Jump to content
Join the Unexplained Mysteries community today! It's free and setting up an account only takes a moment.
- Sign In or Create Account -

talking to myself

  • entries
    2,910
  • comments
    1,545
  • views
    670,465

About this blog

personal stuff

Entries in this blog

I can only speak for myself

I can only speak for myself

I can only speak for myself It is not enough to say we are Christians. We must live the faith, not only with our words, but with our actions.--Pope Francis When speaking about life, and what it means, each of us can only truthfully speak from our own perspective, or one’s faith path.  I really can’t speak for anyone else.  For me, the growth in faith, as well as my vocation as a monk has been a slow one.  That is not true of many Christians, and that, of course, includes monks.  I have kno

markdohle

markdohle

No need to force or to achieve

No need to force or to achieve

No need to force or to achieve When fatigued it is hard to pray, or focus, or at times to even think, when the inner waves rise about me, and anxieties seek to sink me, it is then that my mind can race, so over the long years, I have learned that there is a place of inner calm, as if I am sitting in a boat on a raging sea, or resting into my fatigue, and let myself sink into presence of the Infinite, no need to force, or to achieve, just simply be, with an inner ear to listen, a he

markdohle

markdohle

The Monastic Struggle

The Monastic Struggle

The Monastic Struggle 'Man's anger does not bring about the righteousness of God' (Jms. 1:20 (Chapter talk) We must, with God's help, eradicate the deadly poison of the demon of anger from the depths of our souls. So long as he dwells in our hearts and blinds the eyes of the heart with his somber disorders, we can neither discriminate what is for our good, nor achieve spiritual knowledge, nor fulfill our good intentions, nor participate in true life;and our intellect will remain impervi

markdohle

markdohle

Black dog

Black dog

Black dog By the door, it sat, this big black dog, it then walked away when I approached, not running, just walking fast, as if it did not know to run or trust, it simply declined my presence. I saw it the next morning in the grey dawn, shivering it watched me again as I walked by, ready to dart away, yet wanting to come, it must remember the caress of its master, who abandoned him. Then a week went by, a man came and said that a dog, skinny, black, and weak was by our lake, h

markdohle

markdohle

All Souls Day

All Souls Day

All Souls Day Lord on this day we remember your beloved children who have left us and moved on to a greater reality, where only truth reigns in your presence. Your mercy is like a two-edged sword cutting deep into the human soul exposing all that needs healing, for are you not the Divine Physician? Love is a fire that burns away all that is false, or at enmity with Infinite Love, until only truth remains and total healing, all sins forgiven, and self-inflicted wounds restored

markdohle

markdohle

All Saints

All Saints

All Saints The saints lived as we did, days of joy and of sorrow, faith sometimes fought for, doubt reasoned with, suffering and injustices endured, and yes, many failures, yet they endured and did not despair slowly growing in their trust of Christ Jesus, diving deeper into the Mind-Of-Christ, until now they deeper in the kingdom they are in union, one with, Christ’s mind and intentions. They are now fully human, like Christ Jesus, for they now see him as he really is, and tra

markdohle

markdohle

Life is a marathon, not a sprint

Life is a marathon, not a sprint

Life is a marathon, not a sprint   In life, we do not see the finish line, we just begin each day anew, perhaps conscious of our seeking, or if not, perhaps wondering what compels us, to continue in spite of failure and loss.   Joy, love, family, and friends help give spice to our days, a healing balm more often than not, giving us reasons to continue our quest, that is often not understood.   Our faith is light that shines on the deepest meaning of life, if we have the ears to hea

markdohle

markdohle

Letting go allows more life

Letting go allows more life

Letting go allows more life When we die to something, something comes alive in us. If we die to self, charity comes alive; if we die to pride, service comes alive; if we die to lust, reverence for personality comes alive; if we die to anger, love comes alive.—Fulton Sheen In Monastic Life, in the Cistercian order, we take a vow of ‘Conversion of Manners’. Vows can be life-affirming if used as a compass on how to traverse the many situations we meet up with on a daily basis. I suppose

