Yeaterday was a strange day. It started off normal enough. I was busy with my garden and putting finishing touches on the rabbit hutch I built for our new giant Flemish rabbits. It felt good to work in the sun. I have been under some stress lately, and it has been affecting me.
We took the kids to the Easter vigil. My wife is catholic. It was nice. I am not catholic he congregating with people in reverence still apeals to me even if I am unable to share all of their beliefs. The Christ story is
Wow. In sitting on the sofa blogging this minutes after.
This morning I have been unusually sleepy. There was no reason for it. Just sleepyness. I slept fine, but I felt like I needed way more sleep. I took care of the kids and they were plaing. Finally my mother was up and I asked her if she could watch the baby for a while. for some reason I needed to rest.
Laying on the coach my six year old and 5 year old kept comeing over to me and being unusually affectionate kissing, hugging, scratchi
I rolled out this morning. My bed is by a window, so I thought it would be fun just to keep rolling completely through the window. I did, and let myself fall two stories and land perfectly on my feet. It was fun and made me feel very ninja like. I walked around my house to admire the incredible feelings of Being oob. My awareness is so much different than it used to be. I can see the sparkling energy in the trees, I can sense the life and spirits of the plants, even the energy of the sun has a c
Well I have to say this is not for the feint of heart. I have not written in my journal yet.... I'm stil digesting what I just did.
Long story short in some meditations this night, morning whatever it is, In my persuit of duel concousness and the little bit of recent encouragement. I ran across something that no one should attempt unless you are fully prepared to face your animal self. I have been at at this for a while and I am still not totally sure if it was for better or worse.
Last night, I took a little journey.
Initiated vibrations about 11 pm. It was interesting because my control over the different states is becoming very precise. I was able to bring myself down and back up again consciously through different levels of conciousness. There are the vibratory stages. Different places along that corolate to different intensities along with the white noises. I have also noticed that other noises change aswell slowing down and changing pitch. My baby is sick right now
So lately I have had many many people contacting me about their altered state experiences. A ton of them are people that came to me in years passed and I taught them to overcome their fears and to take back control of their altered states. Some are successful some are not. The ones that are not successful are reaching a new ferver in their altered states. One young man is starting to see glowing symbols in his walls, but the shadow people are gone. It's happening at such a high rate all over th
Strange encounter with sp last night. Funny how the mind works. It seems since I have given up fear for myself the old lizard brain has switch to my fear for others.
It started off as a dream. My wife and I were watching out for this little Indian boy. For some reason I was turning into something evil. I told her to take the boy and run. She left but we struggled at the door because she would not take him and we both were insistent.
I don't know what happened next but I'm in bed. And I am tu
This morning I was up early. I cooked my wife steak and eggs before she went to work and then went back to bed. The baby was laying on my arm so after vibrations I projected straight up I felt my astral body disintegrate. I really did not want to loose the depth I had obtained by stopping to move the baby so I did it one more time. This time I lt the energy of the vibrations course up and down my body. It is wonderful. Sort of like thousands of little organisms all over your body. I brought myse
Amoung they myrid of dreams i can remember now, i thought this one was the most interesting. It started off with my son and I seeing this distant swirling cloud formation. There were tiny funnel clouds comeing out of the formation. My son has a an interest in tornados and they have ways made interesting appearances in my dreams. The cloud formation itself was solid and vortex like.
As it got closer, I got somewhat worried and brought my son indoors. Once the storm reached the apartment buildin
I took a journey yesterday morning. I felt like something was calling me and I needed to go see what it was. I laid back and it did not take long to alter my consciousness. I exited my body by just by sitting up. Curious thing. My covers were sort of blocking me, but I just willed them to fall away and they did.
I got up and walked downstairs. My oldest and my little one were watching television. I thought about interacting with them, but experiences in the past tell me that it only scares or
Early this morning roughly 3 am. I heard a large shattering noise. Like class but a computerized quality and echo. It awoke my mind. I reach over to wake my wife thinking the noise might have been real. As I reached I knew something was off. It wasn't my real hand. My real arm and hand was wrapped around my midsection.
Hmmmm sleep paralysis, and a false awakening I thought. Then my mind turned back to the shattering and I started to get worried it was real and there is an intruder. At this poi
Well it turns out my breast problem is probably the result of some sort of hormonal imbalance. It's not cancerous. Shewwwww!!!! I think I overreacted a bit, but it is still a weight of my shoulders. I can go back to thinking forward.
