After a long shower last night. I was very relaxed when going to bed. It did not take long for a feint vibration to begin deep in my chest. An easy exit. Just sat up. I was really hopeing to see Byrd again, so I called out to him way. I waited then i did it again. Nothing. I used the new technique that I learned on the ice to sort of phase out and drift down and land downstairs. It worked like a charm. At this point I walked out the side door to my garden. I as feeling a pull in that direction.
I cannot explaine the syncronistic events surrounding this movie. My wife and I went for a date night. And right away syncronicities started to bombard me. Every thing about the movie moved me because it tied into events my life in completely incredible ways. Everything from my relationship with trees to altered states even my marriage and recent events in other parts of my life..... The list goes on and on. When the movie comes out I will do a piece by piece and show how increadible the syncron
I am prepared to journey tonight. A range of things involving ancestors of mine, lost civilizations, and the importance of what I am doing with my altered state practice have converged. I was attacked last night in a dream or spontaniouse projection. And virtually every night I have been in some sort of battle in my dreams. There is a bit of anxiety in my life right now, so im certain it was a result of that, but I can't shake the feeling I am on the verge of some sort of new learning phase. Wis
I call these movie dreams. Last night it was a long drawn out dream.
The jist of it was that I was part of a group of explorers that discovers a lost civilization under ground somewhere. Somewhat like the center of the earth. They are somewhat aboriginal like.
( admiral Richard Byrd, was my grand fathers cousin or uncle---mothers side--- my whole family thinks I'm him reincarnated because I look like his twin ... Especially as a child).
These people were not happy being discovered.
Here is a funny little incident.
Last night I fell asleep on the coach. I woke up in sleep paralysis, typical couldn't roll over. There was no presence.
It's funny because in my mind I was projecting my thoughts over my shoulder daring anything there to try me. Nothing. Still paralyzed I closed my eyes Thought about projecting, then just said ehhhh. Then I went back to sleep.
It's strange, here I could have projected flown somewhere or something, but I don't really know what to do. I have s
Gese..... I initiated vibrations last night... Balanced on the edge of those pleasurable vibrations in my legs up to my shoulders. I was experimenting with controlling them. Then I exited... And upon return I went to sleep without journaling. Big mistake. I barely remember anything. I remember takeing a joy flight then returning to my house. I practiced floating up from downstairs through the floor of upstairs to land in the upstairs rooms. ( this is very difficult for me for some reason) then
This is precisely why I came to um forums and started blogging. I love watching people defeat and grow passed those nightmares into a new reality. These letters make my month everytime.
From a friend here on um.
It's been so long since we've communicated, thats becasue my fear of sleep paralysis held me back from trying astral projection, until now!
I've been reading your blog over the past couple of weeks, I love reading it and hearing about your adventures.. It's sparked faci
I had a dream last night that I was fishing with my father ( deceased) on a beech at the ocean. It was a very pleasant dream. We were catching fish and talking. Then out in the waves I could a small in inflatable raft with someone pattling in it towards shore. The raft was glowing. I understood it to be my mother coming in from a day out. My father points at the raft and says "see.. shes comeing"... I looked out at the raft recognizing that she was still far out and it would be a whil
Last night I was up late contemplating to many things. My next move in business, some problems with a friend of mine, and some other personal issues.
It was close 4 am and I felt that my mind was in the right place for a journey.
I laid back fairly exhausted from just thinking. I felt myself slip into the in between Meditative states and I could hear a girl speaking. She was a little girl and I did not know her language. I faded in and out a few times while listening to her. I wi
It's a strange night. My 6 year old had his 1st text book sleep pralysis event. The kids all went crazy about the same time. My four year old woke up and my 8 month old Started screaming all about the same time. My body is buzzing with chills and presence feelings. I will journey tonight. Someone is hanging about, and I want to find out why. I'll edit and add to this if anything happens. I can tell it's going to be a wild night.
So I was able to create a very quick vibration initiat
This morning just before wakeing I herd the most incredible song. The lyrics were singing the praise of death and moving on to eternity. It was almost angelic.... But slightly off like not from a real singer. More like a normal person singing. If I would have written it down right away I could have recorded the lyrics..,, but it was so strange I just layed there thinking about it. Now they are lost on me. It was definantly female. I am associated with two dying women and my neighbor is very sick
I just woke up from a peculiar dream.
I was visited by my father last night. It was one of those dreams where he is still alive. Some how I had bumped into him while takeing a group of students on a hikeing trip.
