friday afternoon
This entry is going to be a bit long, but there is some good stuff.
A lot of life changes have been going on for me lately. Honestly I haven’t been feeling very well psychologically for a lot of reasons, and I can feel the depression dog after me. We all go through this at different times in our lives I guess. I have counseled and stood by 100s of People as they face these things in their lives, so now I guess it’s my turn. For me however, I suppose it’s because I have always been the lead
I dreamt last night to that someone was calling for help, when I woke up I decided to do the meditations. I exited my body through the vibrations. They are a familiar experience now, and I have control over them. She was a little girl about 9. She was trying to sleep and was being attacked by the sleep paralysis entity. I told her I was there and I would wait for it.
As she fell asleep, it came for her and I fended it off with a particularly vitious attack. I was actually surprised at my o
So I’m just going to put this out there. The Netflix series “OA” looks as if it has been following our stories, conversations and blogs here on UM. Particularly mine. I know I can seem crazy sometimes, but the whole series has way to many points that parallel blogs and events in my life that I have shared here and the odd way that spiritual beings seem to work. Even the images are strikingly similar to things I have described.
If somone hasn’t been using my blogs as source material, it is o
So here we go again. Am I crazy or do I really get missions from beyond like some silly sit com. It didn’t take long for this to start up again after I opened back up.
In fact, this is related to an unfinished “mission”. Somewhere back in my blogs I wrote about how the moms of our local Catholic Church wanted me to get involved in the youth group as a leader. The current guy doing it is sexist and far to fundamentalist for the more moderate families involved with the church. They know me as
My old friend SP payed me a visit yesterday. I was asleep, but I guess I was half in half out and I started to practice some breathing excercises. I don’t think I was doing this in reality. I think I was dreaming about practicing these excercises.
Anyway, without warning a rush of tingles shot up my whole body. Not vibrations, but intense goosebump like tingles. That’s when I whispered “something is here.” My wife heard me whisper it.
At that point I felt a tugging. I sleep by a wind
I nearly got stuck in a canyon today. I hiked into a very remote part of Colorado and down a stream bed draw. I found an old archeological dig, and then I found the alcove that I wanted far out on the precipice. Comeing back I realized I was way over my head. I’m not in the same kind of shape I used to be in. I literally sat in one of the alcoves and felt like it was my turn ( not really I’m being dramatic). I did realize a lot of danger though.
My bad knee wasn’t working right, half my wa
So it’s 4 am. I woke up around three and I was dreaming about a friend. She just had one of her breasts removed due to some pretty aggressive stage three cancer. I’m scheduled to bring a meal to her and her family today.
She has two older children and she just had a little girl last year. She is a leader in our community and frankly an amazing person. I am married of course, and so is she, but we still share a certain kind of bond. It’s more built around respect because we share similar p
Well now. I have often loathed the intense movie dream sagas that my dream life sometimes delivers to me. Story lines that last for weeks with multiple characters with amazing and bizarre plots. Some I have chronicled right here in this blog a number of years ago.
Sometimes I come to hate them because I end up thinking about them all the time. More lifetimes in my head that dont belong there is a frustrating thing to have to deal with. I often feel as if I have seen every human plot every s
Sometimes I think I’m crazy. Other times the circumstances are so uncanny, I cannot deni them. Walking into circumstances that I approach with a conflicting three part mind is an interesting feeling.
On one hand I know what I have seen. I know what I have experienced. I see the real life circumstances and how they connect and, at least in my mind, there is no way they can be anything other than what they seem.
On the other I am well educated and versed in the quirks and gymnastics of
I havnt really been updating this blog. It's been hard to write practically every morning. It seems that I become aware nearly every night now and, I slip out of body and make my way out there. I have been spending less and less time in this realm. For a while, I was shooting through space to visit various solar systems. I was marveling at the different look of different planets and their moons. I have seen binary planets and even one that was hit by something massive and was sort of spinning ou
I just wanted to share something that I ran across that really really resonated with me. It actually shocked me a bit as to its depth.
Well I'm going to make this short. I could sit here all morning writing about all that happened, but I have other things to do.
I have just awoken from one of those fantastically detailed movie dreams that I have. My dream awareness is incredible. These dreams are epic stories.
This one was a bit different because I was not somone else. This time I was actually me.
