This is precisely why I came to um forums and started blogging. I love watching people defeat and grow passed those nightmares into a new reality. These letters make my month everytime.
From a friend here on um.
It's been so long since we've communicated, thats becasue my fear of sleep paralysis held me back from trying astral projection, until now!
I've been reading your blog over the past couple of weeks, I love reading it and hearing about your adventures.. It's sparked faci
I had a dream last night that I was fishing with my father ( deceased) on a beech at the ocean. It was a very pleasant dream. We were catching fish and talking. Then out in the waves I could a small in inflatable raft with someone pattling in it towards shore. The raft was glowing. I understood it to be my mother coming in from a day out. My father points at the raft and says "see.. shes comeing"... I looked out at the raft recognizing that she was still far out and it would be a whil
Last night I was up late contemplating to many things. My next move in business, some problems with a friend of mine, and some other personal issues.
It was close 4 am and I felt that my mind was in the right place for a journey.
I laid back fairly exhausted from just thinking. I felt myself slip into the in between Meditative states and I could hear a girl speaking. She was a little girl and I did not know her language. I faded in and out a few times while listening to her. I wi
It's a strange night. My 6 year old had his 1st text book sleep pralysis event. The kids all went crazy about the same time. My four year old woke up and my 8 month old Started screaming all about the same time. My body is buzzing with chills and presence feelings. I will journey tonight. Someone is hanging about, and I want to find out why. I'll edit and add to this if anything happens. I can tell it's going to be a wild night.
So I was able to create a very quick vibration initiat
This morning just before wakeing I herd the most incredible song. The lyrics were singing the praise of death and moving on to eternity. It was almost angelic.... But slightly off like not from a real singer. More like a normal person singing. If I would have written it down right away I could have recorded the lyrics..,, but it was so strange I just layed there thinking about it. Now they are lost on me. It was definantly female. I am associated with two dying women and my neighbor is very sick
I just woke up from a peculiar dream.
I was visited by my father last night. It was one of those dreams where he is still alive. Some how I had bumped into him while takeing a group of students on a hikeing trip.
I left them to spend some time with him. We were together for a while in a sacred spot to both of us in the mountains. It was very peaceful. He also looked well. It seemed like we were together for a few days.
Upon visiting my students, my father and this unknown woman with my group
Well I have had a few incredible journys since my last one. But they are s bit personal so Im keeping them off of here.
But, this morning a series of exits that seems to be like I'm back to struggling with basics. Sometimes my mind is clear and no problems; sometimes these little things hold me back. It's frustrating.
I initiated vibrations this morning to exited. The vibrations are so subtle now it's hard to tell if it's time to exit or not. So I do then I'm testing reality with my senses.
Well this entry and experience is a bit long and mixes in with dreams.
Set up. I have had trouble sleeping the past few nights. The baby wakes up or my four year old plows into me at 4am. I decide going to dose myself on natural herbal sedatives. So I don't end up being up until 3 am. I make a strong tea out of wild lettuce leaves ( opium lettuce), California poppy, and an herb from thailand called Kratom.
The tea is an instand success. I feel the wave of relaxation hit
Well.... I was up last night about 1 am, and I felt a wave of relaxation come over me. I have been trying to find the time to journey for a friend she is concerned about her pregnancy and I want to see if there is any thing to learn. I initiated vibrations and then......aaaaasakkkkkkkk
I was in bed and I don't remember anything. It was hours after I woke up that i remember journeying at all. I exited did something then came back then fell asleep with journalying. Now I can't remember a thing...
Well I have to say this is not for the feint of heart. I have not written in my journal yet.... I'm stil digesting what I just did.
Long story short in some meditations this night, morning whatever it is, In my persuit of duel concousness and the little bit of recent encouragement. I ran across something that no one should attempt unless you are fully prepared to face your animal self. I have been at at this for a while and I am still not totally sure if it was for better or worse.
I love it when this happens.
----- a quick note sent from someone----
"After your response to my post about my odd recurring dream, I was determined to astral project on my own accord. I read your blog and studied your techniques and this morning I finally did it! It only lasted a minute but I was able to leave my house and fly around my development Thank you so very much."
