So sometimes I don't blog everything that happens to me other times I regret having blogged something. But I'm often reminded that this blog is also for me...a form of therapy to release and at least tell somebody. So here it goes.
I have been in a funk. For the last 8 years I have been taking care of my children and trying to run my business at the same time. I am the child care primarily because i have refused to let my kids be raised by child care. I thought it would get easier with the kid
Last night I awoke with vibrations coursing through my body. I open my eyes but closed them again because I knew Somone was there. I completed the transition to an altered state of consciousness. There she was standing at the foot of my bed, a woman in her latr 40s. I sat up ( obe) and asked what she wanted.
She said that something was wrong with her stomach and she thought that I could help.
I moved to her and said "let me see". I put my hands into her abdomen. I could tell that her inside
I just got back from the coffee shop getting some tea. I needed something to sooth my throat and I was out dropping my kids off at school. I got my toddler some chocolate milk. I left it on the hood of the car. We fed the chickens then came in side. Soon enough he realized he did not have his treat and wanted to go get it. I got my aching body up again with a groan and went outside at his lead and I gave it to him. We walked back towords the house and he stops suddenly, looks to his left and das
Both me and my two year old are now sick. It hit me halfway through classes. By the time I was done I was experiencing chills, fever, and aches. I kinda felt it yesterday but I was working in my garden pretty hard so I thought I was just tired and dehydrated.. It's going to be one of those wrap up and sweat it out nights.
My premonitions tell me ahead of time that something has been brought home, but I really have no tools yet to prepare. I could stock up on antivirals and take them when I see
There back!! It's that time of year again. It doesn't matter how many time I see them, they always bug me.
I want on an OOB rampage trying to blast them all with white light. But I'm not sure it does any good. I'll make trip to Costco and store up on children's Advil and tylonal. Typically fevers start in the house within a week of seeing them. Uggggg I hate when the kids are sick.
I slipped out of body this morning as the sun was rising. I went outside to witness it. I walked straight through the door and onto my front porch. I timed it about right. I had to wait a couple of moments before the sun started she itself. The light was incredible, I felt warm beams shoot through trees to make my skin tingle. I can't explain it but the trees and plants sort of came alive. It was not a visual experience but I could still feel them celebrating in the light. It was almost if they
I projected from my hammock tent on Sunday. I took a hike into some wetlands and did some reading and resting in my hammock tent. I meditated into projection and encountered a teaching spirit I have not seen in a while. The blue shaman. She is sort of stocky but still beautiful woman with dark hair and Asian features but she is totally blue. She has tribal piercing a and tattoos. I have always wondered where she came from.. Maybe another time. Something like the mang version of the women on the
I had a lengthy discussion with a spirit this morning. Mostly about me I'm afraid. I was made aware of some severe short commings and congratulated for some strengths. I was reading Carl Jung before I stopped for a while to meditate, so after a several hours of this intense focus on me and my obligations to my family and my environment, I asked her a more broad question about humanity. Just as I was fadeing back to normal reality she whispered " Never. When you stop arguing is when you start kil
I have been on a vegan diet since Saturday. I just drank a large glass of coconut water, then bamb, 5 minutes latter I'm experienceing this high like an opiat. I am shocked.
We are so addicted to sugars, I am amazed at how I feel just from changing my diet. Honestly I think I have been eating so much sugars all my life, I have never had a sugar high. Amazing
Early this morning roughly 3 am. I heard a large shattering noise. Like class but a computerized quality and echo. It awoke my mind. I reach over to wake my wife thinking the noise might have been real. As I reached I knew something was off. It wasn't my real hand. My real arm and hand was wrapped around my midsection.
Hmmmm sleep paralysis, and a false awakening I thought. Then my mind turned back to the shattering and I started to get worried it was real and there is an intruder. At this poi
It has all started again. Is early in the morning and energy is pulsing through my body. All things are connecting and converging all of a sudden. It started recently during an OBE when I just sat in the waters of my ocean. I have come to believe that the ocean in these visions represents the great spirit of God. I surrendered to the great spirit and I sat in the ocean and the only explanation is that it surrendered right back. I sat in the water and I cried. I cried at the beauty of it. Intense
I thought I posted this a long time ago, but I can't find it . So this might be a double up. I made this one night with my splice app. It's sort of cheesy, and accompanied by my usual errors and typos. Pass it on to any one who can benefit from it.