I left them to spend some time with him. We were together for a while in a sacred spot to both of us in the mountains. It was very peaceful. He also looked well. It seemed like we were together for a few days.
Upon visiting my students, my father and this unknown woman with my group
Well I have had a few incredible journys since my last one. But they are s bit personal so Im keeping them off of here.
But, this morning a series of exits that seems to be like I'm back to struggling with basics. Sometimes my mind is clear and no problems; sometimes these little things hold me back. It's frustrating.
I initiated vibrations this morning to exited. The vibrations are so subtle now it's hard to tell if it's time to exit or not. So I do then I'm testing reality with my senses.
Dry spell was broken last night. Funny, I almost always require presleep to take journys, but this time it was at night before any presleep.
Laying back I centered my my focus out in the 3 dimentional space behind my eyes. I don't watch nural discharges as much, i just hold my atention to one spot. Usually at a slightly upward angle.
I felt my awareness shift almost instantly vibrations flared up. There not very strong anymore. I think I'm getting used to them even the n
Well this entry and experience is a bit long and mixes in with dreams.
Set up. I have had trouble sleeping the past few nights. The baby wakes up or my four year old plows into me at 4am. I decide going to dose myself on natural herbal sedatives. So I don't end up being up until 3 am. I make a strong tea out of wild lettuce leaves ( opium lettuce), California poppy, and an herb from thailand called Kratom.
The tea is an instand success. I feel the wave of relaxation hit
Well.... I was up last night about 1 am, and I felt a wave of relaxation come over me. I have been trying to find the time to journey for a friend she is concerned about her pregnancy and I want to see if there is any thing to learn. I initiated vibrations and then......aaaaasakkkkkkkk
I was in bed and I don't remember anything. It was hours after I woke up that i remember journeying at all. I exited did something then came back then fell asleep with journalying. Now I can't remember a thing...
I love it when this happens.
----- a quick note sent from someone----
"After your response to my post about my odd recurring dream, I was determined to astral project on my own accord. I read your blog and studied your techniques and this morning I finally did it! It only lasted a minute but I was able to leave my house and fly around my development Thank you so very much."
Can you tell I'm beaming :) :) :)
Laying in bed as everyone mills around. I decided to exit. Barely any vibrations. I just gently floated off my bed. I then half walked half floated down stairs I drug my hand on the wall to see if I could hear it.... I could. Knowing there is no friction in astral it must me a mental creation... A thought form of what I would expect to hear.. I went to the living room where My two boys were haveing cerea in the breakfast nookl. The baby was playing in the excerscoser. I followed my niece to the
I have not been doing much journeying lately. Instead I have have been meditating to exit, then simply surrendering my self and evaporating into light. It's an amazing indescribable experience. I have been scared of this before because it is very much like a drug, but someone suggested that it should be a practice. So I let go of my fear of being not grounded and let it happen nearly every time now.
As I feared.... My attention has shifted to how wonderful everything is. It's like a permanent
( this is very increadble but 100% true)
Well.. Here is the story. I blew my knee out in may. Damaged my mcl and completely tore my ACL... According to the The MRIs. In fact the acl was missing totally. Even fibers of it were messy inside my knee.
I have been using OBE techniques to attempt speeding up healing. I'll paste my journal entry on the first one.
Here is the deal..... I went in for reconstruction surgery today. After I woke up. It was only an hour long... Doctors told me my ACL was
I'm so sorry I don't have the link to this.... I don't know were it went. My apologies.
"Despite decades of attempts to pigeonhole them, shamans simply do not slip neatly into traditional psychiatric categories. Much has been made of the initiation crisis, and yet what is most important is not the crisis itself but what comes out of it. For the shaman "is not only a sick man" said Eliade, "he is a sick man who has been cured, who has succeeded in curing himself."(Eliade, 1964) From this perspec
So this dream is associated with the recent period of negative dreams and ocurances. Tuesday I got a call from the man that I had helped in that bar after being hit with a model plane on the head. He wanted to thank me and meet for a drink. Reluctantly I went back to that place. I carried with me some sage. I smudged my house before I left. I hung there for a while talking with him, then I went home. Nothing unusual.
Then last night I dreamt of the fat man again. I dont think I r
In light of recent events, I have decided to to create a mental program that will flood my dreams with an intense white light. This white light will be built on every positive feeling I have ever had. Every photon will be contain everything good I have every experienced.
I will go on a vision quest in a few weeks, and during a deep life review meditation I will acumulate a nuclear bomb of positive energy.
If I sense any sort of dream manipulation the mental program will be designed to detonat