The theme of the dream was that somehow I had become trapped back in time. It was in middle or dark ages. I was living with a p
( I posted this in the weird dreams thread but thought it would be s good entry here as well)
There was some strange energy very early this morning for me. I was having a nightmare where my 3 year old kept getting away from me. He kept working his way down a steep ravine full of brush that only he could fit in between. There was a river at the bottom. You can imagine I was horrified. He made it to the river but I managed to catch up with him. Releaved we watched some fishermen catch fish and it
Several nights ago I exited my body and in our room was an angel. I know her well actually. She was looking over my three year old. It seems she comes at night while the kids are dreaming and she sort of over seas it. My son was one out aswell he was sitting on the edge of the bed, but his body was still lying down. He was talking with her and playing with her gown. She saw me watching and waved. They interacted for some time and then she left through the wall. My son moved over to my side of th
Thursday night I sliped out of body and out into the air. These days I just let myself be carried into what ever is next. I found myself standing in front of a young girl with black hair. Probably about 12 or 13.
She was talking to me. We had a long conversation but I can't for the life of me remember what it was about, but I do remember that she pointed to the sky toward the horizon. It was very strange what I saw. The sky was on fire but it looked like a paper art show. The flames looked lik
I just have relaxed on recording my visions and dreams. honestly I just get busy. I'll wake up and have an epic to record but there is breakfast, and kids to prepair for school. I own a business and my wife works for a demanding company. So through some strange fate of the universe i have ended up as a stay at home dad and business owner at the same time, which is not a stay at home dad actually it just means I'm really busy during the day and really busy at night . So I keep this blog because
Last night I dreamed that I was out for a night on the town with a friend. He was a thin East Indian guy a little younger than me. It was fun. We visited a few places while he looked for girls. Being married, I was the wing man.
Anyway, I teach martial arts and have been a martial artists for nearly 30 years. I own a martial arts school. The mind of a life long martial artist is full of confidence if not a tad of arrogance . Having been a full contact competitor in kickboxing, MMA, and pancrat
So I had the pleasure of giving some tips to a friend seeking a vision. He had read my recent vision quest and decided to perform one of his own. I do not recommend this sort of questing for everyone. This person is unusually connected with nature and has the a strong independent power. Self reliance exsoetiencr is very important with this sort of activity. I thank him for allowing me to post his story. It makes me very proud have Been able to be apart of his journey. You will see ********* in
Sometimes I am so amazed at the power of the human mind.
I call them movie dreams. But the word dream does not describe the length and detail of them.
Last night's saga was so remarkably long and detailed I feel compelled to share it. Even doing a quick summery is going to be fairly long.
It's started off with me and my family vacationing in New York city. This is rare. For my movie dreams I usually am not me and I even switch characters, but not this time I am myself. We
I was haveing a lot of fun last night. I was lucid in a video game like dream. It was a war game.
Lots of jeep riding and shooting large guns at helicopters. All sorts of stuff. Ocassionally the lucidity would wake me up but I was able to return right to where I left of. The funny thing is that my team would be waiting for me as if it all were on pause. THEY WERE LUCID TO!!!! almost like other players. Even a little irritated that I kept stopping the action. One even tossed me my gun and said
It's been a while since I blogged but I felt complied to share my journeys this weekend. I had finally gotten a chance to get away alone and do a true vision quest. I have been feeling like I need to make some changes and I needed some direction. I scheduled 5 days alone in the wilderness. 1 day for travel 3 days for questing 1 day for rest and travel out. The first day was sort of fun. I got there early and created my rock circle. I will not get into the specifics of this type of vision qu
I have spent some time preparing for my trip to yellow stone next week. I have been planning a vision quest above the caldera of the earth for quite some stime and now I have the opportunity to do it. My back coundry permits have bed approved my bags are pack and I'm just wlittling out the details of my return home. It should be pretty interesting. I plan on entering an altered state of consciousness and attempting to maintain it for three days. It's not just to do it. I have been feeling like
My one dream was peaceful last night. Such a contrast to the epics I'm used to. I was fishing with someone ( don't know who). Then we ran out of bait. I threw on a mask and started swimming around. I soon learned I could swim very fast and chase minnows onto the bank. I collected them for bait. Then I ended up exploring this beautiful landscape around me. I found plants that I didn't know about but strangely I knew what they were for. It was peaceful. I woke up rested. Then I got things done in
I only had one dream last night so my continued intention to give up remembering all my dreams except for the important ones seems to be working.
Last night I found myself in a car traveling to Southern California. A beautiful angelic woman was driving and all that I got from her was that there was somone that she wanted me to talk to. I was not totally lucid yet. But for some reason it was all perfectly natural.
When we got to where we were going, it was like a large skilled nursing facility