The holidays last year were really weird for me; I went through the motions, but my heart wasn't in any of it. This year, things look different. Although I feel some sadness about facing another round of holidays without my husband, I find myself wanting to make new memories and to (in some small way) still honor my husband. So this year I will put up a Christmas tree (I could not emotionally handle it last year), put the ornaments on it in memory of not only my husband and our life togeth
