PeterJGS Posted March 26, 2018 #1 Share Posted March 26, 2018 I’m not sure what’s happened But something seems to have clicked In my head I was doing so well For it all to come crashing down I tell myself that I won’t do it again That I won’t let it Get the better of me Again. But here I sit Glancing over my shoulder At you I know that you’re on your phone But what are you doing? Who are you talking to? What are you saying? Why are you smiling? Why are you laughing? I try so hard to fight the urges But they keep winning Overwhelming me with Anxiety and paranoia This is exhausting. The evenings seem so long And I time it just so right That when you leave the room I can look at your phone The window of opportunity is seconds And I hate that I’ve given in It just fuels my insecurity I can understand why I doubt your faithfulness You betrayed me last year And we’re both aware of the fact. We were doing so well So what’s changed? Why am I such a wreck? Why can I not believe a word? Is it sad that I still trust you? Is it weak of me that I still love you? So where do I go from here? You tell me that you love me And reassure me that there’s no one else. When I sit back and analyse things When would you even have the opportunity To be unfaithful? Where is the evidence? Am I letting this paranoia Manifest so much that I cannot believe reality Anymore. Or should I trust this feeling in my gut? Am I ill? Do I need help? Should I see the doctor? Or is this all your doing? Would I be better off without you? Because I love our life together And I don’t question the fact That you love me too So how can I diminish these thoughts? It’s killing me And it’s killing us. I’ll end up pushing you away. The last thing I want to be is A bunny boiler. But I feel like I’m already on the road To insanity And self destruction. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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