Conscious succubus experience

[Barek Halfhand]

Because your son suffers with episodes doesn't mean someone else who suffers wouldn't take offence. I get riled up about this subject because of all the negative stigma attached to mental illness. The things that people think about the mentally ill are just ridiculous sometimes. It is a subject close to my heart and I am very sensitive about it, I'll admit. I don't like it when people try and tie the paranormal to the mentally ill. No one tries to tie diabetics to the paranormal. Hallucinations do not have to mean paranormal. I'm not trying to be argumentative, I just don't want any more stigma created that one day I might have to overcome.

Anyway, thanks for the apology.

dang she smart dat kweenie!!.....B

[Barek Halfhand]

Sir....I think you went through a hell of a wet dream seriously.

For one....you would never have lasted hours your first time.

For 2...theres no such thing as a succubus or however its spelled otherwise I would have one as a pet.

For 3...Listen to your Docs

hey gater

spent some time at an Irving TX training center last year (in july- thought i was gonna MELT!!!)as funny as that is(and it IS!!) there are some real valid points to be taken here! IMHO.........B

Edited January 18, 2007 by Barek Halfhand

[Barek Halfhand]

I agree with you here: when we are exposed to something corrupt, or against our spiritual nature (as children of God) we become desensitized to this corruption thru the flesh. Which can leave us spiritually exposed. We get used to the high (feel good) of the corrupted act, and want more corruption to satisfy this hunger -the hunger increases as it is fed... similar to a drug addiction. I relate to it similar to the mentality of a serial killer-- First it's curiousity to torture animals, then tortures animals for thrills, then pornography w/ distorted fantasy, the nerve to act out the fantasy, no nerve needed for next victims, then it becomes almost an addiction. Then this corruption has this killer completely. It becomes an addiction, and one of the flesh, and sexual in nature.

The best thing is to get out from it/ stop whatever it is, as soon as you realize you've been exposed spiritually and not go back to it, at least I would think.

not bad for an SPnayasyer with a gussied up arckey!!!!.............B

i dont like sex and drugs

i dont like water bugs

i dont care about poverty

all i care about is me!

and i'm against it

i'm against it

well i'm againt it

i'm against it!

Ramones

[Radian]

Why not?

It would be contradictory to what God represents. It's forbidden- fallen angels had sex with women in the OT & it was forbidden then (nephilims/anakims.) They were eventually destroyed as a result. So, angels of God would have more authority or priviledge to seduce women/men depsite God's emphasis on the sin of fornication....?

NAW! Doesn't add up. imo.

[The Skeptic Eric Raven]

I would veiw this whole thing as a by product of organic brain problems. No need to bring in the paranormal.

[MUM24/7]

At the time, I thought it was an angel visiting me. Since then, I see the destruction it has had on my life in every area to some extent, so it was clearly demonic (along with it fitting the pattern of the succubus visits recorded throughout history).

-Uraeus

Uraeus, I was wondering why a young, goodlooking, intelligent guy like yourself is still a virgin ? Has it something to do with your religious beliefs and how can you keep it up(pardon the pun) in today's world, which constantly bombards us with images of a sexual nature in our day to day lives?? Maybe what you experienced is your body's way of releasing (again pardon the pun) built-up frustration ? I don't know, maybe it's time .....................

[Solidsdemise]

Uraeus, I was wondering why a young, goodlooking, intelligent guy like yourself is still a virgin ? Has it something to do with your religious beliefs and how can you keep it up(pardon the pun) in today's world, which constantly bombards us with images of a sexual nature in our day to day lives?? Maybe what you experienced is your body's way of releasing (again pardon the pun) built-up frustration ? I don't know, maybe it's time .....................

Thanks for the advice, but as I've said before, I can't ignore the paranormal events and how the experience conforms to patterns noted throughout history. How do I resist the tempatation of sex? I rely on God for strength first, and follow my standards for sexual boundaries in relationships.

-Uraeus

[Radian]

Maybe what you experienced is your body's way of releasing (again pardon the pun) built-up frustration ? I don't know, maybe it's time .....................

No disrespect, I'm sure (he) will know when it's his "time."

[Barek Halfhand]

No disrespect, I'm sure (he) will know when it's his "time."

amen to that Sunny-goddess!

there is love and there is sex. the two as seperate seem deluted...............B

Im a spy

in the house of love

I know the dream

that your dreamin of

JDM

Edited January 22, 2007 by Barek Halfhand

[MUM24/7]

Thanks for the advice, but as I've said before, I can't ignore the paranormal events and how the experience conforms to patterns noted throughout history. How do I resist the tempatation of sex? I rely on God for strength first, and follow my standards for sexual boundaries in relationships.