markdohle

markdohle

The Reality of His Presence

The Reality of His Presence

The Reality of His Presence   “For you I must be everything.  Everything!  You understand?  Your life is mine…Move out of yourself; I’m living in you.  Do you grasp what I mean?  I take up all the room.” (From the book “He and I”)  Author:  Gabrielle Bossis  Pauline Press 6 Feb 41   (From the book “He and I”) Author: Gabrielle Bossis  Pauline Press 6 Feb 41   God accommodates us when He speaks. Using language that we can understand, when speaking of the incomprehensible, the ineffab

markdohle

markdohle

Some things are out of our control

Some things are out of our control

Some things are out of our control   There is a lot to life that is out of our control. Our aging, for instance, time makes sure that we keep on moving on. One second, day, week, month, year and decade at a time; the ride does not stop until we do. It is like an apple that drops from the tree; once it starts it won’t stop until it lands. We all have to deal with this until we have our landing day. I guess being a pilgrim could be visualized as our being born (falling from the tree) and going u

markdohle

markdohle

Impossible human situations

Impossible human situations

Impossible human situations (The Abortion Issue) The abortion question is divisive, and I approach it with a certain level of fear and trembling. It is not a simple matter at all. I have friends who are pro-choice. They focus on the mother, her plight, and wish to protect women from procedures that are illegal and perhaps a threat to their lives. I do believe that abortion is not something that will ever go away. However, there are deep moral implications when it comes to this subject. I

markdohle

markdohle

Tenderness and Relationship with God

Tenderness and Relationship with God

Tenderness and Relationship with God January 20—Le Fresne church. . . . “Don’t be afraid of being too tender. Or of saying too much to your beloved. Complain about yourself. Say to Him, ‘When will You heal me, My great friend, of this or that?’ So many things in you are unworthy of Me. Humble yourself as you think of this. Hide all your ugliness in My heart. It’s a hospital, you know, and doesn’t one sometimes come out of a hospital cured? Trust in Me with all your heart since I am your great

markdohle

markdohle

The little ones

The little ones

The little ones I believe that we are all little ones, not the childish children who rebel, but those who know of their need for grace and understand that we are called to servanthood. To seek those who are overlooked and forgotten, just as there are times when we need to be sought out, for we are all walking a path towards mystery, eternity. The more trust is embraced, chosen, and lived, the deeper we go into the heart of mankind, into the very Heart-Of-God, revealed in Jesus C

markdohle

markdohle

We Would Die of Joy

We Would Die of Joy

We Would Die of Joy   All things pass, that can be consoling, stay calm and take the next step, we have this moment then it is is gone, so important the 'now', even the bad times, especially the hard painful situations, for when present, we are face to face with the deepest mystery, revealed to us as Infinite Love, a love so profound that if we felt it for even one second in all of its power, we would die of joy.--Br.MD

markdohle

markdohle

The Fatigue/Lethargy of Life

The Fatigue/Lethargy of Life

The Fatigue/Lethargy of Life   Grace is everywhere, it can be seen working in the hearts of many men and woman, who may not have faith, but seek to relieve the suffering of those they encounter.—BrMD.   “I do not measure time as men measure it, nor do I judge the intensity of suffering as men do. I know what I am doing, even when I hide My plans from men in order to test their faith in Me, and cause that faith to grow strong and indomitable. There are, alas, many souls who, in There are,

markdohle

markdohle

I am an unprofitable servant

I am an unprofitable servant

I am an unprofitable servant This past Sunday we had our Lay Cistercians at our retreat house. It is a monthly affair. Below is a homily that he shared with the Lay Cistercians by our Fr. Cassian. He always has an interesting slant when he speaks about the parables in the Gospel. Hope you all enjoy and get something out of it.—BrMD   Homily Preached to the Lay Cistercians October 6, 2019 by Fr. Cassian OCSO I am an unprofitable servant. An unworthy servant. An unnecessary servant.

