Hello everyone. Its been a long time since I've written a blog. Mostly because I really haven't had much to say. Today though I realize it's actually because of much more then that. I have basically been in a stand still funk. So much so that it has begun to effect everything around me. Including my marriage. It isn't comfortable opening my soul for all to see, but I need an outlet. Yesterday morning my wife had given me a very hard pill to swallow. She doesn't even know if this relationship is
Hey guys. I decided to write a short story. I try not to go to long without writing something, so I don't lose it. This was done kinda quickly, and is unedited for the most part, but I thought it was ok. Let me know what you think. I haven't titled it yet.
It was a mid January night in the winter of ‘94. The moonlight reflected off our billowing breath from the deep cold and cast our long shadows on the railroad tracks as we walked to our small ice skating pond that was a st
I've kinda become consciously aware of some things lately. These are things I'd normally keep to myself, but I get this strange vibe that there are some folks who might benefit from hearing about it. Have you ever tried to just observe yourself? What I mean is have you ever examined what you think about over a whole day? The things you spend time worrying about? Or being angry about? Being happy about? I think if you had, what you'd find is you spend the vast majority of your time chasing phanto
Hello fellow blog readers. Its been a while since my last entry. as I've really had nothing of significance to say. Something happened to me yesterday though that I just had to share. For those of you who have read my previous entries you know that I've had somewhat of a spiritual transition over the last couple of years. I have discovered new and valuable information in the importance of loving yourself. In vibrational energies. How relationships are effected through those same things. Well com
I'm just gonna jump right in and skip the formalities this time. Today I heard a song on the radio that sparked an incredible memory, and I'd like to share that experience with you now. This was probably around 5 years ago. My life at the time had a lot of spiritual ups and downs. Thinking about it I guess that hasn't changed all that much even today. Anyhow, I don't even remember what had put me in this state of mind, or exactly why I felt this way. I just remember driving down the road flippin
For some reason I am able to remember things from my past in perfect detail. I remember damn near everything. Long time friends I often correct when we sit around telling tails from our teenage years. They remember the stories, but often miss the little details. I don't know why but Im like an elephant in this regard. I even remember phone numbers from girls I used to call. Some as early as 6th grade.
So the other day I was thinking about how this is the year Im going to turn the big 4 0. Insta
Hello blog world. I honestly hope everyone is doing well. Im adding this section to my blog cause a few months ago I decided to write a book on sleep paralysis. Ive spent a great deal of effort communicating individually with people who have had these experiences. Many of the people Ive communicated with have been great. Some have been really helpful and took my requests very seriously. Ive had some amazing responses. Problem Im running into is these stories tend to be really short. The leg work
For the past week Ive done a little experimenting with guided meditation. I didn't really think it would work, but I have been having very limited success with astral projection. So I thought, what could it hurt? For 4 nights straight nothing happened. Oh I should take a step back. First, the guided meditation im speaking of is a technic that seeks to keep your consciousness aware through out the falling asleep process. You put on some head phones, and listen to really soothing music, while a ve
Hey guys, how has everyone been? I hope all is well. I posted this in the dream section. But I wanted to start blogging my lucid dreams, and astral projection experiences. I've been in a rut for some time not able to do either, but things are seemingly starting to happen again. I thought making a record of it here might help move things along as well. Like a dream journal. So here goes........
Had a really cool experience a couple nights ago. I had a crazy work day, so at the end of the day I w
I wrote about this like 7 years ago here on UM. Thought I'd blog it so more folks could read it, and maybe give some opinions (aside from telling me to lay off the psychedelics lol) I also thought some might just find it interesting. I swear everything I say here happened exactly how I said. I added a couple things I thought were relevant that I didn't include when I originally wrote it.
If you have read my other entries, you'd know that I have taken it upon myself to learn new (to me) spiritual things. One I stumbled upon not long ago was a study on vibrational energies. This subject was of particular interest for me, cause I have already experienced actual physical vibrations in my attempts to astral project. A literal vibrational energy that I felt through my entire body several times now.
Anyhow, according to the study, we are all, always connected to a vibrational energy.
Tis the east, and Jennifer (my Juliet ; ) is the sun.
Hey guys. Last time I was talking about how I discovered the absolute imperative need for one to love themselves. That I had spent a great deal of my spiritual walk in a intentional struggle with myself. For the most part I raised the white flag, and have given up the fight of self loathing. I have only just begun to realize the implications. It amazes me just how much ones perceptions can change from such a different point of view. Ive hear
In my last entry I was explaining how I have been seeking spiritual things, not found in the church. In the same way I dove head first into the church, hungry for information, and refused to even slow down till I thought I had learned all there was to know on any given biblical subject, so to am I in these other teachings. I must confess, as much as Im learning, and as much as I see true value, and even obvious truth in what Im seeing, I cant help but to continue to look for the "lion in the gra
For my first blog Im just kinda gonna think out loud about something's that have been on my mind.
Even as a child I have always gone against the grain. Id make it a point, to a fault, to make sure the things I was told were important weren't. At a young age, 20 or so, I found the church. I experienced what many Christians describe as a new love affair with my maker. But even in that I began to see things I didn't like, or understand. Mostly with the church its self, and the people who profess