-Uraeus

Well I for one applaud you for being your refreshing self in this sex-obsessed (or that could just be me) society of ours and I'm sure the lovely lass that you eventually succumb to (be it your wife or whatever), will greatly appreciate it !!!!!!

[MUM24/7]

not bad for an SPnayasyer with a gussied up arckey!!!!.............B

i dont like sex and drugs

i dont like water bugs

i dont care about poverty

all i care about is me!

and i'm against it

i'm against it

well i'm againt it

i'm against it!

Ramones

How Barek, do you know this one ?

Mary had a little lamb, little lamb, little lamb................

Edited January 22, 2007 by Malakissmeni

[Solidsdemise]

Well I for one applaud you for being your refreshing self in this sex-obsessed (or that could just be me) society of ours and I'm sure the lovely lass that you eventually succumb to (be it your wife or whatever), will greatly appreciate it !!!!!!

Thanks - I appreciate it.

[Barek Halfhand]

How Barek, do you know this one ?

Mary had a little lamb, little lamb, little lamb................

THIS THREAD IS NOW CLOSED.

Barek halfhand: depity dawg

yes I do have an #54 jersey! wise akers!

[Scare_Crow]

I beg your pardon as this is my first post. I'll try to make it short as possible, but I thought those concerned would like to hear some details... of course i've left a lot of them out . I came across this site as I was trying to do some shallow internet research on an experience I had three years ago, and I've been impressed with what I've seen in this community so I decided to join.

First, a little background on me and what lead up to the experience. I am diagnosed with bipolar I disorder, and three years ago I was going through my first (and so far only) true manic episode, to the point where it had psychotic features. I was a devout Christian at the time, and a lot of the psychotic features were religious in nature. In addition, I had just overcome an addiction to pornography, and hadn't had any sort of release/nocturnal emission for 3 months; also, I'm a virgin. Theologically, this means I had open doors at the time to demonic influences, particularly sexual sin. At the time of this manic awakening, I had no idea I was under the influence of a disorder, and combined with additional stress including 2 hours of sleep per night for 3 months, it lead to full blown psychosis. After staying awake for 3 days straight at the end of these 3 months, it happened.

I felt something touch my hand, not physically, but something deeper, down to my soul, and it warmed me while I was lying in bed wondering what was going to happen to me. I was completely awake, but another post could describe the world I saw. I remember most of what happened so vividly. Her touch was perfect, and her master in the art beyond my imagination. I couldn't see her - I just felt sensations on my body and talked with her in my mind. She bid me to take her to a quiet place where my parents wouldn't hear, so I went out to the car in the dark.

Things further progressed sexually, and my energies were absolutely phenomenal - she always did the perfect thing to keep me going. As things progressed, I could begin to see more of her. The one thing that caught my eyes the most were hers - when I looked into them, I saw the stars and the heavens and thought of the atoms and matter that make each one, but all of that was still not enough to justify the eyes. They pointed me to another world, and all of what I saw in them pointed to an innocent desire to make love. Her body was effervescent, it changed according to what would arouse me the most, and I could not see her breasts or private parts - they were numb to the eyes. It was her hair, body type, skin color, ethnicity that all changed. She would morph seamlessly, moment by moment.

Another prominent feature of the experience was her scent. It was incredibly intoxicating, like a sort of indescribable flower with intimate features. It reminded me of everything that is good and beautiful in the world, and it described what I saw in her eyes. All of her touch - it wasn't so much physical as it was much, much deeper.

The whole nature of the experience was so innocent. I felt no guilt, no darkness, no lust whatsoever. The focus was on pleasing her, and in turn she wished to please me. She would often giggle and I felt as though we were in the Garden of Eden, making love for the first time in all creation, and that God had given her such a magnifiscent gift of doing so - I didn't believe that, but that's the closest way my mind could describe it.

She brought me to a certain point where I felt I could go no further, never achieving climax yet during the experience. All of a sudden, she broke down crying, telling me that I would be going through a very hard time. Just then, I saw a vision and felt presences around me. I was reminded of Christ and his experiences leading up to his crucifixion with visual hallucinations, and I saw the spiritual side of what was happening to him.

I asked her who she was, and she didn't answer. I saw that she understood that she could not understand the pain that i had just witnessed. After 6 hours from her first touch, she worked me to an incredible climax.

I had no idea at the time of what that being was I thought visited me. I thought it was an angel sent by God, as that intense experience helped get me through that hard time, and I saw a lot more of the world through the experience. But I've never heard of angels doing such things. It seems from what little research I've come across that this is related to a succubus visit. I didn't know what you guys think. Honestly, this experience has had a profound impact on me... In a way, it saved my life as that experience carried me through my hospitalization period soon afterwards. It did come with some deceit as well - which I see as a demonic feature as well that I won't get into.

