Well I have to say this is not for the feint of heart. I have not written in my journal yet.... I'm stil digesting what I just did.
Long story short in some meditations this night, morning whatever it is, In my persuit of duel concousness and the little bit of recent encouragement. I ran across something that no one should attempt unless you are fully prepared to face your animal self. I have been at at this for a while and I am still not totally sure if it was for better or worse.
Back from my trip. I was busy guiding and teaching the young guys that went with me. I made one attempt at the journey, but it was pointless. There were to many things to attend to to get my mind in the right place.
We were in the Carson Ice burg wilderness in CA. I was teaching aboriginal skills and survival techniques. It is a majestic place with wonderful mountains and canyons. The only thing I really learned is how out of shape I have fallen in the last few years. My upper body strength fo
Well it turns out my breast problem is probably the result of some sort of hormonal imbalance. It's not cancerous. Shewwwww!!!! I think I overreacted a bit, but it is still a weight of my shoulders. I can go back to thinking forward.
The strange thing is that is that I had he toughest time convincing the specialist that I was not taking some sort of work out steroid. These types of Imbalances in men my age, 33, are usually a result of hormones for body building. I have NEVER taken anything lik
Children are so incredible. In traditional societies children like this were identified early as shaman, and were accepted and given a framework to live happily within their tribe. Unfortunately we have repressed these parts of our existence and kids like this often grow up with many problems.
This youngster is so lucky to have a dad that's actually looks for information and makes an effort to understand. Awesome
A message he sent to me. I am do thrilled to see this happening.
"So I think my
I'm sitting here on the coach trying to shake this mood I have put myself into.
Yesterday I went to the doctor. My left breast has been sore and it wasn't going away. Turns out I have some sort of cyst. Funny thing is that the cyst dosnt hurt but the areas behind it does. This is a symptom of and advanced stage of male breast cancer. A rare condition. Tuesday I have an appointment with a specialist.
Nothing is sure yet, but I find myself deeply disturbed by it anyway. I don't mind a fight wit
I used the float out exit technique this morning. It is a very profound swnsation. It seems like you float of your bed while wide awake... very cool .Did some flying, went downstairs to see my niece getting ready for work ( she lives with us). Nothing crazy. ( well besides the whole flying around business )
A couple of things to report. I think there is something wrong with my root chakra. ( I know this is funny but) I felt as if Somone was holding onto my crotch area a hard pressure in the
Me and the kids fell asleep on the sofa again. We are having problems keeping the upstairs cool, so it's much cooler downstairs for sleeping. Of course I never sleep well when the kids are by me.
It must have been about 3 am. I woke up. Got some water. Then I decided to take the journey. It was nearly instant. I don't think I have ever fallen into trance so fast. I felt the necessary shift in conciousness then I got up ( I just get up these days as a exit technique). Of course I felt I may have
Wow. In sitting on the sofa blogging this minutes after.
This morning I have been unusually sleepy. There was no reason for it. Just sleepyness. I slept fine, but I felt like I needed way more sleep. I took care of the kids and they were plaing. Finally my mother was up and I asked her if she could watch the baby for a while. for some reason I needed to rest.
Laying on the coach my six year old and 5 year old kept comeing over to me and being unusually affectionate kissing, hugging, scratchi
June 26th 2011
Wow!!!!!!!!!!!!! I spent nearly the entire nite lucid and in spirit learning the most incredible things.
This entry is going to be long. There is so much to record.
After the amazing weekend in the desert, on Saturday I help an older man after he crashed his bike. We were taking pictures by a bike trail and an old guy crashed his bike. I ran over and administered first responders first aid and assessment. The poor guy injured himself pretty bad . Skinned
Another victory over fear, sleep paralysis, and shadow.
Again I am so elated when this finally happens for people. All I can do is thank the great spirit.
Sent to me from a friend here on um.
I know I have a different username now but for some reason UM are saying my account doesn't work anymore.. Besides, the pic in my new profile looks a bit more like me..
So.... I could'nt wait to tell you this... You'll be so proud!!
I got out for the first time this morning. Massive smil
Strange encounter with sp last night. Funny how the mind works. It seems since I have given up fear for myself the old lizard brain has switch to my fear for others.
It started off as a dream. My wife and I were watching out for this little Indian boy. For some reason I was turning into something evil. I told her to take the boy and run. She left but we struggled at the door because she would not take him and we both were insistent.
I don't know what happened next but I'm in bed. And I am tu
Just a short entry. I was sleeping on my sofa. It got to hot in our room. My 4 year old came down and was sleeping with me. I woke up. Decided to take a little trip. Meditated. No vibrations again hmmmmmmmmm I'm to used to them I think. I did know that I was altered i exited anyway. I sat up. I was not sure if i had exited my body or not. But my four year old got up with me. I was convinced I was not out because he got up and said "what are we going to do now daddy?" "nothing buba" I said.
