I'm just gonna jump right in and skip the formalities this time. Today I heard a song on the radio that sparked an incredible memory, and I'd like to share that experience with you now. This was probably around 5 years ago. My life at the time had a lot of spiritual ups and downs. Thinking about it I guess that hasn't changed all that much even today. Anyhow, I don't even remember what had put me in this state of mind, or exactly why I felt this way. I just remember driving down the road flipping through radio stations to try and distract myself. See somehow I had felt as though I was just lost. That every prayer, every step I took in my entire spiritual walk had been for nothing. I even remember questioning whether or not God even existed. I was in a really bad spot. To suddenly believe everything you had ever believed about your relationship with God had been a lie, for me, was about the worst place I could go in my mind. Yet there I was.
With actual tears beginning to run down my face, I stopped trying to find a song on the radio to distract me an shut it off. I had to speak to him. I had to vent my frustrations. I boldly proclaimed out loud to God that if he existed, and if he cared about me what so ever, that I needed him to reveal himself to me, and I demanded it happen right now. Suddenly realizing how ridiculous I sounded, I wiped the tears from my eyes. Knowing Id be disappointed. That no way God was going to move in anyway. At least not right that second. Ashamed that I had thought for one second God was going to somehow speak to me right then, I turned the radio back on.
The very first words I hear, on a station I would have never intentionally left on went like this. "I'm already there, take a look around. I'm the sunshine in your hair. I'm the shadow on the ground. I'm the whisper in the wind, and I'll be there till the end. Can you feel the love that we share? I'm already there." As if to put a exclamation point on the message, the song ended right there.
There are folks that would say this was a coincidence. An maybe they are right. To me, it was God letting me know I never had to question his existence. Or his love, or his involvement in my life. That not only had he been there the entire time, but would always be there. That I could find comfort knowing this.
Thanks for taking the time folks,