I'm fascinated with the intersections of psychological states and the spiritual realm - and I believe mania with psychotic features is one way to explore this.

Oh, I wasn't touching myself for the record.

Does this sound characteristic of a succubus visit? Is it unheard of to have it while you're awake, as I was at this point (but with no sleep for 3 days)?

Thanks

If you are a saved Christian, you cannot be "visited" by anything demonic, unless you are under the influence of drugs. The Holy Spirit is a very powerful protector. Far more powerful than this female spirit thing. You've got a good imagination. You could write professionally, I think.

Get married, and a lot of your concerns expressed here, will disappear. God is extremely cool when it comes to providing a mate. There are angels whose only job is, matchmaking.

Edited January 28, 2007 by Scare_crow

[Barek Halfhand]

If you are a saved Christian, you cannot be "visited" by anything demonic, unless you are under the influence of drugs. The Holy Spirit is a very powerful protector. Far more powerful than this female spirit thing. You've got a good imagination. You could write professionally, I think.

Get married, and a lot of your concerns expressed here, will disappear. God is extremely cool when it comes to providing a mate. There are angels whose only job is, matchmaking.

ALL true but snip the "cannot" and replace with "may not"..........b

OT- Bears fans only please..enjoy

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SW47o9GMnig

Edited January 28, 2007 by Barek Halfhand

[Solidsdemise]

If you are a saved Christian, you cannot be "visited" by anything demonic, unless you are under the influence of drugs. The Holy Spirit is a very powerful protector. Far more powerful than this female spirit thing. You've got a good imagination. You could write professionally, I think.

Get married, and a lot of your concerns expressed here, will disappear. God is extremely cool when it comes to providing a mate. There are angels whose only job is, matchmaking.

I disagree. Granted chemical imbalances can open doorways, no Christian is free from sin, and all Christians are susceptible to some demonic influence. C.S. Lewis describes this problem as having a healthy balance, which is typically to understand how they influence you in your particular life - but not to the point of obsession. Angels are here to protect and serve us, including battling our own demons.

Also, thanks so much for the compliment - it means a lot

Ephesians 6:12

"For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms."

Edited January 29, 2007 by Uraeus

[Radian]

If you are a saved Christian, you cannot be "visited" by anything demonic, unless you are under the influence of drugs. The Holy Spirit is a very powerful protector. Far more powerful than this female spirit thing. You've got a good imagination. You could write professionally, I think.

If you knew what you were talking about you'd know that Jesus himself was even tempted by demons. Even Jesus himself said once a person is clean from demons the demons will try to re-enter the person and bring multitudes with them. Go back and re-- read.

[Scare_Crow]

I sorry, I meant possession, not visitation. What this young man describes, however, I would describe more as temporary possession. However, if he didn't view it that way, then my bad. You're all correct; a saved person can be "visited."

Edited January 31, 2007 by Scare_crow

[iroc4141]

I just stumbled across this thread right now........Wow, you are a very deep person. I do think that there is a thing as SuperNatural and I do think there is a thing called Mental Illness. When I say Mental illness I don't mean it as a mean or a degrading way by no means. I just mean a mental state that is very unusual from the normality of people. This could be a state or just an experience like the one you had. You are no differant as a person than I. We are both human beings. When you say you are a virgin, how old are you. If I could change things I would love to have been a virgin and my wife the same when we met, but that can't be. We both feel the same. That is the way to go honestly. I feel bad for you and know the life you must have lived, especially throught high school. You must have went to a pretty big school, or at least a decent sized one. There is someone out there for everyone, please believe me. I don't care how you are. There is a carbon clone of the opposite sex that is just like you. You said that you were diagnosed as being bipolar. That means that you have talked to people before. Talk to them every once and a while just to get another person's advice. We are all your friends here and if you need to talk to people go ahead we are hear to listen. But from the norm of people they don't have expierances like this. You need to dig deeper and the only other person I know that might know more than me is people on here, a Mental health Doctor, or a psychic. Try them all, what's to lose. It's nothing but time. I hope that you do find peace eventually and a family even. Just happiness. Good Luck!

[RadicalGnostic]

Uraeus, I agree that your visitation was more of the angelic kind, particularly the part about healing inner wounds. The Archangel Raphael is associated with healing in Jewish and Christian sources (Old Testament book of Tobit, for example).