I must finally be going crazy. i fall asleep on the floor after coming home from watching fireworks. I dream of the boy. An very wise spirit guide that is associate with the mountains. He tells me "it's time to let loose your medicine " then he sort of chants a rhyme in his typical riddle like persona. I remember it clearly. "The shrine of the mind is to shine... Undeception for those on the balance of perception." He then touches my forhead. I have a vision of things I am to write. All the p
Early images during meditations today. A dual plane of energy stretching out to infinity. I found myself in between the planes. The planes had indescribable shifting colors. The colors reminded me of fiber optic plastics. I projected afterward but there was a thickness. For some reason I was unable to leave my house. It felt like a magnetic repulsion. I walked downstairs, the kids were playing but they couldn't see me. My two year old seemed to be aware of something. There was a beautiful smili
What the **** just happened?
I'm Laying here moments after a very disturbing event. I'm still trying to wrap my mind around it. I'm in tears actually at this moment. I know there is a few people that believe me about the **** that happens to me, but this is one of those instances that takes the cake.
I woke up laying in bed. Some sort of noise woke me up, not one of the normal noises of my house. My niece, mother, and two boys all make certain kinds of sounds. It was none of them. I removed m
Last night I took my mother to the emergency room. She has been getting weeker and sicker with each passing month. last year I was visited by my father, and he told me she was on her way, and now I have been observing this death process for the second time. I was 19 the first time and it was very difficult.
Strangley or mabey not so strange I
am unphased by death or the prospect of it. Even the prospect of loosing a loved one does not pack the same punch. It makes me feel guilty, that I am a
Couldn't sleep last night, there were to many things on my mind. Finally I just gave up and Decided to journey. It was very quick vibrations only took moments to create. Then I sat up oob. I never cease to be amazed at the feeling of separating from my body. Standing there looking at my bed with, myself, my wife, and my baby in it, it occurred to me ( because of some conversations on UM) that I could probably use this very same methodology to put myself to sleep. It would just be a matter of le
So it was early this morning around 5 am. My oldest fell asleep on the sopha so I was lazy and did not want to carry is big butt up stairs. I woke up about five and had th sensation that was being called out. I briefly heard drums in the hypnagogic places upon waking this is not uncommon for me. After getting a glass of water I returned to the Sopha and meditated to vibrations and exit. I exited by rolling. It was theasiest for the position I was in. I was on the floor after the roll out and I w
As I sit here in my truck getting ready to find a place to have lunch, I have been haveing a conversation with this wonderful young person that has come to me on several occasions. This person in a bout of despair surrendered everything including fear, and asking for a sign entered an altered state and had a first experience. The sound of crossing the vail is the most intense noise I have ever heard in my life. It is so loud and powerful it dwarfs even your thoughts. I first heard it when I to
I narrowly missed a devistating car accident thursday night. I was comeing home at about nine pm. When at an intersection when the light turned green. a police officer turned on his lights behind me. Probably because of my damaged tail light and the fact that there are a few bars along my way home. I paused when i saw them, and then scanned where to pull over. At the am time i would have been in the intersection a huge white built up f150 blows the red light at a very high speed. The polic
Another cool dream. I was feeling little tired this afternoon, so I took nap upstairs. The dream started of with me being some sort bartender in what seemed like an old French tavern or saloon. At one point I saw myself in the mirror. I had long hair with a long trimmed mustache with brown hair.
Quit suddenly a group of men came into the bar with swords drawn. The whole theme was sort of a Three musketeers scenario. I immediately started go calculate my odds against the men. I had som
Last night me and the boys were playing downstairs and they fell asleep on the sofa. I fell asleep on the floor right in front of them.
Quit suddenly I woke up to this loud cackling noise. A quick look and there are all these stero typical looking witches surrounding us cackling. I leap to my feet, now realizing I'm either dreaming or OOB. They have no eyes.
I raise my hands and flood the room with white light dispersing them. Then I walk around the house a bit floodeding every corner of the
Another Grand Epic
Its 2 am. Having just woken up from another grand epic of a dream, I feel the need to write this on my laptop do get it out. If I go back to sleep some of these details wills be lost forever. That would be such a shame.
I just woke up from a grand scenario. It was a simple setting. A fairly remote museum like facility. It was gloomy with intermittent rain. The viewing area was fairly small but the surrounding grounds to support the viewing area fairy large. Here is the deal.
I have had a few recently, but this one was awesome. It was a cross between just about every Alian movie I have ever seen. As usual im switching characters throught the dream as events unfold.
In short it's about a highly evolved biological Weapon called a philandacle. It has escaped and is turned loose into the country side. It is overly efficient and intelligent killer and that is the only it knows to do. Constant killing. It was a bit of nightmare to begin with. The darkest possible imagery.