I have not been doing much journeying lately. Instead I have have been meditating to exit, then simply surrendering my self and evaporating into light. It's an amazing indescribable experience. I have been scared of this before because it is very much like a drug, but someone suggested that it should be a practice. So I let go of my fear of being not grounded and let it happen nearly every time now.
As I feared.... My attention has shifted to how wonderful everything is. It's like a permanent buzz. I burned my finger today and after yelping for a couple of seconds I actually started to enjoy the sensation ( now I know I am going nuts). Every day I'm takeing my kids on nature walks and soaking up the the outdoors. ( no Im not taking the painkillers from my surgery). Don't need them I had planned to be laid up for months. But I feel like I just scraped my knee up a bit.
It is true.... I'm feeling these urges to sell my business drop out of the race and be a stay at home dad.... Cooking , gardening, training my children on all the wonderful things I know. I can still earn cash a hundred other ways. I'm feeling that I want go live as close to earth as I can. Yesterday I put together a meal From wild salsify, wild greens, and some fish I had caught and had in the freezer.
How did I go from educated business man with a 1000 irons in the oven to spending ours sitting silently under oak trees for hours, meditating myself into oblivion, and actually contimplating a life gardening and raising children.
Sheesh what a ride this is.
"My father says that almost the whole world is asleep. Everybody you know. Everybody you see. Everybody you talk to. He says that only a few people are awake, and they live in a state of constant, total amazement." ----Meg Ryan "'Joe VS The Volcano"
I love that movie.