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Hungry Ghost


markdohle

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Hungry Ghost

I guess along with the search for happiness, there is also the unwelcome guest of suffering and its brother and sister, frustration and loss. A trinity of sorts, for in a sense they are really one, for what makes us happy can also drive us crazy, and like all things in this life, must leave us in one way or another. Try as we might nothing can really be clung to for very long, for one moment changes to another, in an unending line of seconds, minutes and hours. We are called to face this in lent; don’t forget the ashes received on Ash Wednesday.

What is desired, once acquired, can more often than not lose it allure, leaving again the feeling of emptiness and yearning. We seek rest and permanence in ‘things’, which by their very nature wear out, break, or if they are simple projections simply fade away. For people also becomes ‘objects’, if desired in ways that demand that they somehow make the desirer happy and fulfilled, which is in fact impossible. For even children get bored with the most expensive and beautiful toys.

In lent, the call is to simply experience this inner boiling and craving without necessarily seeking to alleviate it inner burning, but to learn to wait and see where it leads once it burns itself out. For all inner states pass, one unto another, if allowed to work its way out in due time; for I would hazard to state that we all experience this, perhaps forced into it by circumstances. Lent is a time when we are called to do it consciously. For energy seeks integration and healing, this requires patience to simply be able to be with oneself without self judgment or self-contempt; or for that matter repression. For to repress only leads to acting out in other ways, to find some way to alleviate the inner pressure if not adverted to; it is called leaking.

This is of course very difficult; at least it is for me. I guess that is why I seldom have a ‘successful’ lent; my path is the hit and miss variety. I do better at it sometimes; at others I am lousy at carrying it out. Perhaps that is the point, at least for me; a lesson needed to be learned over and over again. For I often try to take this on as if I could do it all by myself. When in fact, the call is a grace that must be accepted and integrated into ones life….. for it is not an end in itself, but a call to use ones energy in the pursuit in what I feel we all seek, a relationship with what lasts, never grows old, can never be owned, not an object to be acquired, no, but a relationship with the divine that will never frustrate. The frustration come from what simply needs to be healed by grace, the misreading of this desire directed towards reflections of the real thing.

The desert experience, the inner void and coldness, are really withdrawal symptoms that must be endured, allowing the inner work to be done and loves energy redirected to what it is really made for, union with the eternal. Until that is done, we will be “strangers in a strange land”, seeking sustenance that will only leave us hungrier than we were before. I guess you can say we become ‘hungry ghost’, and will remain in that painful unfulfilled state until mercies message is understood. What is that message? I guess one part of it is; we are made for better things, called deeper, into joy and fulfillment that is beyond our comprehension, we are called to infinite love.

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