One question for you: Why do you believe a sexual encounter would be evil or injurious to you? Sexual response is a neutral expression, in my opinion; how you use sexuality is what is important. Can sex be healing? I am convinced it can be.

I was taught in grade school that anything which heals, restores or builds up is virtue; anything which wounds, damages or destroys is evil. I don't completely agree with the statement, but I found it a good starting point for determining how I might interpret my thoughts, desires, intentions and actions.

Hope this helps.

RadicalGnostic

[Barek Halfhand]

Uraeus, I agree that your visitation was more of the angelic kind, particularly the part about healing inner wounds. The Archangel Raphael is associated with healing in Jewish and Christian sources (Old Testament book of Tobit, for example).

Hope this helps.

RadicalGnostic

Hey RG!

found this link

hey if Raphael was a great ninja turtle he must be an awsome Angel!.....B

http://www.sarahsarchangels.com/archangels/raphael.html

Edited February 2, 2007 by Barek Halfhand

[Solidsdemise]

I just stumbled across this thread right now........Wow, you are a very deep person. I do think that there is a thing as SuperNatural and I do think there is a thing called Mental Illness. When I say Mental illness I don't mean it as a mean or a degrading way by no means. I just mean a mental state that is very unusual from the normality of people. This could be a state or just an experience like the one you had. You are no differant as a person than I. We are both human beings. When you say you are a virgin, how old are you. If I could change things I would love to have been a virgin and my wife the same when we met, but that can't be. We both feel the same. That is the way to go honestly. I feel bad for you and know the life you must have lived, especially throught high school. You must have went to a pretty big school, or at least a decent sized one. There is someone out there for everyone, please believe me. I don't care how you are. There is a carbon clone of the opposite sex that is just like you. You said that you were diagnosed as being bipolar. That means that you have talked to people before. Talk to them every once and a while just to get another person's advice. We are all your friends here and if you need to talk to people go ahead we are hear to listen. But from the norm of people they don't have expierances like this. You need to dig deeper and the only other person I know that might know more than me is people on here, a Mental health Doctor, or a psychic. Try them all, what's to lose. It's nothing but time. I hope that you do find peace eventually and a family even. Just happiness. Good Luck!

Thank you for your heart-warming and supportive response. I'm actually 20 right now and in college... So far, the most helpful people I've found are those who have had experience with demonic encounters and pastors of the Christian faith. I'm already starting to see what it means to have a real connection with another person, despite the setback this experience has had on me in the past.

But as was said before, the psychologists and psychiatrists come first along with peer support. Otherwise, only more damage is done focusing on such an experience.

Best,

-Uraeus

[Solidsdemise]

Uraeus, I agree that your visitation was more of the angelic kind, particularly the part about healing inner wounds. The Archangel Raphael is associated with healing in Jewish and Christian sources (Old Testament book of Tobit, for example).

One question for you: Why do you believe a sexual encounter would be evil or injurious to you? Sexual response is a neutral expression, in my opinion; how you use sexuality is what is important. Can sex be healing? I am convinced it can be.

I was taught in grade school that anything which heals, restores or builds up is virtue; anything which wounds, damages or destroys is evil. I don't completely agree with the statement, but I found it a good starting point for determining how I might interpret my thoughts, desires, intentions and actions.

Hope this helps.

RadicalGnostic

The sexual encounter in and of itself was not damaging, and I fully agree with you on that. What was done with it was repulsive and incredibly evil, which I left out of the thread due to content reasons and personal reasons, and it was guided by this entity. This experience shaped a lot of my thoughts and I experienced some healing, yes, but that pained the demon who attacked me in order to try and damage me or who knows what else . Thank you for your help!!!

-Uraeus

[Solidsdemise]

I've posted a followup to this thread. It can be found here:

Succubus Experience Pt 2

Thanks,

-Uraeus

[aaron7322]

Uraeus... seems to me you actually had an actual encounter with a succubus. As far as all the cases I've heard of the victims seem to notice the eyes more than anything else. Yet, the dreams may be comfortable for a time. Once your reality of the being has brought them to fruitation, you will see the eyes turn into the most evil thing you've ever seen. Then that's when it becomes real and they can cause pain and begin to be brought into your own actual reality, but by that time, they can or will induce a heart-attack. I am sorry to be so blunt and unheartly. You being a virgin and not sleeping for days may have caused this as the human pschye can create anything with enough thought and energy from the soul, body, and mind. It's important to express your sexual nature as a human being. The demonic entities can be created even by a Christian who lusts for such things and can create it and bring life to it. I knew of a story where someone was doing a paranormal investigation on one in a grocery and it followed him home. Not only was this man not a virgin, but he slept like a other person, but became haunted by this evil creature.