Well, I have been pretty busiy with other things lately.
phone got stolen, chased the guy using fone locator app for several miles through south lake tahoe.
found another metorite ( sold the small one for $1,400) it was just a pebble....sheeshhh
helping people on um and other places with their altered state issues
got a nasty stoamch flue yesterday
arguing with materialsts on um.....still...brings out the worst in me im afraid. Escpecially t
So, I never got a chance to turn that dragon dream, and I have had another dream that I'm not sure quite what to make of. It was quick. I don't recall the whole dream but at one point I am walking into a room. There are two are two unidentified females there. Instantly for no reason at all one of them turns to me. Her eyes are missing. She then moves inhumanly fast ( like you see on horror movies) toword me, I barely have a chance to react. Of course I wake up in that animal snarl that Iet out O
Well. I must say. When things like this happen I am hesitant to share it. Mostly because it sounds rediculously fake. If I herd it I would be skeptical, but my life is quite a bit diffrent than others. Lots of increadible things happen to me. I feel obligated to report it dimply because it's the truth.
Some of the details are starting to fade, because it's morning now and I made the mistake if not journaling imeadiatly.
After wakeing up about 2 am spontaneously, I initiated vibrations and ex
So the details are fading because yet again, I did not want to journal it a three in he morning. I'm going so summerize as briefly as I can, but it was a very detailed dream encompassing several days.
The jist of it was I was snow camping with a group of people. We hiked into the sierras. The landscapes were beautiful and hike laborious. At some point I had to bring several people back early. Then to back to the group by myself. Once I started back into the mountains the group was comeing out.
Last night I initiated vibrations Ito exit. I felt a little off. Like I wasn't fully in control. I paused beside my bed and focused my attention on vibrations. They flared a bit and it semes o help. I took a moment to look at my boys. They were in bed with me. My wife was home and my baby has had some ear infections so he has to sleep upright for better drainage, so she was sleeping with him down stairs so she could do that.
I was looking for any of those virus spirits. None.
Call me proud, but I love letters like these. There is no guilt in getting pleasure for somones gratitude, and there is no shame in giving it. I am so greatful for these letters because I know all those nights of terror all my life were setting me up to be in position to guide peope out of them.
I absolutely love the virtues of love, gratitude, and loyalty. When I see them in people I want to screamn at them.... YES!!!! YOU ARE A CREDIT TO YOUR RACE!!!!!
Imagine if everyone occupy a place of g
Yeah so, I was up late watching a documentary about Australia. After it was done, I started to drift off.
I decided to hold my awareness, I have not been OBE in a while, and thought I might do some flying. Vibrations kicked up and then I changed my mind. I thought ehhhh I just want to sleep.
About that time something started tugging on my pajama pants. Sort of to the side. This might startle a lot of people, but for me all things strange are just common I guess and I have kids tugging on me a
Back from my trip.
Well, I must say it was nothing at all like I planned. But still awesome and profound.
First off, I did not go snow shoeing. As I was getting my gear together, my six and four year olds kept asking where I was going, and why I wasn't taking them. I kept telling them that daddy goes off on his own sometimes, but they still kept asking what I was doing, what this piece if gear was for, "when I m grown up I can use this" ( speaking about different pieces of gear). They were un
So as I prepare to leave for a solo hike/snow shoe trip through the Sierra Nevada mountains for a vision quest, I wanted to blog this occurrence and deep revelation that happened to me a few days ago during a rainstorm.
I was comeing back from helping a friend move and very powerful rainstorm swept through my area. It was about 4pm and half the sky was clear and sunny while he other half had huge majestic clouds.
As im driving a massively complete rainbow forms in the east. It is a double ra
I can't explains or fathom the depth of the movie dream I just had, and I have only been asleep for three hours! I cannot beleive it. I'm typing this up now because there so much. Im actually in tears right now it was so incredible. The incredible part about is that I actualy lived months and months in a matter of a few hours. I cannot believe my mind is capable of this. Ill try to explaine in summery, but there is no possible way I can write it all down. It would be like a whole season
Yesterday I fell asleep on the couch for a few hours. When I woke up it was just a little bit before bed time. I felt like I was going to end up staying up late because I had just slept, and I really did not want to. I needed something o put me back to sleep I went outside said a prayer of thanks and asked fir the plants life and grabbed a wild lettuce plant, and over to the Hill by my driveway and grabbed a California poppy ( whole plant). I put them in a blender with water a grinded them to a
I woke up early this morning. To early. It was still dark. There were waves of chills pulsing through me. This only happens when there is a visitor. It's like normal chills, but they are very intense And they pulse through me from head to toe in waves.
I closed my eyes to initiate vibrations. They came very fast and were unusually strong. I exited just by getting up. I did not need a reality check, I knew i was out. I start a process of clearing my house. I was checking everywhere to see if an