Strange encounter with sp last night. Funny how the mind works. It seems since I have given up fear for myself the old lizard brain has switch to my fear for others.
It started off as a dream. My wife and I were watching out for this little Indian boy. For some reason I was turning into something evil. I told her to take the boy and run. She left but we struggled at the door because she would not take him and we both were insistent.
I don't know what happened next but I'm in bed. And I am tu
What a night!!!!!
I was up a little late watching some television, some science program on fusion. My wife is running the CIM today, so I knew I had to be up early to drive her there, so i decided not to sleep in my bed because the baby kicks me all night, and I wouldn't sleep.
I have been feeling a little off kilter lately. Not sure why? I'm having problems getting back into the kind of shape I was before the knee injury and my motivation has been sapped. I have to be at the elementary schoo
Last night, I took a little journey.
Initiated vibrations about 11 pm. It was interesting because my control over the different states is becoming very precise. I was able to bring myself down and back up again consciously through different levels of conciousness. There are the vibratory stages. Different places along that corolate to different intensities along with the white noises. I have also noticed that other noises change aswell slowing down and changing pitch. My baby is sick right now
So lately I have had many many people contacting me about their altered state experiences. A ton of them are people that came to me in years passed and I taught them to overcome their fears and to take back control of their altered states. Some are successful some are not. The ones that are not successful are reaching a new ferver in their altered states. One young man is starting to see glowing symbols in his walls, but the shadow people are gone. It's happening at such a high rate all over th
Last night me and the boys were playing downstairs and they fell asleep on the sofa. I fell asleep on the floor right in front of them.
Quit suddenly I woke up to this loud cackling noise. A quick look and there are all these stero typical looking witches surrounding us cackling. I leap to my feet, now realizing I'm either dreaming or OOB. They have no eyes.
I raise my hands and flood the room with white light dispersing them. Then I walk around the house a bit floodeding every corner of the
Vision log
August 13th 2011
Short journey this morning. I initiated vibration. It took a While, but eventually fairly strong vibrations kicked in along with the rushing noises.
Upon exit, i considered a reality check but didn't, I knew I was out.
For some reason I could feel that I did not have a lot of time. I started going around the house checking everyone.
1st it was my five year old. I reach in and let my hand merge with his body. I let my awareness spread in him. I could feel and u
Last night I dreamed that I was out for a night on the town with a friend. He was a thin East Indian guy a little younger than me. It was fun. We visited a few places while he looked for girls. Being married, I was the wing man.
Anyway, I teach martial arts and have been a martial artists for nearly 30 years. I own a martial arts school. The mind of a life long martial artist is full of confidence if not a tad of arrogance . Having been a full contact competitor in kickboxing, MMA, and pancrat
Thanks giving was yesterday. For some strange reason I got really tired early in the day. I went upstairs to take a nap. I woke up. And there was a red bump on my left hand and some on my Rib's that were itchy. I recognized a histamine reaction. I thought Maybe something bit me, so I took an anti histamine. But It wiped me out during all the company. My in laws were left, then they noticed this pattern that developed on my right arm. Hives had taken over my right arm and formed these fractal lik
Well I have to say this is not for the feint of heart. I have not written in my journal yet.... I'm stil digesting what I just did.
Long story short in some meditations this night, morning whatever it is, In my persuit of duel concousness and the little bit of recent encouragement. I ran across something that no one should attempt unless you are fully prepared to face your animal self. I have been at at this for a while and I am still not totally sure if it was for better or worse.
I manage
Last night I awoke with vibrations coursing through my body. I open my eyes but closed them again because I knew Somone was there. I completed the transition to an altered state of consciousness. There she was standing at the foot of my bed, a woman in her latr 40s. I sat up ( obe) and asked what she wanted.
She said that something was wrong with her stomach and she thought that I could help.
I moved to her and said "let me see". I put my hands into her abdomen. I could tell that her inside
A few nights ago me and Ms. Old hag of sleep paralysis did a round of a little altered state cage fighting on my wall..... Yup I said it on my wall.
