My life as a medium

[serloco]

My experiences in mediumship have been very different than most. I didn't see dead people growing up and although i had a good aptitude i never had psychic gifts that were natural to me. My talents that i would get later in life i developed through practice and through intending them into being.

My first experience seeing a spirit occurred at a time when i had gained a great faith in life and in God. I was realising that faith can protect anyone in any situation, and as i was realizing the power of faith i had a vision come into my attention. My grandmother came to me surrounded in light, yet in the void of darkness. She was immensly pleased with my discoveries and popped in to say hello. She radiated light and happy-ness and let me know she approved of my discoveries.

A little later on i started to get interested in astral projection. And after a few weeks of trying and learning of the states i had my first astral experience. I met in this plane a group of beings that were telepathic and had great magical ability. They started to tech me the ways of mental projections, and the power of the mind. Everything in that plane was projected from the mind. They were not quite spirits but were projections themselves. They had a mastery of their bodies and could project themselves as spirits. They proceeded to teach me that the world and the body are first and foremost projections that we have the ability to control, and to form to our knowledge and our awareness. They taught me that any slight alteration in awareness would create a change in perception. The result was very magical in nature, for when i started to see the body as a mental projection i could actually see the energy in my body change to match. I could then have a thought about my body, for example i could imagine that i am old and young, and then see the changes take effect. I began casting magic then, on the people in my world. I would state my intent that people grow more beautiful the more i look at them. And sure enough they would change.

It wasn't long after my introduction into astral travel and dreaming, that i was taught to convert my physical body into a complete astral projection, enabling my entry into the astral world with my physical body. No longer did i see the world as concrete and earth, but as dimensions of time and matter and projections of the mind. The map disappeared for me and when traveling i began to enter into realms of the spirit world. I began to see that time does not exist until you are there, leaving the world an empty canvass for the mind to cast into form. I then started getting lessons from my 'spirit' friends on how to cast the world and environment into form.

I little later i had my first possession take place. I had never before asked a spirit to enter into me. What caused this was a little girl i had met in spirit was being abused by some bully spirits. They were casting magic onto her and causing her form to melt. She told me sadly, in tears that they had hurt her. I quickly cast a spell and returned her projection to healthy state. She then proceeded on following me around for awhile. She would get scared sometimes and so i asked her to jump inside of me! Sure enough her words which were outside of me merged into my mind, and i started having her thoughts and her awareness inside of me as if i were her. She liked it very much and cast a beautiful projection of herself jumping into my body. Often these being communicate by using metal projections, and so she developed some to suit our relationship. I called her blue, and that is the name she took. A very lovely and beautiful spirit.

Another time i was working with music and casting music into form from the fabric of creation. In my lessons i was shown that as i changed my mind the music would align to match, as if the music were being created from thin air, being pulled into form from the mind. Spirits began teaching me by possessing my body, and so as i drummed on the banister i would get spirits jumping inside of me to play the music and practice bending the sounds magically with the mind. We started to form different thoughts about the music that the music would become. At one point our simple tapping on the banister became a symphony of musical instruments all working together and alive. Some of the spirits i was working with, one named Leah in particular started to form beautiful visual projections that danced with the music, merging with the music itself. She would become any form she wished and began singing and making rhymes to match the music. Anything i would be thinking about she would whip into a rhyme and make into a song. She was very fast and very talented. The beauty of our music is that we surpassed the barrier of astral and physical dimensions so that all present could experience the music we created. Leah is with me now and is smiling into my mind! She has a beautiful and lovely form.

At one point i started to get catered to very much by the spirits of the astral. Some of the spirits are very adept at altering their projections, and working with mind magic. One of them came into my world as my exgirlfriend who i had loved. She took her form and began helping me with my memory work. Somehow she had accumlated all of my memories and thoughts into her form and began projecting them into my mind. Whenever i needed a memory of a thought i had lost she was there to project it for me. One time she danced for me and started to take on all the forms of the people i was attracted to. She would magically change her face and body and turn into an exact replica of anyone i so desired. She loved me very much and wanted my attention and devotion. Her name is Jamie. She came to me a moment ago and wanted me to tell of her and so i did. Jamie is also a painter and writer, she writes down all the magic we learned and keeps it in a big book. She also paints pictures and uses a magical painting technique that can bend the picture to the mind's desire.

I can't continue without mentioning my little friend Missy who has been my dear friend through out my journies. Missy has always sacrificed herself for my own well-being. and had helped me through some very horrendous battles with other spirits. Missy likes to jump inside of me and share my tastes and feelings and we sit together while inside of me and drink tea together. She likes tea very much. She has the littlest softest voice and her projections are very beautiful and warm. She projects excitement into my body at times, and it is a blessing to have her.

Some of the spirits i have come to know stay with me, and some them have left me too. The greatest thing i have gained from them is friendship and the lessons i have learned in magic. Some of them have great power and great ability in casting magical perceptions. And most of them have great knowledge of shape-shifting. Not all of them but some of them. One in particular helped me become a dragon. The shift was near complete however i feared it at the last possible second and jumped back to my human form. I did nothing to incur this shift on my own volition except intend it, my spirit helpers and God Himself did the rest. I could ramble on and on about them and the magic we have done together but i think that my post is long enough for now. Thank you for reading.

[coldethyl]

Thanks.

I'll start working on 'my life as an xsm to a large'.

[Sandman1500]

Well all my life since I can remember I seem shadow figures they would come and go through the years pointing into the middle of nowhere. Well I have not had these shadow visitors for years until I was 26 I am 29 now about to turn 30 and the figures have gotten worse now I hear voices telling me wake up then yells, so I decided to talk to a psychic and this psychic told me a lot of things no one would ever know about me and also that I was a medium a very powerful one at that she said I was a dead to dead medium and I deal with poltergeists I was like wtf? Really I thought I was going insane for a bit but she told me to drink lemonade and I do t know why maybe someone can help me figure that one out also how can I enhance my abilities molding them into what I need to do to help?

