What the soul seeks
(stream of consciousness)
A soul in pain seeks diversion. Or if tired, perhaps to find some rest, but where? Root-less-ness, a feeling of not belonging, can be a source of deep inner alienation, leading to isolation. Form; that which has boundaries, is not what the soul needs, at least on the level of inner thirst and unease; a place only felt but not often seen.
What are we rooted in? Our self-awareness, our sense of self, our longings, the human ability to cre
What the soul desires
God is love,
so the soul desires a return,
seeking the union in ways often self defeating,
desiring warmth and escape from loneliness
as an end in itself,
not understanding that love,
true love deepens our sense of otherness,
knowing that all that we see around us
is limited and cannot filll a heart
made for the infinite ocean of love.
When rejected this truth,
then we take love,
make them objects
and then when they disappoint us
which they will
What the NDE may have to offer us
(It all about perspective and yes faith as well)
My faith will dictate to me my perspective towards the world, its meaning and my place in it. As a Catholic that perspective will hone it down to a finer point. Then I am a monk, so that will further narrow down how I interrupt the world. I do believe that is true for all of us, even if what we actually believe is not thought through in a systematic way. Yet how we live
What the Dark Night is not
The retreat that Martha gave this weekend was probably her best one yet. “When God seems distant” was the theme and I would guess most people on a path seeking God will find themselves in the place in time. Some seem stuck there, but are they? Mother Teresa was in ‘the dark night’ for years, yet she continued her path towards union with God. St. John of the Cross stated that the closer God gets, can sometimes be experienced as an interior darkness. This is b
What self love is not
One day as I was speaking to one of our guest, he wondered how he was supposed to love himself when he is so aware of his past, what is in his heart now and what he is capable of doing. Well I said “self knowledge has its price. Too actually to be able to see yourself in a truthful light takes a type of self love. Also having the strength of ego that many lack; as well as being in touch with your soul and what gives life and breathe to your spirit”, even if uncon
What seems foolish
Contempt, hatred, anger, revenge and at times depression, in the end are ways to shield us from seeing and experiencing the pain of others. We can objectify others and also ourselves. ‘Things’, are not important, but “Thou’s’ are. When barriers are dropped then the inner wonder of those around us is seen, embraced and life accepted, on terms that perhaps seem foolish before it is actually lived out.
What rules our lives
We all have a path, a central struggle that allows other areas of our lives to either blossom and grow, or whither and die. I am speaking from experience here, well actually, everything I write is from my own inner journey, failures and successes. I always find myself in trouble when I allow my own inner reactions, or if you like, emotional responses to exert some kind of authority over me. Emotions, the ones that are most felt and dealt with on a daily basis, have d
What retreatants have taught me about childlike faith
6 The LORD protects those of childlike faith; I was facing death, and he saved me.7 Let my soul be at rest again, for the LORD has been good to me.8 He has saved me from death, my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling.9 And so I walk in the LORD’s presence as I live here on earth!
I have written many times how humbling it is to talk with our retreatants as they share many of their struggles with me.
What pro-lifers know about abortion
(Seeing life from both sides)
This is known by pro-lifers. That many women who get abortion are often under tremendous stress to undergo this procedure. Their families, their friends, lovers and society in general encourages that they ‘get on with their life’ and just do it. Pro-lifers also know that many women are then left alone to deal with the aftermath of the procedure, where they end the life in their womb. Where these women come to under
What plants teach me
I am not much for forest, or lots of scenery, but find rest in the plants that I have in my room. Simple plants, easy to take care of, but to me so beautiful, rooted in the moment, seemingly always at rest.
Some plants I have had for many years, they just grow, get deeper roots, and I change the water from time to time, and fee
I believe my soul is a little like that always at rest, watching, my roots growing deeper with each passing day, and God's grace waterin
I have learned however not too really ‘care’ what others believe. I have found that saves me a great deal of trouble, for there are many who seem to think that the thoughts and beliefs of others can be changed, which in my experience does not happen. No matter how good the augment seems, or how loud one shouts, it does no good. Now seeds can be planted, but they have to be cultivated, which means that one has to choose to give a certain amount of authority of other ways of thinking, which inc
What or who we truly are is not yet known
I agree that being a loving person is something humans are not. Yet we strive to become loving and in that we call upon the Lord for grace and healing. Self knowledge allows us to see our need and woundedness without despairing, or having our ego shattered. Jesus as the Word has loved us into existence and will bring what he has started in our hearts to fruition. What or who we truly are is not yet known or understood, yet it is the Lord who kno
What makes us all, beautiful?
When chains fall
and freedom felt;
when the soul breathes freely
it is then we experience home,
even if only for a time.