Can you tell I'm beaming :) :) :)
Laying in bed as everyone mills around. I decided to exit. Barely any vibrations. I just gently floated off my bed. I then half walked half floated down stairs I drug my hand on the wall to see if I could hear it.... I could. Knowing there is no friction in astral it must me a mental creation... A thought form of what I would expect to hear.. I went to the living room where My two boys were haveing cerea in the breakfast nookl. The baby was playing in the excerscoser. I followed my niece to the
I have not been doing much journeying lately. Instead I have have been meditating to exit, then simply surrendering my self and evaporating into light. It's an amazing indescribable experience. I have been scared of this before because it is very much like a drug, but someone suggested that it should be a practice. So I let go of my fear of being not grounded and let it happen nearly every time now.
As I feared.... My attention has shifted to how wonderful everything is. It's like a permanent
( this is very increadble but 100% true)
Well.. Here is the story. I blew my knee out in may. Damaged my mcl and completely tore my ACL... According to the The MRIs. In fact the acl was missing totally. Even fibers of it were messy inside my knee.
I have been using OBE techniques to attempt speeding up healing. I'll paste my journal entry on the first one.
Here is the deal..... I went in for reconstruction surgery today. After I woke up. It was only an hour long... Doctors told me my ACL was
So this dream is associated with the recent period of negative dreams and ocurances. Tuesday I got a call from the man that I had helped in that bar after being hit with a model plane on the head. He wanted to thank me and meet for a drink. Reluctantly I went back to that place. I carried with me some sage. I smudged my house before I left. I hung there for a while talking with him, then I went home. Nothing unusual.
Then last night I dreamt of the fat man again. I dont think I r
August 13th 2011
Short journey this morning. I initiated vibration. It took a While, but eventually fairly strong vibrations kicked in along with the rushing noises.
Upon exit, i considered a reality check but didn't, I knew I was out.
For some reason I could feel that I did not have a lot of time. I started going around the house checking everyone.
1st it was my five year old. I reach in and let my hand merge with his body. I let my awareness spread in him. I could feel and u
In light of recent events, I have decided to to create a mental program that will flood my dreams with an intense white light. This white light will be built on every positive feeling I have ever had. Every photon will be contain everything good I have every experienced.
I will go on a vision quest in a few weeks, and during a deep life review meditation I will acumulate a nuclear bomb of positive energy.
If I sense any sort of dream manipulation the mental program will be designed to detonat
Revelation during meditation
This morning in deep meditations I started to put things together. An event last Thursday caped it off. I did not journal it or blog it because it was a real life event. I recently cleansed myself with the help of the great spirit, so I have been much more clear this week.
This combines several histories.......
The malaki story as recorded in the last few entry's
This little bar that I like to go to occasi
I'm so sorry I don't have the link to this.... I don't know were it went. My apologies.
"Despite decades of attempts to pigeonhole them, shamans simply do not slip neatly into traditional psychiatric categories. Much has been made of the initiation crisis, and yet what is most important is not the crisis itself but what comes out of it. For the shaman "is not only a sick man" said Eliade, "he is a sick man who has been cured, who has succeeded in curing himself."(Eliade, 1964) From this perspec
Ever since that mslaki thing, I seemed to be mired in a swath of negativity. Especially in dreams. I have spent part of the afternoon napping. I am going to meditate on some positive things and and atempt a journy tonight. I am going to surrender myself to the light tonight. It's a simple process after exiting I fly straight up and basically turn myself into light that melds with the great spirit. I have a feeling this will cleans me.
Here I go, illl report latter.
I was not able to i
August 6th 3:50 am
Multiple dreams, false awakening, Lucid moments. New lesson.
I just had a string of dreams. I can't recall every detail but I'm not supposed to. I know that now.
It started with me in a car with my wife. Im not sure how we got there I think we were car jacked or something. At some point the car is speeding backwards. I'm trying to press on the break but it wont work. The car is heading toward an intersection. It is at night so it's dark and there is no traffic.
So I went ahead and watched it. Just another spook movie. Not even well done. To bad they had to take the journy and turn it into something so negative. If I could write a screen play, I could show how it really is. What do you bet Christians had a hand in portraying the movie. With the exceptions of the ghosts I can see all of their rederic in the movie. A couple things they got right, some people are talented. The dark things try to keep you in your body, they do not lure you out. Once you ove
So, the syncronistic events have begun to flare up. Two events today. I'm going to update this blog with the string of events that will probably swamp me in the weeks to come. No doubt leafing up to a trip to the mountains I have planned in about three weeks. About 70% of These things that happen cannot come from confirmation bias, while the other 30 can because of my heightened awareness of coincidences.
1) ( major unlikely event) several weeks ago while on a small vacation with my family, I m