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One twig at a tilme sweet Jesus

One twig at a tilme sweet Jesus

One twig at a time, sweet Jesus, one twig at a time.  (A Life of Balance) Balance is tricky.  We stop wobbling, become centered, things are in place both inwardly and outwardly, and then it comes crashing down.  It is like juggling. How I keep everything moving from one hand to another without dropping everything.  Some are good at this, but then a distraction comes, or something more serious, and it comes crashing down.  Monastic-Life hopefully leads to a life of balance, between work

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markdohle

This Child of God

This Child of God

This Child of God   We are called to be childlike, not childish. It is about saying ‘no’ to the power of the past, about learning to let go, to forgive, to unbind the chains that have been put on us. It is about grace, God’s love for us, God’s compassion. The ‘death-to-self’ is reality a rebirth.   So in order to lovingly confront ourselves does not take being a strong adult, but an open malleable childlike, trusting attitude. T o be rooted in Christ is to be truly growing towards being t

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markdohle

The Human Journey

The Human Journey

The Human Journey The human journey is not an easy one. When Jesus says that we have to take up our cross to follow him, he spoke the truth. Yet, his cross when experienced through our journey in following him, we find that the cross we bear is in actuality life-giving, and much lighter than crosses that we manufacture for ourselves. The harder we try to escape our pain, the worse things get.--Br.MD

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To grow in understanding

To grow in understanding

To grow in understanding is to grow in the love of others   To understand how we are loved leads us to see life in a different way. It does not give all the answers but does give meaning to our journey. This allows us to embrace the full experiences that life brings to us. It also allows us to grow in courage to want to face up to whatever keeps us from deepening our love of God as we move forward on our pilgrimage. As our love of God deepens, so does our love of self and of others. We grow in

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markdohle

Angry ‘confrontation’ is a way of deflecting

Angry ‘confrontation’ is a way of deflecting

Angry ‘confrontation’ is a way of deflecting attention from ourselves onto others Trying to get the zoom conferences ready for this weekend. I am always nervous about this retreat because it is not always a comforting subject to deal with. Yet I feel necessary, at least for me if I wish to become more Christ-like, which is the same as saying, more truly human. Here is one of the points that I will bring up to talk about hopefully drawing others into sharing. Angry confrontation, one that

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My motives will always be mixed

My motives will always be mixed

My motives will always be mixed I often wonder why I do what I do. I have found it to be good, if I can simply accept that I have a long way to go......so my motives will always be mixed. When we pray the Holy Spirit will gently let the soul know what it needs to work on, let go of, or to embrace. The path to real self-love as Jesus taught is not based on shallow sentiment that comes and goes, but on the understanding of who we are are in God's sight We are precious Jesus gave his all for ea

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Talking Heads

Talking Heads

Talking Heads   One of the hardest mountains for me to climb is to be kind to someone with whom I disagree with strongly. I know that arguing when in that state leads nowhere, that that actual communication becomes, in reality, a monologue, with two or more talking heads yelling down to one another. It is the first thing I can throw overboard when dealing with others. I shut others out easily.   I do not like it when others 'discount' me, so why is it so easy for me to discount others and th

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No clear cut path

No clear cut path

No clear cut path   Prayer is not easy. Though for a beginner it may seem so. Yet as time goes on it is the nature of this world to lead us into an inner desert. A place where no clear cut path is discerned, except for one thing. We are called to love God with our hearts, souls, and mind, and to love our neighbor as ourselves. Simple in stating this, but the living out is a different matter altogether. It is in the living out of these two commands that we learn what ‘dying to self’ means. -Br.

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True inner freedom

True inner freedom

True inner freedom We can’t love others unless we actually love ourselves in God’s unconditional, infinite love. For we can only be lovingly truthful, and present, when our love is rooted in our relationship with God. Otherwise, while our love for others can be good, there are often underlying conditions for the love to continue. In other words, it is based on need alone, and so, is self-centered. This knowledge that is imparted to us to the degree that we can handle it, is necessary, and also

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Self-Knowledge

Self-Knowledge

Self-Knowledge Prayer leads to love of God because in prayer we seek to grow in love every day, to increase our capacity to trust in God. The more we seek to love God, the deeper is our understanding of how weak, and yes, how shallow this love is. We see how easily we can be distracted, self-centered, and yes lazy in our spiritual lives we can often be. We learn how we seek our will more often than understood before we started our ‘walk with Jesus’. The Holy Spirit lights up areas in our live

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markdohle

Empty Vase

Empty Vase

Empty Vase Faith without prayer is an empty vase with no water. Merely an intellectual accent, which is important, however, to not pray is to close one’s heart to the intimate relationship we are called to.--Br.MD

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P:rayer in times of Desolation

P:rayer in times of Desolation

Prayer in times of desolation   Prayer, all forms of prayer, when practiced when in deep desolation is in fact perhaps one of the most difficult disciplines that we can do. For in prayer, we allow the light of God into our hearts consciously. Even when we fail, if we try to pray, we can grow because we learn of our dependence on God’s mercy, which is ongoing. The danger is getting tired of returning, of the ongoing conversion that we are all called to. It all about relationship. Either with Go

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markdohle

A lifeline is our prayer

A lifeline is our prayer

A lifeline is our prayer   Prayer is not a luxury, nor is it about asking, but about being with God, a lifeline that allows the heart to grow, healing our wounds as they appear, and all struggles leading to a deeper trust in our Loving Father, as revealed by Jesus Christ.--Br.MD      

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Life is good (aside from all the crap)

Life is good (aside from all the crap)

Life is good (aside from all the crap)   Theodicy is the discipline that seeks to understand the reason for so much suffering in the world. To say that human life is often tragic and filled with loss, pain and mourning is so obvious that it need not be said. Yet lots of paper is spent on seeking to understand this reality. There are some lucky few where life is good when young, but even with these, there comes a point where life starts to take its toll and ‘things’ begin to happen.