The falling and rising,
the humility that flows from that,
makes us all beautiful,
allowing bitterness and self hatred
to fall away
into that inner ocean
without depth or boundaries.
Perhaps the most fearful thing about the infinite,
that which perhaps is fought the most,
is that it is personal,
beyond all telling
What makes some to lose faith
Songs that touch the soul,
birds that sing and draw us out,
flowers that bring to mind another world,
pets that allow us to love without fear,
children that brings smiles on a dark day,
meals with friends that listen and accept us,
wine to make talk easier,
rainy and sunny days,
friends and yes their love
who are there when health fails,
so many things to be thankful for,
the good things are often over looked,
it is the pain
What makes a place holy?
People go to Monasteries for many reasons. Many are tourist and have their own personal reactions to what they see. For some it is a curiosity, sort of like going to Stone Mountain, or some other site of interest, with each visitor having their own unique take on what they allow in. Some people find Monasteries creepy and monks’ just men who are running away from life. Others just like the feel of the place. Some come seeking, and others come to reconnect with
What makes a place holy?
People go to Monasteries for many reasons. Many are tourist and have their own personal reactions to what they see. For some it is a curiosity, sort of like going to Stone Mountain, or some other site of interest, with each visitor having their own unique take on what they take in. Some people find Monasteries creepy and monks’ just men who are running away from life. Others just like the feel of the place. Some come seeking, and others come to reconnect with wha
What lies beneath
March 20—Holy Hour. “You are worried about the passage from this life to the next? But since it is the greatest proof of love that you can give Me, be glad. Offer your death to Me now with complete detachment, ready even for heroism. Say, ‘Even if I didn’t have to suffer death, I would choose it in order to be more one with Him.’ And in this way you will give Me the greatest glory a creature can give his Creator. Oh, precious death of the saints that echoes even in the heaven
What is trust?
In the English language the words ‘trust’ and ‘love’ are used in so many contexts that their meaning can be lost. For instance: “I love ice cream” is an expression about extreme liking of a ‘treat’. Then there is “I love my dog’, or ‘I love my wife”. Then there is ‘I love God’, or ‘God is love’. So ‘I love God’ and ‘I love ice cream’, do they mean the same thing?
The same is for trust. A salesman comes up and says: ‘trust me I am honest’. Or ‘I have trust in the gov
What is truly sought
The human heart longs for one thing only,
Seeks that which will quench its inner thirst,
Often taking paths leading nowhere
Or perhaps destructive in their fruits,
In the search for what it truly desires,
If often misunderstood.
Our songs tell of its agony and ecstasy,
The pain deep that it brings,
Also joys beyond bearing,
Asking nothing less than everything.
Parents know of this jewel,
Also know the pain that it brings,
The child more treasured th
What is the thirst?
After wholeness, fragmentation comes, the falling apart of well made plans for ones life. Rigid systems of self improvement, shattered in a moment, when past routes are retaken and once again there are only ruins to be seen, or felt, even if it is only experienced by the one who failed. It is then we are called anew, to step forward in faith, to pray to that reality that is beyond our comprehension, personal and loving. The harder it is to believe, the deeper the trus
What is the present moment?
Live, then, in the present moment. Choose to be faithful to Me in the little things that I give you and ask of you from minute to minute, from hour to hour, and from day to day.3 It is foolish to pin your hopes and to spend your energy on an imaginary good, when the real good that I offer you is here and now.
A Benedictine Monk. In Sinu Jesu: When Heart Speaks to Heart--
The Journal of a Priest at Prayer (Kindle Locations 3220-3223). Angelico Press. Kindle E
What is solid and secure
My line of work will not let me forget,
that the center that we stand on,
that feels so real,
is made of sand that allows all to sink into,
each moment becomes a memory,
racing towards a seeming infinite past,
our moments gone before we actually can experience them,
micro seconds at the speed of light
making all seem like the past.
Dream like our years fly by,
though real they are,
our life filled with meaning
making each tiny free choice important,
as we m
What is real, and most important in our lives?
January 13—Le Fresne church. I said, “Truth, I adore You.” “Yes, I am Truth. Sin is falsehood, error, darkness. “Every form of goodness is truth: the desire for good, work for justice . . . You will see later that only one thing matters and that is truth, for God alone matters. Attach no importance whatsoever to anything apart from Me, however pleasing it may be. Happiness is found in Me alone. “When I created man I placed deep within him a s
What is practice?
In seeking to live deeply ones spiritual path it is best to keep it as uncomplicated as possible. Have a practice that is simple to do, because effort is needed in keeping one foot in front of the other. Not to think of two steps forward or obsess on what happened two steps back, but to simply start where one is at. In chaos, or pain, in failure, or joy, or success, it is the same. All we can do is to start from where we stand, and taking the next step. Grace works th