Possible Ability Or Curse

[JakeM]

I'm not sure if this is the right place to post this so forgive me if this is misplaced. This "ability" if that's what it actually is has got me incredibly worried. Although to be perfectly honest I think it's more of a curse or something, If such things actually exist. I know that sounds cliche but for me there is no other way of looking at it.

This all began when I was fifteen in my last year of High School. I was at a house party and we began playing dares. As I was the only openly gay person at my school at that time the others thought it hilarious to have me kiss a girl to "see what i'm missing" admittedly this was the first time I'd kissed either a male or female. We had to kiss for a full minute as per the rules of the game. Twenty seconds or so into the kiss the girl feinted and was taken to hospital where she remained for a couple of weeks. She hadn't been drinking and according to her the doctors didn't know why she had collapsed. I thought nothing of this at the time as I had no reason to think it was me responsible for it. 

A couple of weeks or months later me and a couple of friends went to a music gig in the next town over as one of our friends was playing there. Still the only gay guy in our group when my friends discovered another gay guy was at the same event from another school they were pushing to introduce me to him. He wasn't exactly my type but we got chatting and when the music started we decided to dance. By about song three he went in for the kiss and before the song had finished he had fallen to the floor clutching his chest. I added him and a couple of his friends on Facebook who kept me updated and turns out he had a heart attack. I've spoken to him since but haven't kissed him again. Even then I didn't think I was responsible for it and put it down to bad luck. 

Months later when I was sixteen I went to a friends pool party and we were playing that game where you pass around the orange with your mouth. When I passed on the orange to one of my friends nothing happened at first. Although our lips only barely touched a minute or two later she began struggling for breath and turned blue. We were all huddled around her trying to help and quickly decided the best thing to do was call an ambulance. She's still a good friend of mine and was shocked when she got to the hospital and they told her she'd had an asthma attack, something she's never suffered from before, or since. By this time I was starting to feel like something was afoot. My lips had only ever come into contact with three other people and every time that person has suffered some sort of attack or sudden onset illness. 

Not too long later a friend at school came out and we began dating. Over a few months we got rather close and he invited me to stay at his for the night. We got chatting and I told him my theory and what had happened to the other people I'd kissed. Rightly so he dismissed it as nonsense and kissed me quickly on the lips. Nothing happened. To put it mildly he began kissing other places and we were soon playing hide the Zucchini, so to speak. Before we were finished his nose started to bleed, then his eyes rolled into the back of his head and he fell on top of me having a seizure of some sort. Once again I found myself having to call an ambulance. He had a mild stroke and has only just started to speak properly again. 

For the two years that followed I never kissed another person out of fear that something like that would happen again. I'm now dating a guy I really like but don't have any explanation to give him as to why I won't kiss him. It has also progressed to other parts of my body but to a lesser extent. If I shake someone's hand they have a cold or a stomach bug within a couple of hours and If I hug someone they have migraines or a bad cough for days after. I went to the hospital and told the doctor that out of the four people I've kissed each of them collapsed and asked them to run a couple of tests to see if I was the carrier of some description of illness and my bloods and cheek swabs all came back fine. 

 I'm hoping someone here has some sort of suggestion as to what this is and how to deal with it. For me personally i think four people struck down right at the moment I'm kissing them is too much to be considered coincidence and I've ruled out anything medical. If you have any advice please respond. Hope you are all having a great new year, best wishes, Jake. 

 

 

 

 

 

Edited January 4, 2018 by JakeM

[papageorge1]

@JakeM

Really strange. Even the hand shaking and hugs results in illness. Definitely tell your new friend the whole story and be honest and admit what you don't understand.

I have never heard such a case before. It could be coincidences.  I admit that you also have legitimate reason to think this is more than coincidence. I do believe in energies of the super-physical realm effecting people but I have never heard of anything as dramatic as what you are describing. Conventional medicine has no way of recognizing such things.

You mentioned you were in your last year of High School at age 15. Are you perhaps hyper-charged intellectually and emotionally perhaps with unusually high energy that others are jarred by at close contact? You might want to see if you can contact a serious  psychic energy specialist and get an opinion. I would start first though by scouring the internet for related discussions to your situation (prana, qi energy).

Best wishes.

 

Edited January 4, 2018 by papageorge1

[XenoFish]

People get sick people. It takes time for illness to brew in the body so quit associating causing sickness with yourself. Unless you do have a psychic power and anyone reading this post will come down with malaria. You'd make a good psychic assassin.

[JakeM]

20 hours ago, papageorge1 said:

@JakeM

You mentioned you were in your last year of High School at age 15. Are you perhaps hyper-charged intellectually and emotionally perhaps with unusually high energy that others are jarred by at close contact?

No. In the Uk we leave High School at the age of sixteen (My birthday is in the holidays between school terms)

[JakeM]

20 hours ago, papageorge1 said:

@JakeM

You might want to see if you can contact a serious  psychic energy specialist and get an opinion. I would start first though by scouring the internet for related discussions to your situation (prana, qi energy).

I've searched online but most of the results are Succubus/Incubus stories which personally I don't believe in. I also came across "psychic vamprism" While I don't think that vampires are real in any way shape or form it mentions draining people of their energy which can sometimes cause ill affects. Apart from those two I can't find much else and I don't think either are the correct answer. 

[papageorge1]

2 minutes ago, JakeM said:

No. In the Uk we leave High School at the age of sixteen (My birthday is in the holidays between school terms)

So at 16, you are done with school unless you go to college?

[papageorge1]

Just now, JakeM said:

I've searched online but most of the results are Succubus/Incubus stories which personally I don't believe in. I also came across "psychic vamprism" While I don't think that vampires are real in any way shape or form it mentions draining people of their energy which can sometimes cause ill affects. Apart from those two I can't find much else and I don't think either are the correct answer. 

Wow, about the only thing I can think of is an in-person visit to some kind of psychic energy sensitive and get an analysis and whatever advice they can share.