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markdohle

I seek to live it, but do I believe it?

I seek to live it, but do I believe it?

I seek to live it, but do I believe it? The redemption is the work of love. I loved in the face of hatred. I loved in the face of death. I loved even in the netherworld, where the just of the ages awaited My coming among them. It is by love that I vanquished hell, by love that I triumphed over death, by love that I undid what Satan, in his envy, had plotted against the creatures whom I so love and whom My Father destined for the praise of His glory.1 A Benedictine Monk. In Sinu Jesu: When He

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Just do it

Just do it

Just do it A man asked me this question one day, in frustration. "How can I trust God?" I responded: "By trusting. 'Let your fears drop away, or learn not to heed them."--BrMD

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The right leader will save us?

The right leader will save us?

The right leader will save us? While it is true that men and women who get into power through politics are I believe for the most part corrupt. I do not think this is a harsh statement, since I doubt if I were to get into the political sandbox that I would be able to stay honest either. Too many temptations on all levels. I have always found it funny that every four years we think that we will finally get a leader to get us out of our decades-long slide into chaos. Yet, no matter who gets i

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markdohle

Lord, one day at a time is all I ask

Lord, one day at a time is all I ask

Lord, one day at a time is all I ask When I was a young monk, one of the seniors told me that it takes time to get into monastic life. He mentioned how it was around 10 years before he even began to get into the interior grove of his vocation. Being only 23 at the time, I thought what he said absurd. Yet here I am almost 50 years later, and I still have not quite got it. I bump into things, fumble along, fail, get up, and in spite of my bumbling, I sense grace at work, and healing going on,

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markdohle

A universal ‘Gethsemane’ experience

A universal ‘Gethsemane’ experience

Being trapped (A universal ‘Gethsemane’ experience) I have decided to limit my reading on the Covid-19 pandemic.  However, even with less looking into it, I still check it out once a day.  I do not feel good about it.  What I read on the web is that the first wave is not even close to being over, and then in November they expect a second wave, maybe worse.  I do not know what to think.  I have the feeling that we are all caught in a large net that is getting smaller and tighter as time goes

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markdohle

Healing comes when a choice is made to ‘trust

Healing comes when a choice is made to ‘trust

Healing comes when a choice is made to ‘trust’ The redemption is the work of love. I loved in the face of hatred. I loved in the face of death. I loved even in the netherworld, where the just of the ages awaited My coming among them. It is by love that I vanquished hell, by love that I triumphed over death, by love that I undid what Satan, in his envy, had plotted against the creatures whom I so love and whom My Father destined for the praise of His glory. A Benedictine Monk. In Sinu Jesu:

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markdohle

Opening the Heart to

Opening the Heart to

Opening the Heart to Reality If you don’t learn how to cry, you cannot be a good Christian. When they posed this question to us – why children suffer, why this or that tragedy occurs in life – our response must be either silence or a word that is born of our tears. Be courageous, don’t be afraid to cry. --Pope Francis   ++++++++++ I met a man who told me that he has been a devout Christian all of his life.  Then his wife die about 15 years ago and he lost his faith.   Actually, he left

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markdohle

The Pure Gift

The Pure Gift

The pure gift   For those who seek to make prayer an important part of their lives, it will slowly bring them to an understanding of the depth of their union with God, as well as with others. All human beings are made in the image and likeness of God, so the slowly deepening love of God will bring out a corresponding love of others. Religion that is used to separate oneself from others could be considered evil. For to live out of the ‘Golden Rule’, to ‘treat others as we would like to be treat

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markdohle

Basic Human Struggle

Basic Human Struggle

Basic human struggle   Emotions are strong, and they can be overwhelming, or seem to be. They are irrational and seek release, hence our struggle. Yet they do pass quickly if we let them live out their life span. If we cling to our emotional responses then they can haunt us for life. To forgive is to relinquish the power we give others when we get caught in the endless cycle of 'remembering' from our own perspective.   Prayer can lead to healing, for when we pray for those who hurt us, we be

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Hollow

Hollow

Hollow   Outside show is a poor substitute for inner worth. Quote from Aesop   I fail in many ways, I say one thing and do another, and I often live as if my faith is only a shadow, yet I continue. The tragedy would be not to know that I miss the mark so often, then I would be insufferable.......Self-knowledge leads us to grace and mercy, in that, our hollowness and its echo does not overwhelm others for we hear it before others and can contain it.....hopefully. Br. MD

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