It started with me sitting up recognizing something was odd. Then I quickly realized I was OOB. Yet something was pulling me off the bed. I have been through this before, so I simply was amused at what ever had grabbed my leg and was pulling on me. I looked but I couldn't see anything. I looked around the room but nothing. As I sat up on the edge
Vision log
Feb 20th 2011
Initiated vibrations this morning. Upon exit I could tell something was off. Not quite sure, but my mind was not as focused as it should be. It had been a rough day before and my mind was still clouded with some earlyer stress. I could tell that it was going to be short. I decided to take the time for experementation. I started to fly up to my bed room to float through the ceiling into the upstairs...... I couldn't. I tried twice and I would get halfway through then bo
After getting the kids off to school and my little one to day care, spent an hour in sitting meditations this morning, then an hour in prone OBE style relaxation.
The first hour was simple empty mind meditations clearing myself. The second hour was highly productive OBE training.
It did not take long for me to reach vibrations and exits. I spent some time messing with arms and slightly opening my eyes while altered. I could feel myself wave my astral hands in front of my face yet not see the
Well I'm going to make this short. I could sit here all morning writing about all that happened, but I have other things to do.
I have just awoken from one of those fantastically detailed movie dreams that I have. My dream awareness is incredible. These dreams are epic stories.
This one was a bit different because I was not somone else. This time I was actually me.
The theme of the dream was that somehow I had become trapped back in time. It was in middle or dark ages. I was living with a p
Well. I must say. When things like this happen I am hesitant to share it. Mostly because it sounds rediculously fake. If I herd it I would be skeptical, but my life is quite a bit diffrent than others. Lots of increadible things happen to me. I feel obligated to report it dimply because it's the truth.
Some of the details are starting to fade, because it's morning now and I made the mistake if not journaling imeadiatly.
After wakeing up about 2 am spontaneously, I initiated vibrations and ex
Dreams
Another cool dream. I was feeling little tired this afternoon, so I took nap upstairs. The dream started of with me being some sort bartender in what seemed like an old French tavern or saloon. At one point I saw myself in the mirror. I had long hair with a long trimmed mustache with brown hair.
Quit suddenly a group of men came into the bar with swords drawn. The whole theme was sort of a Three musketeers scenario. I immediately started go calculate my odds against the men. I had som
This is precisely why I came to um forums and started blogging. I love watching people defeat and grow passed those nightmares into a new reality. These letters make my month everytime.
From a friend here on um.
"Hey Seeker,
It's been so long since we've communicated, thats becasue my fear of sleep paralysis held me back from trying astral projection, until now!
I've been reading your blog over the past couple of weeks, I love reading it and hearing about your adventures.. It's sparked faci
Both me and my two year old are now sick. It hit me halfway through classes. By the time I was done I was experiencing chills, fever, and aches. I kinda felt it yesterday but I was working in my garden pretty hard so I thought I was just tired and dehydrated.. It's going to be one of those wrap up and sweat it out nights.
My premonitions tell me ahead of time that something has been brought home, but I really have no tools yet to prepare. I could stock up on antivirals and take them when I see
This is sort of a morbid subject, but its in my head this morning, maybe its because its hallowen morning, so I want to get it out.
When I was young, about 13 or 14 years old, this friend of mine showed me this tape called "faces of death". It was really a horrific program. I would shut it off and refuse to participate now, but then I just watched it in morbid curiosity.
The tape depicted various deaths or horrific scenes. One guy missed his parachute sunt into a pit of hungry alagators, var
So I had the pleasure of giving some tips to a friend seeking a vision. He had read my recent vision quest and decided to perform one of his own. I do not recommend this sort of questing for everyone. This person is unusually connected with nature and has the a strong independent power. Self reliance exsoetiencr is very important with this sort of activity. I thank him for allowing me to post his story. It makes me very proud have Been able to be apart of his journey. You will see ********* in
The Entities
I have been really sick. I came down with a severe infection inside of my colon called diverticulitis. It’s actually just about the most intense constant pain I have ever been in. The only other time I have felt this way was after being kicked in the stomach by a professional fighter, but it didn’t last for days. On Friday, when I decided what was happening to me wasn’t benign, I almost waited it out till Monday when my doctors office would be open. It was late Friday afternoon
I just wanted to share something that I ran across that really really resonated with me. It actually shocked me a bit as to its depth.
http://fractalenlightenment.com/32950/issues/six-signs-you-may-be-a-disaster-shaman
Vision log
June 19 2011
Well. Traveling has been dry for several weeks. A few interesting dreams. This is what happens some times before I Step off the deep end.
I am traveling to the wilderness next week as I always do this time of year. I will be vision questing, so I was thinking the of contact with spirit guides was because I will be in an altered state for nearly three days. At the moment because of anticipation I have no real desire for at home altered states.
The incredible synchro