The strange thing is that is that I had he toughest time convincing the specialist that I was not taking some sort of work out steroid. These types of Imbalances in men my age, 33, are usually a result of hormones for body building. I have NEVER taken anything lik
In light of yesterday's dreams, I dug deep inside of myself last night before going to bed to give mysf a powerful intention not to dream anymore or at least to not remember all of them. About ten years ago I had a very disturbing dream and had decided not to dream anymore. It worked. I did not dream for a whole year until I relaxed the command and intention I gave myself. I was reminded of this in yesterday's dreams.
I did, however, create an exception. I want to remember important dreams.
Just woke up from a strange dream. Basically the dream was about Somone instructing me on how to face this very powerful entity. It was her ( I think). A spirit guide.
She was walking me through the steps of how the encounter would take place and what exactly I should do. She warned that the entity was something of a puppet master. Not in an evil way, just by its nature. Infact there wasn't even a lot of intelligence to it more animal like. This would be to my advantage and allow me to avoid i
Thursday night I sliped out of body and out into the air. These days I just let myself be carried into what ever is next. I found myself standing in front of a young girl with black hair. Probably about 12 or 13.
She was talking to me. We had a long conversation but I can't for the life of me remember what it was about, but I do remember that she pointed to the sky toward the horizon. It was very strange what I saw. The sky was on fire but it looked like a paper art show. The flames looked lik
Couldn't sleep last night, there were to many things on my mind. Finally I just gave up and Decided to journey. It was very quick vibrations only took moments to create. Then I sat up oob. I never cease to be amazed at the feeling of separating from my body. Standing there looking at my bed with, myself, my wife, and my baby in it, it occurred to me ( because of some conversations on UM) that I could probably use this very same methodology to put myself to sleep. It would just be a matter of le
It's been a while since I blogged but I felt complied to share my journeys this weekend. I had finally gotten a chance to get away alone and do a true vision quest. I have been feeling like I need to make some changes and I needed some direction. I scheduled 5 days alone in the wilderness. 1 day for travel 3 days for questing 1 day for rest and travel out. The first day was sort of fun. I got there early and created my rock circle. I will not get into the specifics of this type of vision qu
Back from my trip. I was busy guiding and teaching the young guys that went with me. I made one attempt at the journey, but it was pointless. There were to many things to attend to to get my mind in the right place.
We were in the Carson Ice burg wilderness in CA. I was teaching aboriginal skills and survival techniques. It is a majestic place with wonderful mountains and canyons. The only thing I really learned is how out of shape I have fallen in the last few years. My upper body strength fo
So this morning I woke up and was pokeing around the Internet with my phone as usual reading something, when I quite suddenly slipped into a micro doze, but at the same time I herd my named called. In a whisper. Not uncommon for a hypnagogic ocurance. But I new who it was. The boys had climbed into bed so I was not going to journey with them there. They might kick me or something and I'd end up launching through some strange dimension
I grabbed my pillow and laid on the floor. It did no take l
Well, I have been pretty busiy with other things lately.
phone got stolen, chased the guy using fone locator app for several miles through south lake tahoe.
found another metorite ( sold the small one for $1,400) it was just a pebble....sheeshhh
helping people on um and other places with their altered state issues
got a nasty stoamch flue yesterday
arguing with materialsts on um.....still...brings out the worst in me im afraid. Escpecially t
I decided to disappear to the coast to ground myself and try and discover why have been feeling so angsty like something is not right with me. The first thing I did when I got there was forage for a meal I decided not to bring any food, I just wanted what I could find. I found a patch of young milk thistles, some plantain, and a bit of very young yellow dock. It was slim pickings. The drought has made very little wild plants available. After I had my vegetables, I went to forage some barnacles.
Well this entry and experience is a bit long and mixes in with dreams.
Set up. I have had trouble sleeping the past few nights. The baby wakes up or my four year old plows into me at 4am. I decide going to dose myself on natural herbal sedatives. So I don't end up being up until 3 am. I make a strong tea out of wild lettuce leaves ( opium lettuce), California poppy, and an herb from thailand called Kratom.
The tea is an instand success. I feel the wave of relaxation hit
Last night I dreamed that I was out for a night on the town with a friend. He was a thin East Indian guy a little younger than me. It was fun. We visited a few places while he looked for girls. Being married, I was the wing man.
Anyway, I teach martial arts and have been a martial artists for nearly 30 years. I own a martial arts school. The mind of a life long martial artist is full of confidence if not a tad of arrogance . Having been a full contact competitor in kickboxing, MMA, and pancrat
I dreamt last nigh of the garden goddes. The female entity that taught me that night I had become a bear. I can't call it a projection since I was sleeping but I was lucid from the start.
I woke up in a pristine fieild of tall grass outside the walls of a massive gleaming white city maby a half mile away. I sat up and and wondered what in the heck for a couple of seconds, then realized I was dreaming almost instantly. looking around i took in all the smells and and sights just to enjoy this inc