markdohle

markdohle

What we all seek

What we all seek

What we all seek   What remains after we die? Our money goes first, perhaps fought over by our loving family, or fame if we have it is soon gone, and if not what does it matter(?), a picture in a book or in many books means little when dead.   Perhaps it is the seeds planted in loving service, giving life to others producing much fruit, is what remains.   For love is what we all seek like plants rising up to the sun seeking light and warmth.-

markdohle

markdohle

Letter to Michael who died in 1958

Letter to Michael who died in 1958

Letter to Michael who died in 1958 (my little brother The most common experience for most of us, if we live long enough, is to experience the loss of loved ones, be they family, or friends. Over the last few years, my family has experienced the loss of three siblings. It is not easy, but a normal part of life. Losing a sibling at birth, and not having any experience of knowing, loving, holding, or simply being with, is something different altogether. Below is a letter I wrote to a brother who

markdohle

markdohle

Holy Feast of St. Therese 2019

Holy Feast of St. Therese 2019

Holy Feast of St. Therese 2019 Only God can see what is in the bottom of our hearts; we are half-blind.—St. Therese of Lisieux Two great sins that are very common, so common in fact that they are taken lightly. Something is sinful when we fail to love as commanded by our Lord. It is something that we do to ourselves, and along with it comes a self-wounding that leads to alienation from ourselves, others, and sadly in the end, if allowed to grow in our souls, from God. Self-hatred leads t

markdohle

markdohle

Choas/Life/Faith

Choas/Life/Faith

Chaos /life/faith Faith can be bare-boned at times, with trust being the only operative ingredient working. Chaos seems to be part of life, though if I had my way I would do away with that. Then again, I feel if that wish came true, perhaps I would disappear, or just become flat, like a lake with no ripples; for struggles seems to be needed by our species. Like the salmon striving to go upstream to breed, so we do the same, often for reasons that are veiled. An inner compass guides me, and I

markdohle

markdohle

A  day out with Luke

A day out with Luke

I wrote this ten years ago. A very beautiful memory about a day I spent with Fr. Luke, and a visit with Claire a dear friend, and a very funny lady. To spend time with her is to lalugh.--BrMD   A  day out with Luke Took Luke, who is 96 years old, to see a good friend yesterday, I combine trips, he had a dentist appointment, and Clair lives 15 miles away, she loves Luke very much, which is not hard to do, he is a gentle soul, always smiling and helps to take care of people 30

markdohle

markdohle

What is real, and most important in our lives

What is real, and most important in our lives

What is real, and most important in our lives?   January 13—Le Fresne church. I said, “Truth, I adore You.” “Yes, I am Truth. Sin is falsehood, error, darkness. “Every form of goodness is truth: the desire for good, work for justice . . . You will see later that only one thing matters and that is truth, for God alone matters. Attach no importance whatsoever to anything apart from Me, however pleasing it may be. Happiness is found in Me alone. “When I created man I placed deep within him a s

markdohle

markdohle

A convict with a sexual abuse past

A convict with a sexual abuse past

A convict with a rough background (Sexual Abuse)   Most people, I believe, have a rough background, or at least a period of time when things were not optimal for healthy growth. For some, it can be a lifetime of living with their chaotic past, which can actually be generational. That is, passed on from one generation to the next. For others, it can be from being in a home that is temporary, like many foster homes. While there are most likely many foster parents, perhaps the majority, that

markdohle

markdohle

A beautiful Chapter-A talk on the common will

A beautiful Chapter-A talk on the common will

A beautiful Chapter (A talk on the common will in Monastic Life) Br. Philip, our Sub-Prior gave us this chapter talk this last Sunday. I found it extremely well done, as well as insightful. I would like to share it with my friends. Any path that seeks to lead us deeper into union with the Divine Will, is by that very fact counter-cultural and will be often misunderstood. However, as the saying goes, the proof is in the pudding. To live deeply one’s faith, no matter the vocation will draw

markdohle

markdohle