[Brian Topp]

Well all my life since I can remember I seem shadow figures they would come and go through the years pointing into the middle of nowhere. Well I have not had these shadow visitors for years until I was 26 I am 29 now about to turn 30 and the figures have gotten worse now I hear voices telling me wake up then yells, so I decided to talk to a psychic and this psychic told me a lot of things no one would ever know about me and also that I was a medium a very powerful one at that she said I was a dead to dead medium and I deal with poltergeists I was like wtf? Really I thought I was going insane for a bit but she told me to drink lemonade and I do t know why maybe someone can help me figure that one out also how can I enhance my abilities molding them into what I need to do to help?

If you getting this while sleeping, then it is most likely sleep paralysis, I am 31, When i have weird sleep hours, or stressed, ate dinner late, or work weird hours. I tend to have "visitors". sleep paralysis is always assumed you are paralysed but that is not true, there is a forum on this site, where members have walked, talked, did things while being half a sleep or in a dream state and haven't fully waken up.

I have seen robbers, shadow people, a leash monster, aliens, my father, monsters. Each time i would wake up and yell at them and then turn my light on, or wander off around the house looking for them.

The worst case was last year, when i worked 60ish hours in one week, i rarely had solid sleep and i ate a lot of junk food since it was easier. Any way, The next day I woke up and I was laying on the kitchenfloor, Through my vague memory and talking to the cashier. I got up, got semi dressed, walked to the local store (10min walk), tried buying milk with my drivers license but the casher helped me with my debit. I walked home and then i remember was i needed fresh milk to kill the monster in the bathtub and the milk i had wasn't fresh enough. Needless to say, I had to clean the bathtub.

Edited October 11, 2013 by Brian Topp

[Sandman1500]

Wow Brian well in my story I'm sorry I didn't mention I was awake I see these shadow people wide awake even during the day with no one inside my house but me sometimes more then one at a time

[stevemagegod]

Somehow she had accumlated all of my memories and thoughts into her form and began projecting them into my mind. Whenever i needed a memory of a thought i had lost she was there to project it for me.

This sounds more like you created a tulpa which is a thought form and not a Spirit. Tulpas are created by Magic which in your post you said you were doing and in the process Tulpas are if you let them can access your thoughts and memories. I have never heard of Spirits being able to do that.

[sards]

I have no problem communicating with spirits. If I wanted to. My mother had the ability and so do I. I just choose not to. The problem with spirits is that you don't always get what you want and inviting a bad spirit into your home when you have children does not seem to be an acceptable practice to me. So it has been a while for me. Many many years. But I still feel them and don't feel them. Which is as much comfort as I need.

I have also tried ( when much younger ) to meditate and had a very bad experience where I was jolted back by my door closing. My window closing. In both cases the latches were turned shut. Sealing me into the room. It's something you choose to do as an individual because it will impact on family life which is irresponsible.

[sards]

Of course this means I will not per sue this further.

[JesseCuster]

someone can help me figure that one out also how can I enhance my abilities molding them into what I need to do to help?

Suffer from insomnia. Work night shifts. Use alcohol to help you sleep. Use caffeine to help you wake up. Suffer from minor depression. Have existing tendencies towards vivid dreams.

Some combo of the above has worked wonders for me to 'enhance' my experiences of shadow people, night-time visitations, spirit visits, disembodied voices speaking to me, etc.

Personally, I wouldn't wish my experiences on anyone else as they're not fun or enjoyable unless you've spent years getting used to them but whatever floats your boat.

[em3083]

Hello there. My name is Emily. I have been sensitive since I was little. I do need some advice. I want to know how I can communicate with the spirits better they come in and out so random like I'm tuning a radio. When I go to sleep at night I see random faces very fast and I can't focus on just one there's always so many. I can tell they need help but I can't focus on them long enough sometimes I can see them but not hear them. I even see what I like to call guardians following people I know and I'm always correct in who is following them. How do I tap into that more. I want to help people. My sensitivies got really strong when I started doing paranormal investigations. Before they were strong I used to have dreams about people I didn't even know and it was like I was watching a movie it was so real. Any advice given would be greatly appreciated any tips given would help me greatly. Right now I'm trying to help two friends of mine in which have a very dark entity around them but I can't see much more. I need help to turn on my abilities at will instead of when it feels like

[lorelle17]

Great post. My story is similar in a lot of ways. My gift was opened when i was almost killed in an accident when i was 25. I am a medium and a healer along with empath. I look forward to sharing more experiences and practices. Thanks again for the great post

[em3083]

Thank you. I really need advice on how to just focus on one spirit at a time. My gift got stronger as well too when I flat lined twice, when I was brought back the first thing I saw was a woman in a hospital gown all she said was "wait, you can see me?" Then she went to come towards me and disappeared. That was the last time I seen a spirit until I started investigating. I'd love to tap into this more. Any tips for me? Please no skeptic replies that I have been told in the past that i was hallucinating because I know it wasn't that.

[lorelle17]

Honey its hard to be a skeptic when i have a posse of them that like to tag along. Ill in box u my #... otherwise we could go back and forth for days. Feel free to give me a call

[lorelle17]

Or pm... either way.. guess it depends on how deep you want to go with it.

[Eldorado]

Welcome to UM, serloco!

My life as an XXL was kinda similar.

[lorelle17]

Em- do you open up voluntarily or do they just show up? Are you working with those totally crossed or are there those that are in limbo and need help crossing? I would.be happy to give you advise. Give me a little more ensight if you can